Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Wednesday....What??

It's wedsnesday........

Nothing much to talk about today!!!

Met a guy, he's all right I guess.....We will see!!!!

work is still the same......slave labor....LOL

I one of my good friends is having a big party on Saturday and I don't have an outfit yet!!!! We have to wear ALL WHITE....I have to be FIERCE you know how the gay boys do it!!!!!

I am sooooo feeling the Charlie Wilson cd.....check it out!!!!

Why do I have a "unibrow"? I better take care of this tonite!!!!

Why did my friends neglect to get our tickets to see MUSIQ at the house of blues?

I need new responsible friends!!!!! LOL

Happy Wednesday!!!!

Monday, September 26, 2005

All star tribute to Luther.....

I went out yesterday and got the all star tribute to Luther. I lub me some Luther.....I grew up listening to him and my kids are growing up to him.

MARY J./ never too much: she did o.k. I am a Mary fan. Period I know a lot of folks don't care for her but I have ALWAYS liked her style.

USHER/superstar: I have never really been an usher fan but he SANG.THIS.SONG. He did a great job........LOVE IT!!!!!

FANTASIA/TIL MY BABY COMES HOME:1st of all who let her take part in the project? I'm so not feeling ghetto.fabulous.period.

BEYONCE' & STEVIE WONDER/SO AMAZING: shit you could have put Michelles.clumsy.non.singing.falling.on.106.and.park.ass on the record with Stevie and it would have still been the shit!!!

ARETHA/A HOUSE IS NOT A HOME: What can I say!!!! Aretha.......is aretha

DONNA SUMMER/POWER OF LOVE: ***crickets chirping....hmmmm

ALICIA KEYS/IF THIS WORLD WERE MINE: she did a good job.......doesn't give me goose bumps

ELTON JOHN&LUTHER/ANYONE WHO HAD A HEART: AWESOME!!! I have always liked Elton John....ALWAYS!!!!

CELINE DION/DANCE WITH MY FATHER: she did it justice!!!! Sang it like it was written for her. she has such a pretty voice!!!

WYCLEF JEAN/ALWAYS AND FOREVER: WHY?????WHY???WHY????
WHY.IN.DA.HELL.WOULD.CLIVE.DAVIS.LET.HIM.MESS.THIS.CLASSIC.UP?

BABYFACE/IF ONLY FOR ONE NIGHT: He did a great job. He is "babyface" but I think he could have did a better job on another song.......

PATTI LABELLE/HERE & NOW: after all she is "PATTI" the DIVA she put her own spin on it and did the dam thing!!!!

JOHN LEGEND/LOVE WON'T LET ME WAIT: He also did a good job. someone else could have probably did better but hey.......you can get through the song!!!

ANGIE STONE/SINCE I LOST MY BABY: Angie did a great job. she will have you moving to the beat for sure!!!!! Go Angie!!!

JAMIE FOXX/CREEPIN: He put it DOWN!!!! He put his own spin on it and saaannngg!!! He was the right person to do this song!!!! LUVED IT!!!

All and all I liked this cd. I am not usually fond of remakes. This really is a tribute to one of the greatest singers ever!!!! It was worth every penny.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE VH1 HIP HOP HONORS TONIGHT ON VH1!!!!

YEAH I LUV ME SOME HIP-HOP!!!! ONLY THE REAL SHIT....NOT THE "HOTT.GARBAGE.THEY.TRY.AND.PASS.AS.HIP-HOP."



Wednesday, September 21, 2005

sometimes you need a male point of view.........

Big shot out to "organized noise" for his advice on THE LIAR!!!!!

I have thought about his comment for a few days and he makes soooo much sense!!!!

Thanks though to my 'blog gurls" for their advice also. It sorta makes you feel a lil better when y'all threaten to help me "whoop" on him and tell me what an ass hole he is etc...etc....

I was at a "stand- still" so to speak. Not moving foward. I guess still hurting. Now that I bumped into him and got his fucked up wannabe apology, I realize.....i'm OVER HIM!!!!!

TIME TO MOVE ON..........................

THANKS TO ALL OF YOU FOR THE GREAT ADVICE!!!!!

Monday, September 19, 2005

Is "i'm sorry ever enough?

I bumped into "the LIAR" saturday nite!!! Me and the girls were out> I was all "dolled" up and feeling really good!!!! We had "SPONSORSHIP" (free drinks all nite) We were having a ball...........then out of no where here he comes!!!!!

Now for thoose of you who don't know...........lemme take you back!!!! The LIAR is my ex......I broke up with him in March. I would take y'all back to the posts about him but you all know I don't know how to link SHIT!!!! Go back to the posts titled "LET'S TALK ABOUT THE LIAR" Any who.........we broke up cause after being an item for 2 years.....he forgot to tell me he has a wife back home in Dallas!!!!!! The nite I found out......he wouldn't "man up" and confess......I confronted him, he stood there with a dumb ass look on his face, I called him a few "choice names" and that was it!!!!!

