Tuesday, January 31, 2006

let's take a break from the stalker!!!!!

I decided to take a break from my drama that is the "stalker".

Let's talk about my oldest son, who makes me really proud to be his mom!!!!!

Let me give you new readers a little backround on James.....my first born. He is a senior. He is 17 and an all around good young man!!!

Last May he was asked to the sr. prom by a girl who had been dumped 2 weeks before the prom. James stepped up to the plate and decided to go with the girl. One week before prom I got a call from a teacher saying James had a D in her class. You know I don't play that shit so I called him on his cell and told him "call ol gurl and tell her you can't go to prom with her" Long story short the gurl cried and her mom had the nerve to call me and question the way I parent MY CHILD!!!! She called her self going off on me and I LET HER ASS HAVE IT!!!!! You can go back and read it I think it was titled "oh no she didn't" back in May.................anyway it was a bit much.she even had the vice principal call me as well and I had to give it to her cause as an educator, I expected her to side with me..............it was a big deal!!!! I ended up telling a few folks off!!!!

Fast foward..................a gurl my son works with asked her to a dance at her school. she needed a date at the last minute so he stepped up to the plate.

James: mom this whole being nice to gurls is expensive..........

me: yes sir and it gets better when you start dealing with WOMEN

James: yeah my tux is $95 ans her flower thing is $25

me: wow.......but she's paying for dinner, the tickest and the limo............

James: yeah that's true but she is a cool friend, so it's all good.

me: that's really nice of you..............

James: I don't want to make another girl cry about a dance and me not going at the last minute..........

me: well as long as I don't get any calls about your grades.....

James: aaawww Ma belive me I learned my lesson last time..............my grades are SOOOO STRAIGHT!!!

me: then we have no problems!!!!

James: No Ma we don't cause you don't PLAY!!!

LMAO!!!! Times like this asure me that i'm doing o.k as a mom!!! Sometimes I question myself and wonder if i'm going about parenting the right way but my boys ALWAYS show me that my hard work and lessons/lectures really do pay off!!!

Monday, January 30, 2006

And the verdict is.....................

I decided to leave dude ALONE. He just doesn't get IT!!!! I told him that I was really upest about him just showing up at my house. I also told him that I don't think he needs to call me 123,876,999 times daily.I told him that I just wanted to be his friend(for the 2nd time).I made good eye contact............I did'nt smile.......... This was Friday night. Saturday he called me SEVEN times!!!!!!! Then He asked if I wanted to go out for drinks later. I said NO!!!! He asked if he could bring over some beer and drink a few with me I said "no thanks.I just want to CHILL" He then asked if he could make dinner and I come over.........NO!!! He asked if I wanted to cook if he brought the food NO!!NO!!!!

Sunday morning 3 calls I ignored.................the 4th call I picked up and said" LOOK I NEED YOU TO STOP CALLING ME SO MUCH!!!!! I NEED MY SPACE!!!! IF YOU CAN'T RESPECT THAT.I'M GONNA ASK YOU TO STOP CALLING ME PERIOD!!!!! WHEN YOU CALL THE FIRST TIME AND I DON'T PICK UP, WHEN I LOOK AT MY PHONE, I CAN SEE THAT YOU HAVE CALLED.....WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT I WILL CALL YOU BACK......IF AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT!!!!!

dude: so you are saying I call you 2 much?

me: EXACTLY

dude: so you want me to pull back a little

me: do you know the difference between wants and needs??????

dude: I think so......

me: let me break it down for you..............wants are things you CAN live with out............jewelry, fancy cars, cable t.v NEEDS are things you HAVE TO HAVE like AIR,WATER AND FOOD!!!!!

dude: o.k whaty are you saying Dee?????

me: I NEED YOU TO STOP CALLING ME SO MUCH!!!!

dude: that hurt.................

me: do you understand what I NEED????

dude: yes..............

