Monday, May 29, 2006

Don't call it a comeback................

Hey blog fam...........I have been M.I.A. for a minute.................I'm still here but I have been havig soooooo much fun. I will give ful details later.....................

I'mma (yeah I know it's not proper english...yadda yadda) I'mma go catch up on all of you and I will have a r.e.a.l. post later in the week!!!!

No I didn't meet up with the ex-co-workers and "bosslady"....yeah yeah I can hear y'all now........I punked out!!!!!!


o.k give it 2 me............................

Friday, May 19, 2006

What the hell is my problem????????

I got a text and an e-mail from a co-worker, well ex co-worker. They set up dinner near my old job because everyone misses us. The girl that sent me the text said boss lady will be there and they want me 2 be there as well......I told her I didn't know if I could make it................her response was that she was sure that everyone would be sad if I didn't come. I like most of them and LOVE a few.

I was there longer than any of them......I trained all of them in some way shape or form...........from the girls in the call room 2 the medical assistants to the front desk girls. I taught them about each of the Dr.s personalities.........what's cool about them, what makes them tick, who runs late....yadda yadda...........

Why don't I want 2 meet theese people that I spent 40 hours a week with for over 7 years??????

I think it's because i still feel bad about causing boss lady 2 lose her job.........I feel a little embarassed that i made a STUPID choice trying 2 help someone who obviously didn't give a F.U.C.K. about me!!!!! Over my 10 plus years as a nurse I have did the same thing( written a note to go back 2 work or school) for SEVERAL people...............WHY.DID.IT.GO.SO.WRONG.THIS.TIME?~?~?! NOT ONLY DID I LOSE MY JOB BUT I CAUSED MY BOSS 2 LOSE HER JOB................SHE ONLY HAD 5 YEARS 2 GO BEFORE SHE COULD RETIRE FROM THE UNIVERSITY...............Boss lady has told me several times that she doesn't blame me......she assures me that she would do it for me again........she says that GOD has other plans for the both of us but I STILL FEEL BAD!!!!!!

I don't think I will go!!!! I haven't seen any of them since I was terminated. I don't know if i'm ready!!!!! I will meet boos lady for lunch ALONE but i'm just not ready 2 look at the rest of them........

WHAT THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM????????

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

just what I needed.................

My mothers day was cool!!!! I did my traditional brunch with best friend. we ate our asses off!!!! Then my gurlfriend had a mothers day party at the club she works at. They had a live jazz band. we danced and danced and drank. It was a blast!!!!!! I got dropped off and picked up!!!! It was great!!!!!

The card I got from my youngest made me ball my eyes out.............

front: 2 the best mom ever from your 2nd born son

inside left:mom when you are worried I will give you hope...........
when you are sad I will dry your tears..............
when you are sad I will comfort your fears................

mom even when I get mad at you I will always still love you because you are the best mom a son could ever have!!! I am thankful 2 have you!!!! go have the best time with your friends cause you deserve it!!!!

I was balling my eyes out after reading...........especially because I was feeling soooo bad about my friends son passing..............

I got drunk dialed from "big country" early saturday morning..........he met some friends from college out at a club about an hour away. They stayed in the casinos hotel so they wouldn't have 2 drive all the way home after clubbing..........

me: hello is everything o.k???

big country: yeah!! we had a great time.....

me: are you drunk?????

big country: yes siiirrr and I thought i'd call you

me:o.k

big country: I just thought I would get you back from last weekend

me: I deserve it............

big country: nah i was just thinking about you....

me: aaaawwwww


we talked for about 2 hours. it was cool. we went 2 eat when he got back 2 town and I needed it because i was feeling sooooo down!!!!! We laughed and people watched and I felt a lot better!! !!!

sunday nite i didn't drunk dial him I just sent drunk texts................LOL

When he called me Monday evening he said he appreciated the drunk texts............I told him my gurlfriend scolded me for drunk dialing. He asked "does your gurl have a man??" I said NO he said well miss lady I definetly wouldn't take HER advice!!!!!! LOL

My baby didn't win prom king...........he lost by 20 stinking votes!!!!!!

Y'all know I can't post pics but I will jsut say my baby looked soooooooo handsome!!!!!!

I'm still feeling a little down but i'm trying 2 keep my spirits up!!!!!

have a great week!!!!!!

Friday, May 12, 2006

I just can't imagine.............