I avoided the places we both frequented.....then he left for deployment( that's where the ship leaves for 6 months)....well he was not due back until October according to my calculations..........

Well back to Saturday nite!!!! He walks up to me and I drop my head!!!! Dam now i'm ready to go!!!! He walks his NON.TRUTH.WIFE.HIDING.ASS. up to me and wispers in my ear..............I'M SORRY!!!

what the fuck!!!!!! SORRY????? Then he walks out the door leading to the patio.........................SORRY!!!! 1st I thought that was enough but then I got mad.....................hell blame it on the martinis....

He broke my heart, in lil tiny pieces.....He is not the man of character I thought he was!!!!! He lied to me for 2 whole year. I LOVED HIS BLACK ASS!!!


ALL I GET IS I'M SORRY!!!!!

THAT HURTS!!!!!

HAPPY MONDAY TO YOU ALL!!!!!!

The "liar posts are July 12th and 13th

Thursday, September 15, 2005

PAIN......WHAT PAIN?

Thank God for "legal" drugs!!!!

A gurl from the clinic downstairs took "pity" on me yesterday afternoon and gave me some "samples" of ULTRACET.........WOOOO WHOOOO!!!! I took one for my ear pain she said naaaawwww sista you need to take TWO!!!! My dumb ass did!!! Knowing dam well I have a low tolerance for drugs!!! LOL In about 20 minutes I was sooooooo freaking HIGH!!!!!! I was "floating" for the rest of the day!!!!! "what earache"? Boss lady came back from a meeting and asked why I was so giggly, I told her I had taken two of the "happy pills". She replied "Dee you should have only taken ONE!!!!" DUUUHHHH!!!! Shit I didn't care, I felt GOOD!!!!!

I was answering the phone like I was at home!!!!! "HELLO" None of that Thank you for calling family medicine this is Dee how can I help you bullshit!!!!! Just plain ol HELLO!!! Like i'm at the crib!!!!

I don't think I got much work done either........I looked like I was working though!!!! Floating around the clinic!!!! Then I had to cover the phones for a meeting......HA.FUCKIN.LARRE.OUS!!!!! So many calls....sooo many questions.......tooo dam funny!!!! I didn't take ONE message!!!! Just good ol advice from the "happy nurse"!!!! LMAO

HAPPY FRIDAY EVE!!!!!!!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

OOOOUUUCCCHHHH!!!!

I know why babies scream their asses off when they have ear aches!!!!!

My fucking ear is KILIILNG ME!!!!! I went home early yesterday with ear pain.....It had me in tears by 3.....................I need pain killers...................heavy narcotics!!!!!! I had 2 vicodin left over from a tooth ache and that shit didn't TOUCH it!!!! So I did what any responsible adult would do........I drank two beers!!!! I know I know you should not drink with narcotics but I was in sooooooo much pain!!!! I fell asleep and woke up in tears!!!!!

Now you may ask "Dee why didn't you go to the emergency room?" Well before i left work I had a Dr. here look in my ear and he suggested I take a decongestant like Claritan D......so I figured I would just go home and sleep the shit off!!!! WRONG!!!!! WRONG!!!!!!!WRONG!!!!

I Pray this shit goes away TODAY!!!!

F.Y.I nurses are terrible patients!!!!! LOL

HAPPY HUMP DAY Y'ALL!!!

Monday, September 12, 2005

I had a good one.....I think!!!

1st let me say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ONLY BROTHER WILL!!!! HE IS 34 TODAY!!!!
It seems like just yesterday we were taking baths together, getting our asses beat together, sleeping together when we were afraid while momma was out.....etc....etc......
Now he is all grown up!!! Single dad doing an awesome job raising my nephew solo since birth!!!!
I hope he knows how proud I am of him!!!!!

FRIDAY: to try and cure the "blues" i've been feeling I get all cute and meet the gurls out. My gurl is here visiting from Atalanta. My other gurl is feeling really down due to Katrina's bitch ass. She has exhausted ALL her funds trying to help her mom and other family members!!! We had a great time.....then something went terribly WRONG!!!!!! I wound up D.R.U.N.K.O.F.F.M.Y.A.S.S. How did this happen? I only had $20 in my purse!!!!!!