This was Saturday night!!!! I thought I made myself crystal clear!!!! Sunday morning he called at 7 a.m. Asked if I wanted breakfast........NO THANKS!!!! He called at 9 and asked if he could come over and see me.........NO I'M CHILLIN 10:30 "do you want to come over and I fix you lunch" NO DUDE I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU TODAY OR TONIGHT!!!! I NEED SOME SPACE!!!!!!!

dude: but I miss you..............

THAT WAS THE FUCKING BACK BREAKER!!!!!! HOW THE HELL CAN YOU MISS ME WHEN YOU SAW ME ON FRIDAY NIGHT AND I TOLD YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SPACE!!!!! YOU HAVE A PROBLEM!!!! NOW IF YOU DON'T GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.....I AM GONNA DEMAND THAT YOU STOP CALLING ME PERIOD!!!!!! THE MORE YOU CALL ME AND ASK ME OUT IN THE SAME 24 HOUR PERIOD....THE MORE I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AT ALL!!!!! STOP ASKING STOP CALLING!!!!!

dude:you don't know how many women would love to be in your shoes...........

well go stalk them.........please don't call me anymore!!!

I can't do it anymore!!!!! He is a bugga boo!!!!! I have never had this happen before..........I really don't even want to have a friendship with him...............................

Friday, January 27, 2006

I really liked dude.........

I liked him, I really did. He made me laugh.......he made me smile........all the time!!!!

Then I felt he was moving fast............I just wanted to slow it down a lil bit!!!!

He got mad when I introduced him as my "friend".......

I thought that when you get into a relationship both parties had to talk about it..sign some paperwork, give each other dap(handshake), drink on it or something...........

Dude showed up at my house!!!! Yeah he called 123,865,999 times during the day but when I talked to him that morning I told him I didn't feel well and I would be going to sleep after work!!!!

Maybe he really was worried when he kept calling all through the day and I didn't answer...........

Dam when dude SHOWED.THE.FUCK.UP.AT.MY.DOOR he didn't have even a box of kleenex, no NYQUIL, no orange juice or chicken soup................what the hell????

It has been brought to my attention that I din't give dude a fair chance.............

Yeah I may have been a BITCH for cussing him the hell out but I meant it!!!!! You don't just come to my house talking about you were worried.....................

DUDE I HAVE A FUCKING COLD NOT THE PLAGUE OR WEST NILE VIRUS!!!!!!!

Am I wrong????? Did I over-react???? I have a gurlfriend who seems to think I was a lil HARSH...........whatever...........

I know that you all will give it to me straight with no chaser!!!! LOL

Yeah I talked to him yesterday night........he said he was really sorry and yadda yadda..............I reminded him again that it's not cool to show up at my house EVER............without me saying it's o.k. He seemed to understand.................

Do I give dude another chance or do I kick him to the curb???

Are my RED.FLAGS legit or am I just being a pessimist(sp?)???

What do y'all think??????

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

DUDE YOU HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!

This DUMBASS called me 123,234,999 times yesterday!!!! I answered once at 6 a.m and said this " I don't feel well. I'm going to work because I have to. When I get off i'm going home and go to bed!!!"

Dude called me a gazillion fucking times!!!! I din't answer!!! I keep my phone OFF at work and check a couple of times a day to see if anyone has called!!!! I saw he had called and didn't call him back.......WHY????? Because I didn't feel like it!!!!!!

I left work about 3:30 went home and cooked a really quick dinner, got in my p.j's and got in bed by 5 with my dinner, some o.j and my cold.medicine.to.knock.my.ass.out. At 5:30 My son comes in the room "dude is here" Stop playing son..........."no mom he's at the door!!!! My son goes back out to the living room and he comes back and stands in my doorway.............i'm laying in bed with my cherry nightgown on looking up at him like he HAS.LOST.HIS.FUCKING.MIND!!!!

ME: WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??????