I got a call from an ex-coworker yesterday!!! I didn't want 2 answer but im glad I did......she was calling 2 tell me that a girl that once worked with us lost her son............WHAT I don't understand what you are saying 2 me???? Brent is only 14........she told me he was hit by a car and killed...........I just hung up!!!!

I am in shock!!!! No mom should have 2 plan a funeral for her 14 year old son.......

I am soooo sad!!!! I waited and waited 2 call her because I didn't want 2 hear the hurt and pain in her voice...............

I went 2 bed crying..........

I woke up crying............

I called a few minutes ago and left a message.............I only know her cell number..........

I prayed for God 2 give me the words............

NO MOM DESERVES THIS....................

It could have been one of my boys.................

Thursday, May 11, 2006

If she can do it...............

I just read the BEST book!!!!!! A PIECE OF CAKE by CUPCAKE BROWN

This is an awesome book of survival. This is the memoir of a woman who OVERCAME horrible things!!!!!

She was thrust into the foster care system after her momma died when she was 11. Her sperm donor sent her away to the foster momma from hell. This sent her into a never ending cycle of running away, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, prostitution, gang activityand theft. You name it she did it................

It was not just her hellacious youth that touched me it was her DRIVE!!!! After leaving rehab she decided to try school. Not only did she graduate community college and San Diego state.........she went on to LAW SCHOOL!!!! You hear me?????? Law school!!!!!!!

I was in tears!!! I read the book in record time.......it is AWESOME!!!!!!! I was a little skeptical to read a memoir after the "million little pieces" OPRAH fiasco but i'm glad I picked this book up!!!!! check out her story at www.cupcakebrown.com

If she can do it...............WHAT THE HELL IS MY EXCUSE??????? WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?????


GUESS WHO GOT NOMINATED FOR PROM KING????????

yep...... my oldest was sooooo excited when he got in from school yesterday!!!!!! He was going against 50 seniors and he has made it 2 the top 5!!!!! he came home with his little crown on yesterday...............grinning from ear 2 ear...........

"mom someone nominated me for prom king"

who son???

"I don't know probably some females"

that's cool..........

"they nominated me on Monday but I didn't think anything of it cause there were 49 more popular boys nominated 2!!!" Then they came 2 my home room today with this little crown saying I made the final 5"

that's awesome son!!!!

"I guess i'm more popular than i thought"

I guess so baby!!!!

"I hate I have 2 run against my homeboy Shane though"

oh yeah that sucks...................

"oh well it's a competition........it's on!!!!! I've been walking around all day shaking hands saying vote for James Monte vista sr. high prom king 06!!!!!!!

my baby prom king...........it's soooo cute 2 see him so excited!!!!!!!!

I will keep you posted!!!!!! Have a great day!!!!!!!!

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Easy like Sunday morning...............

I love that song.......................

Thursday night a gurlfriend called me and asked me 2 go 2 a salsa bar with her. I was soooooooo much fun!!!! I love live music and even though I may not have had salsa lessons..........i know how 2 move!!!!! LOL I enjoyed watching couples dance........the movoements are hella sexxxy!!!

James(oldest son) and I............no I had a fight with him!!!! He came in at 5 a.m. yesterday morning. Now the rule in my house is this...........i don't mind you staying out late as long as I know where you are. Send me a text, voicemail or something!!!!! when I wake up at 2 a.m and there are no messages on my cell and you DON'T answer your phone.........I PANIC!!!!! 2 no answer 3 no answer 4 no answer now i'm worried!!!!!

son why din't you call me or send me a text letting me know you were o.k?

mom I left my phone in the car.......

so you couldn't stop what you were doing for FIVE minutes 2 send me a text?

mom I just didn't think about it!!!!

so think about this.........the next time you decide 2 stay out this late and not be considerate enough 2 call or text me..........just stay where you are!!!!!!!

huh?????

next time you decide 2 come into MY house this late and not have enough consideration/respect for me........KEEP IT MOVING!!!!!!

but mom i'm 18!!!! you are treating me like i'm 14!!!!

I don't give a dam if you are 118!!!! respect me and my house!!!!! unless you want 2 be roomates............

huh?????

