Monday, September 05, 2005

Tired of being tired..................Do I have the right?

My prayers continue to go out to my girlfriends family as well as Ms. Nikki and her fam. All thoose people who in one way or the other have been changed by this catastrophe called "Katrina".

All weekend I've been in the house feeling really down!!!!
Tired of money problems.....................

Tired of work shit..............................

Tired of the asshole I was once married to sending me what the fuck he wants to every month..................

Tired of making a dollar outta 15 cents...........................

Tired of raising my boys alone...................................

Tired of being thousands of miles away from family...........................

THEN I TURN ON THE NEWS AND I SEE FACES OF DESPAIR, FEAR, SADNESS AND A LOT OF OTHER EMOTIONS I CAN ONLY IMAGINE!!!!!!

WHAT GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO COMPLAIN?
I have a job to go to in the morning.........
I will get paid on Wednesday, even if it is ALL for bills...........
I have a car to get in even if my car note is late.................
I have dinner for my kids tonite.....................
I HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN BECAUSE IN A BLINK OF AN EYE........................I COULD HAVE NOTHING!!!!

I am an emotional mess right now!!!! Is this normal or is it just me?

17 Comments:

Blogger Organized Noise said...

I can relate. Our problems might not mean much to the rest of the world, but they are still OUR problems. If we don't deal with them, nobody will. I totally believe that your feelings are normal and you're not the only one feeling the way you do. A lot of people go through to same internal struggle that you're going through right now. It not an uncommon feeling.

6:19 PM  
Blogger Diva said...

Hey boo...I cried for most of the weekend. Everything was getting to me. It seems like what I've done and what I'm gonna continue to do for the hurricane victims doesn't alleviate the pain. I heard from my girlfriend FINALLY, I have a friend who I've no idea where he is, I have friends who've lost loved ones...it's just too much. But, I continue to pray and live my life inspite of the sadness that seems to nearly suffocate me.
*sigh*
Love ya girl and yes, DIVA'S BACK and I'm BACK with a fuckin' vengeance!!

6:26 PM  
Blogger courtneyelizabeth said...

GIRL...dont trip...i definately feel you right now.....stay up

7:12 PM  
Blogger Kayla said...

It's normal to feel this way. Every now and then we have these moments. It's alright to sit on your pity pot every now and then. Just be sure to flush when you are done.

7:19 PM  
Blogger Aziza said...

@Dee: Your emotions are normal. Last week, my emotions were up and down and all over the place. I tried not to watch the tv news so much, but I couldn't stay away from it. It just hurt so bad to see people who look like us be treated like animals behind a chain link fence at the superdome.

Folks were suffering before our very eyes on tv and folks like Condi were attending plays in NY and buying thousand dollar shoes. I just wonder how people of means go on with their daily lives and feel nothing for those suffering. My mind is tired and exhausted of worrying last week. But I still want to be a part of a movement that will look towards getting together a long-term plan to help the hurricane survivors get their lives back on track. The survivors (our family) will need jobs, a place to live, assistance with placing their kids in school, health care, emotional counseling, and a whole lot of compassion and love. I want to be a part of something like that. I appologize for this long comment. *weak smile*

5:48 AM  
Blogger Nikki said...

Every problem I've ever had seems small compared to what those people in New Orleans have had to endure. I have no right to complain because I know those people are going through some trying times right now. I wish I could lighten their burdens.

6:14 AM  
Blogger Msnhim said...

So totally normal...... i feel the same way.

8:15 AM  
Blogger Schatzi said...

It's normal. Our problems don't go away because others are hurting. They just seem so minimal compared to what's going on. But none-the-less... They are still our problems!

9:30 AM  
Blogger SMW said...

I am emotional too Dee.

I thought it was just me.

*hugs*

10:13 AM  
Anonymous Coley said...

YEAH it's normal girlie!!! This is life... I think what you're going thru (the daily strugle of life) is normal! I do think it's good to put our own problems in perspective, check ourselves every now and then... and realize that it could be a lot worse. I've been thru some SERIOUS stuff and had to deal with A LOT!!! But, just remember there's always someone else who has it way worse... I hope you feel better soon! Sending you lots of cyber hugs... XOXOXOXO

~Keep your head up!

12:35 PM  
Blogger LadyandtheTramp said...

It's sooooo normal!! But it's good to know I'm not alone in being so conflicted between thinking of myself, and those who are really in need. I thought I was being selfish.

2:34 PM  
Blogger BajanQueen said...

No you're not alone....I like you feel the same way. This weekend I was in a funk also. I refused to go out and do like everyone else and have fun. Life throws us a lot of curve balls and sometimes you just want to throw a couple of them back and say ENOUGH ALREADY!!

But like you said you have a roof over your head, 2 beautiful boys, a job, a car, you have more than a lot of people out there. Girl you're not alone, we all have those kind of days.

Pray for strength and guidance from God and you won't go wrong.

I hope you feel better real soon!

Smooches :)

5:47 PM  
Anonymous Reddy said...

I totally feel ya girlie.. huggs.. This is really a weird time and very emotionally charged.

6:52 PM  
Blogger Cutie Cola said...

It's not just you girl......I think we all should count our blessings and just send up a word of prayer for our brothers and sisters facing this tragic situation.

9:07 PM  
Anonymous Safa said...

It's not just you. Thsi is normal...unfortunately.

9:22 PM  
Blogger YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe said...

I'm over here counting my blessings, too, Gurlie. I know I need to step back tho, from all this. I was already running late this morning, but when I opened the fridge, I was standing there looking at a half gallon of milk... just pondering...over the baby who needs it. Looked at the half eaten bowl of goldfish crackers, wanting to eat it, just so it wouldn't go to waste. The list goes on, but I truly feel you.

Just the mere thought of how many babies are within the death toll, made tears well up. I wish this was over for the victims. I'm praying they get BLESSED with MORE than they ever had before.

Hope ya feel my hug ((Dee))

9:24 AM  
Blogger Nicky said...

Girl this is so normal and my sentiments exactly.

4:58 PM  

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