IDIOT: I was concerned...I knew you were sick and I hadn't talked to you today.you were not answering my calls............

ME: I fucking talked to you at 6 a.m.

IDIOT: I was worried you had went to the hospital or something.

ME: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?????MOTHERFUCKKA I WORK IN A CLINIC WITH 20 DOCTORS!!!! WHAT IN THE FUCK WERE YOU GONNA DO FOR ME?????? WHY IN THE HELL WOULD I CALL YOU?????? I AM A FUCKING NURSE!!!!!!

IDIOT: I WAS CONCERNED...........

ME: BULLSHIT..........YOU WERE BEING A FUCKING STALKER!!!!!! DON'T EVER,EVER,EVER, COME TO MY HOUSE WITHOUT CALLING ME!!!!!

IDIOT: You didn't answer your phone though.........

ME: that's because I didn't want to talk to your ass!!!! did you ever think about that!!!!! I DON'T FEEL GOOD!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO TALK!!!!!

LOOK AT ME AND LISTEN REALLY GOOD!!!!!! GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE AND DON'T CALL ME AGAIN!!!! YOU ARE OUTTA LINE!!!!! WAY OUTTA LINE!!!! YOU HAVE NO RESPECT FOR MY SPACE AND I DON'T APPRECIATE IT!!!!!!

Do you know this CRAZY motha fucka said "I can see you are mean when you are sick"

DUDE WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??????


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

WHAT IN DA HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM?????

I went to bed early last night. I came home from work, ate some soup and a grilled cheese took some cold.and.cough.make.your.ass.drowsey.medicine, put on my p.j's and hit the bed!!! The boys were not at home and wouldn't be for the next hour-two hours...........yes.....just enough time for me to be knocked-da-hell-out!!!!!

I forgot to turn my cell off!!!!!! BIG FUCKING MISTAKE!!!!

He called at 7:30, 8, and 9 He called the house phone twice as well......I heard my oldest say "my mom is sleep" Then my phone rings at 3:38 a.m. WHO THE FUCK CALLS YOUR CELL AT 3:38 IN THE MORNING????? NEGROE YOU BETTER BE ON YOUR FUCKING DEATH BED!!!!!!!

ME: hello, what's wrong???

dumbass: I haven't talked to you

Me: what the fuck????

dumbass: I called you quite a few times last nite and you didn't answer..

ME: because I was SLEEP!!!!! I don't feel good!!!!!

dumbass: you sounded o.k when I talked to you earlier

Me: i started feeling really bad after lunch!!!! I decided to come home take some medicine and REST!!!!

dumbass:oh

me: why in the fuck would you call me this time of the morning??? I thought it was an emergency!!!!!!

dumbass: well go back to sleep and call me when you wake up.

me: wait on it!!!!! CLICK!!!!!!

dumbass didn't even say feel better or anything........ASSHOLE!!!!!

Monday, January 23, 2006

It just is what it is.................

Happy Monday y'all!!!!

I have read over ALL the comments. You all have some valid points and I thought a lot about what I want.

I have decided that my "hesitation" so to speak is from FEAR!!!! I sat dude down and told him exactly how I felt. I explained to him that I would rather us become "friends" real friends 1st before becoming a couple!!! He didn't like the idea. Just like I thought his idea was because we were/are having sex..we were a couple.........WHAT THE HELL????? Who in this day and age thinks that?????? So it's my fault for not making that clear before engaging in "adult naked fun"............What I should have said before the 1st sexual encounter is "hey we are gonna have sex but i'm not your gurl"!!!!

So on that note...............I told him that we will eliminate ALL.NAKED.FUN.UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!!!!!!!! Let's build a REAL friendship I told him!!!!! He looked at me like I had 3 fucking heads!!!!!!

Hmmmmppphhh that shit didn't go over very well!!!!!!

I'm sticking to it!!!!!

o.k you all can chew my ass out now i'm ready!!!!!!