1st let me say this.........Dee the DIVA can drink!!!!! Yep I said it....I am a drinker!!!! I can drink most under the table!!!!! But I rarely ever get DRUNK!!!! I always have to be in control!!!! ALWAYS!!!!!! What the hell happened?????? My gurlfriend had to drive me home!!!! She kept saying "dionde'(my real name) I have never ever seen you like this!!!!" I still don't quite know what happened.....Saturday after trying every hangover remedy known to mankind......she called and we did a drink count!!!!! 8 vodka martinis......................DAM!!!!!!! I had a great time up until we tried to check out another club................I made it as far as the ladies room, never ever entered the club!!!!! What happened in the bathroom? The world will never know!!!!! LOL

SATUDAY: After finally getting off my death bed.......my bestest friend in the whole wide world drove down from Long Beach!!!! I had not seen her since her son graduated in June and we went up for that. She came down with the kids and we chilled all day and caught up!!!! We talk weekly but we hardly ever see each othe.....we are only 2 hours away. I usually go up there every 2-3 months but I told her it's not fair.........she never comes down here!!!!! Last time I left her house I told her "you know the freeway does run South" So It was cool seeing her and eating and eating some more!!!!!! gurl talk and eating some more!!! LOL

SUNDAY: They left after breakfast. My oldest left for work. My youngest went to a party with the neighbors, and I LOUNGED!!!!! ALL DAY LONG!!!!!! I stayed in p.j's all day!!!! My son came home from work and I sent him to get my favorite meal from the local taco shop................I ate he left for a dinner party..........I napped...................my youngest got home and had already eaten...............we lounged and watched a few movies then I slept some more!!!!!

I GUESS I DID HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!! HOW WAS YOURS?

Friday, September 09, 2005

Friday......oh how I love you!!!!!

I am soooooo glad it's Friday!!!!

Even with Monday off, this week was still loooong!!!

Why is that?

Why do my co-workers call in for the stoooopidest shit?

Why did some idiot make the coffee sooooo strong?

Why am I soooo hungry?

What happened to me dating?

That didn't last long!!!!!

Why did my ex-husband ask me if I wanted to borrow some money?

Why are my Grandma and Aunt and uncle in Paris right now and i'm not?

Why am I broke and I just got paid on WEDNESDAY?

DAM I'M GLAD IT'S FRIDAY!!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND MY BLOG PEEPS!!!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Today is a new day!!!!

Thanks y'all for all the kind words!!! I'm glad i'm not alone feeling the way I feel!!! Helpless, selfish at times complaining about petty shit.....etc....etc......you name it....I'm feeling it right now!!!! THAT'S WHAT I LUV ABOUT THIS BLOG "ADDICTION" I KNOW I'M NOT ALONE!!!!

Today is a brand new day!!! I have my health. I have A GOOD JOB!!! TWO AWESOME KIDS and great family and friends!!!!
No more crying and feeling down!!! Just praying and thanking God for ALL MY BLESSINGS!!!!

Y'all have a great HUMP day!!!!!

Monday, September 05, 2005

Tired of being tired..................Do I have the right?

My prayers continue to go out to my girlfriends family as well as Ms. Nikki and her fam. All thoose people who in one way or the other have been changed by this catastrophe called "Katrina".

All weekend I've been in the house feeling really down!!!!
Tired of money problems.....................

Tired of work shit..............................

Tired of the asshole I was once married to sending me what the fuck he wants to every month..................

Tired of making a dollar outta 15 cents...........................

Tired of raising my boys alone...................................

Tired of being thousands of miles away from family...........................

THEN I TURN ON THE NEWS AND I SEE FACES OF DESPAIR, FEAR, SADNESS AND A LOT OF OTHER EMOTIONS I CAN ONLY IMAGINE!!!!!!

WHAT GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO COMPLAIN?
I have a job to go to in the morning.........
I will get paid on Wednesday, even if it is ALL for bills...........
I have a car to get in even if my car note is late.................
I have dinner for my kids tonite.....................
I HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN BECAUSE IN A BLINK OF AN EYE........................I COULD HAVE NOTHING!!!!

I am an emotional mess right now!!!! Is this normal or is it just me?

Friday, September 02, 2005

MY HEART IS SOOO HEAVY RIGHT NOW!!!

THIS IS THE RICHEST COUNTRY IN THE WORLD!!!!!!! HOW THE FUCK IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO GET PEOPLE OUT OF NEW ORLEANS???????

LET ALONE GET THEM FOOD WATER AND MEDICAL SUPPLIES!!!!!!

BULLSHIT!!!!!!

I FEEL SO HELPLESS, OUTRAGED, SAD, MAD, YOU NAME IT...I'M FEELING IT AS I'M SURE YOU ALL ARE!!!!!

ONE OF MY BEST GIRLFRIENDS IS FROM NEW ORLEANS AND MOST OF HER FAMILY IS IN TEXAS HEADED TO ALL OTHER PARTS OF THE COUNTRY.....CHICAGO, ATLANTA, TO "START OVER" TRYING TO REBUILD THEIR LIVES!!!!! THANK GOD HER IMMEDIATE FAMILY WAS ABLE TO GET OUT IN TIME!!!

What about thoose less fortunate?
Thoose left behind?

My girlfriend is flying to texas to be with family members today!!!! She is worried sick about thoose in need and her family all left with nothing!!!!

WE CAN FLY TO THE FUCKING MOON......BUT CAN'T EVACUATE A CITY!!!!!

I AM SOOOOOO SAD!!!!!