How was YOUR weekend?????

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Lemme write a REAL post...........

Since I got cussed out yesterday for having a fake post.............I will not mention names..well yeah maybe I will......LOL Ms.Tam(you're lucky I don't know how to link). She said "is that all we get"???

Let's talk about the new guy. He still makes me ~~~SMILE~~~. He's nice and funny and considerate. He just moves a little fast. Yeah there I said it......I told him we need to take things slow and just enjoy each others company......he said and I quote "i'm a grown ass man and I know what I want" Well DAAAYUM how do I respond to that??????? I responded by saying let's build a friendship first and take it from there.....he took that as rejection.........I din't say I didn't want to see him anymore, I simply said hey I like you and I really enjoy your company but let's just be friends....Is that so wrong????

He said that I am taking it out on him what the "liar" and my ex-husband did to me......he won't hurt me yadda yadda yadda is what I heard............sorry i'm not making him pay for the things they did to hurt me but I do have to keep my guard up............ya know???

Shit if it was up to him i'd be moving in next month..............he's already talking about taking me home to meet his family............WHHOOOAAAA. I'm like shocked.........this is happening really fast......

My gurlfriend keeps reminding me you have to be careful what you wish for...........yeah I prayed for a man worthy of all I have to give. I prayed/wished for someone to treat me the way I DESERVE to be treated and BAAMM!!!! Here he is...........it's almost unreal......we get along really well. His kids get along with my kids. He's got two kids 13 and 17 like my kids. Except the 17 year old is a girl and I have both boys............like y'all didn't know that.......LOL

Well we will see.......Am I so wrong????? I want to just take things SLOW!!!!! We were in the grocery store and I introduced him to someone as my "friend" when we got to the car he said "i'm not your friend...i'm your MAN"!!!! What the hell??????? What did I miss????

speedy: i'm not your friend...i'm your man!!!

me: when did this happen??

speedy: (with attitude) don't be such a smart ass!!!!

me: i'm serious!!! When did we establish ourselves as a "couple"???

speedy: how would you feel if I introduced you to someone as my friend??

me: shit it wouldn't matter cause you are my friend!!!!

speedy: I thought you were my woman....

me: did you ask me when I was sleeping????

speedy: Dee you are such a character.......

me: I don't remeber you asking me to be your woman

speedy: what are we in highschool?????

me: uuuuhhhh no but don't you have to ask me???

speedy: I like you a lot..I know what I want!!! I knew you were gonna be my woman the 1st time we spent the nite together!!!!

me: uhhh well I like you 2!!!

speedy: let's just change the subject!!!!! (with attitude!!!)

me: O.K.

Now y'all know i'm new to all this dating and courting and shit!!!! I was married for 124,345,876,999 years then I JUMPED right into a relationship with the "LIAR" But when do you know you are a couple???? Shit doesn't someone have to ask or something????? Am I just "old school"???? Shit do I have to sign something?????

DEE DO YOU WANT TO GO WITH ME?

YES NO
MAYBE

CHECK ONE

How do you know????? He has not mentioned it since then........

How does this work?????

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Turn that frown upside down...................

Morning y'all!!!! Thanks for all the support and threats to the ex and the IRS............dam them BOTH!!! My blog fam is the shit and I appreciate y'all......reading the comments made me smile and laugh!!!!!!! YOU.ALL.ARE.THE.BESTEST. and some of you are just NUTZ!!!!!

I decided this morning that THIS week WILL be BETTER!!!!!! Has to be!!!!!! Besides my Grandma says it will be better and SHE.KNOWS!!!!!

I feel bad I should have done something with the kids yesterday in honor of Dr.King but I laid around the house ALL.DAM.DAY. I did cook a nice dinner..................

I will get this I.R.S shit under control and the EX well I just won't answer any of his calls/e-mails..............

I hope you all have a great day.................I will!!!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

The IRS is the DEVIL!!!!!!

To top off my horrible day yesterday............I got a letter from the IRS yesterday!!!!!! They say i owe them 4,000

what the hell!!!!!!

How in the fuck is that possible???? I don't have $400.

Let's recap yesterday's events.............shall we?????

woke up and forgot I had a class to attend for work at 7...........DAM.DAM.DAM.

The cabinet under my bathroom sink just fell.da.fuck.apart. when I opened it!!!!!!! like in pieces!!!!!! Cheap ass particle board...............

Get to work and find out I had made a MAJOR fuck up!!!! Boss lady is trying to cover my ass!!!!!!

Check e-mail and had that dumb ass crackhead ex of mines ask to claim one of MY kids on his taxes..........that started an ALL DAY E-MAIL WAR!!!!

There was a letter on my desk saying my next check will be GARNISHED!!!! Some debt that I have no idea about!!!!!!!!! $1,212 lets see how many payments is that?????

Then get home and get that letter from the IRS!!!!BASTIDS!!!!!

My new sweetie blew my cell phone up like his life was in danger!!!! AFTER 6 CALLS AND I DON'T ANSWER...............DEE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK!!!!!

AFTER CALL 4 I WAS CALLING HIM "STALKER"

yeah he's sweet and all that but when I told him earlier that I was having a bad day and I was in a horrible mood.........I THOUGHT THAT WOULD DO!!!!!! I SHUT MY CELL OFF!!!!!

Today is not better cause the shit from yesterday still LINGERS!!!!

Last nite I was sooooooooooooo depressed I went to bed at like 7:30..............

I'M soooooooooo glad Monday is a holiday.........

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

IN ITALY THEY MUST PUT crack IN THE WATER!!

MY EX HUSBAND HAD THE NERVE TO ASK IF HE COULD CLAIM ONE OF THE BOYS ON HIS TAXES!!!!!!

IS HE ON FUCKINCG CRACK???????

HE BARELY GIVES ME ANY FUCKING MONEY AS IT IS!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!

CLAIM THE CHILD YOU HAD DURING OUR MARRIAGE!!!!!!! OH YEAH YOU CAN'T CAUSE THAT BITCH IS ON WELFARE!!!!!!!

ASSHOLE!!!!! I WORK MY ASS OFF TO PROVIDE AND YOU HAVE THE NERVE!!!!!!!!

HE MUST BE A CRACKHEAD!!!!!

THE NERVE OF HISS SORRY ASS!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 09, 2006

How was your weekend?~?~

Hope everyone had a great weekend............

I chilled all weekend!!! I went out Friday nite with my new sweetie and two of his friends. We had a great time. We danced and drak a lot!!! I had to dance my ass off to keep my buzz under control....LOL It was also my duty to dance with all 3 of them being the only lady with them...............

Saturday, I rested ALL.DAM.DAY!!!!! I think I may have bed sores!!!!!! LMAO

Sunday Harry (my youngest) had a basketball game.it was the 1st of his season and he lost...aaaww he takes it hard when they don't win....I didn't even talk about it after the game........usually we talk about what he could have done better and he asks me what I would have done......so after the game I didn't even bring the game up...............

The new guy is still really sweet...............it just scares me a little cause things are just soooooooooo um right!!!! I'm trying to be positive but after being hurt TWICE in a row...I can't help but wait for the ball to drop!!!!!! At least I do know that he doesn't have a wife back home in Mississippi...not like the LIAR!!!!! Y'all remember him right????? Go back and read all posts titled the LIAR!!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!! He had the fucking nerve to call me this weekend..I didn't even answer!!!!!!

I hope you all have a great day.....................how was your weekend??????

Thursday, January 05, 2006

college footbal,chicken wings,beer and tears...........

I watched the game last night with my new sweetie. I went over after work and we drank beer ate chicken. I'm not really into college ball but it was a good game!

We sat on the floor and chit chatted and ate a big ass plate of chiken and drank. He is soooooo sweet!!!! pinch me cause it seems so unreal........ I'm not a mushy gurl but I find myself saying "aaawwwww" all the time!!!!! It kinda happened so fast it's making my head spin.....................

One of my best gurls left last nite for Atlanta............she called me when I was leaving his house. She had a few things she wanted to give me that she couldn't fit in her car. She called me and said she was on her way to my house and she would wait for me....I told her to just go............it's easier that way.....I cried all the way home....she is a great friend.....she really helped me through my breakup with the "LIAR" back in March................she is the "real deal" when it comes to friends............ATLANTA here I come!!!!! Soon as the weather breaks.....LOL

as far as the comments yesterday..........I do need to work on my bad ass mouth!!!! I always wanted to but with a lil incentive................

Happy Friday eve.................

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Divas still got a smile on her face!!!!!!

Things are still all good with new dude!!!!! He is just..........just nice!!!! He makes me laugh. The stories are soooooooooooo freaking funny!!!! He is from a town of about 500..........yep 5.0.0. that is soooo dam funny to me!!!!!

Last nite we were on the phone a lil to long and I told him he was killing my roll-over minutes (gotta love cingular). He said are you ready for this? Dude said well i'm gonna go get you a s.p.r.i.n.t. phone so we can talk as long as we want!!!!! Me huh????? I said "why don't you just strap a LO-JACK on my ankle................" Then I fell out laughing............He didn't laugh at all!!!! I crack myself up!!!!!

Yesterday he picked me up for lunch and we sat in the park and jsut talked!!!!! How cool is that?????? Who knew?????

He did tell me that I needed to work on my bad mouth!!! As incentive to stop all the fucking cussing I do, he said If I quit for a month, he would take me anywhere in the states I want to go in the spring...............I said o.k but DAM.IT.I.WANNA.FUCKING.START.IN.FEBRURAY.CAUSE.THE.MONTH.IS.SHORT.AND.THIS.SHIT.WILL.BE.HARD!!!!!

I crack me up!!!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

THEY SAY THE WAY YOU BRING THE NEW YEAR IN IS THE WAY YOUR WHOLE YEAR WILL BE......................

I had a great new years eve. My lil brother,his gurl visiting from Hawaii, my nephew, my son(the oldest had other plans....dam 17 year olds!!!!!) My gurl Jaime, her daughter, and my new friend and his 2 kids.....we had a great time eating and playing games..........very nice time had by all!!!!

New years day, my new friend cooked for me again..........yeah!!!! Twice already........he went to the store and came back with a pork roast, black-eyed-peas, cornbread, cabbage and fried some chicken!!!!! I layed on the couch me and my gurl drinking bloody mary's while he cooked one helluva dinner......I think he's a keeper!!!!!!

Let's talk just a little about H.I.M. He's a few years older than me.........40 and a REAL gentleman!!!! He just makes me smile!!!!!!! I'm scared cause it happened so fast and feels ummm sooooo right!!!!!! He kept calling my brother brother-in-law on Saturday nite!!!! Me and my brother got a good laugh about it last nite!!!!! Yesterday bestfriend came over to meet said dude that is taking up ALL.MY.TIME. LOL she brought 2 of our other friends along cause my friends are just nosey like that!!!! All three of them said he was hella cool but best friend called when she left and said "Dee he held your hand most of the time we were there....that's really sweet" AAAAAWWWWW!!!!!

Anyways.....I will take it slow o.k ms. NIKKI......for now I will just enjoy and hope it stays just like this.....the compliments, the phone calls, the good feelings I could REALLY GET USE TO THIS!!!! He said "i've been looking for someone like you my whole life"!!!!!! Dam no one has ever said that before.....shit even if it was/is a line, it sure as hell felt GOOD!!!!!

Back to the plantation today after 4 1/2 days off!!!!!

Hope you all have a great day!!!!!!!!