If you give me 1/2 the rent and all the utilities, i will treat you like a roomate. don't eat my food or ask 2 use my car!!!!! you can come and go as you please...........rent is due 2day!!!! you got my money?????

nope

well you wil act like you are my son..........respect me and be considerate of me!!!!! Next time things will not turn out so nice!!!!!!!! You understand me????? And please don't ask 2 use my car until further notice.........

sorry mom!!!!!

He had 2 be at work at 10. So he had 2 get on the bus by 9..........I could tell he was hurting............tired as hell!!!!! me and Harry(my youngest) went on with our saturday morning breakfast plans while his ass WALKED 2 the bus stop!!!!!


I bumped into the LIAR last night!!!! He walked by me and shook my hand!!!!! I thought hmmmmm that was weird!!!! He went out 2 the patio and I noticed a chick sitting next 2 him.............I sent him a text saying you shook my hand cause you are with HER??????? You spoke and hugged lots of chicks when we were together!!!!! i waited good until the chick went 2 the bathroom and I walked out 2 the patio and told him...............as long as your ass is BLACK don't ever do that again!!!! be consistent with your shit dude!!!!! if she wasn't here you would be all over me like a tourist attraction...............so either you keep your shit REAL or 4get you ever met me!!!!! Then I greeted his boys and walked away!!!! He grabbed my hand and tried 2 hug me and apologize..talking about how nice I looked!!!! Negroe PULEEZE!!!!!! I said sweetie your apologies are getting REALLY old!!!!!

I went back 2 my spot and finished my drink and left!!!!! I don't know why that bothered me so much but it did!!!! Then I got in the car and drunk dialed big country!!!! i felt bad cause well cause drunk dialing is very bad!!!! Who wants 2 get woke up by a drunk heffa at 1:45 a.m.???? He knew immediately that I had been drinking........he asked me several times if I was o.k. I said sorry and goodbye!!!! I sent him a text this morning 2 apologize..................what the hell was I thinking?????? I got my feelings hurt by the LIAR and I expected big country 2 do what????????

o.k y'all can chew me out now.......I can take it!!!!!!!!

oh yeah and for ms.nikki and chele.......yeah I picked mr.25 up the other day!!!!! He asked me and said he would give me gas money..................

o.k let me have it ladies!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 04, 2006

no title just thoughts..........

My son graduates in about 5 weeks!!!!!! Dayum where did the time go?????

I blinked and his ass is 6'4" 245 pounds!!!!!

I sometimes fell like I "nag" him 2 much!!!!!!

I just don't want him 2 be a sorry ass man!!!!!

He is a good young man................he talked his dad into getting me my "tiffany" earings for mammas day!!!!!!

I got my mamma her gift!!!! I just have 2 wrap it and mail it...............

I always feel like I should do more for her!!!!!

I guess we ALL feel the same about our moms!!!!!

Well maybe not all of us!!!!!

I hope ALL of you got your mammas day gifts/cards ready 2 go!!!!!!

If you have your mom close enough 2 be with her on mammas day......you're lucky!!!!

I haven't seen my mom in almost 2 years............

It's the longest time we've gone without seeing each other!!!!!

I miss her!!!!! She will be here for 2 weeks in June............I'm excited!!!!!

My grandma is coming also............yeah!!!! My grandma is the BEST!!!!

I'm tired of being single!!!!!!!!

It has gotten really old really fast!!!!!!!

Mr. 25 has been calling A LOT!!!!!

He came over the other night and we watched basketball and had a few cocktails.....

THAT'S IT!!!!!! No nakedness!!!!!!!

I'm feeling big country!!!!!! He gets home on Friday!!!!!! Maybe mr.25 can sense this!!!

I don't wanna put all my eggs in one basket though!!!!!!

Part of me feels that I should put all my effort into one person at a time.............

The other part of me says why should I???? I'm single...................

I'm torn!!!!!!

Reading Ms. P's blog yesterday and the whole "what black men want" has got me thinking...................

Shit I do all that and then some................WHY AM I STILL SINGLE????????

I'm a great catch!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!

Monday, May 01, 2006

I don't mind helping but DAYUM!!!!!!

Hey blog fam!!!!! It's Monday!!!!!! Funny how Mondays don't mean a dam thing when you are a lady.of.leisure!!!!!!!

Weekend wrap-up!!!!

Friday nite bestfriends brother-in-laws party!!!!! I love bestfriend 2 death.........but I can only take her WHOLE family in doses!!!!! They are RUDE.LOUD.NOSEY.GHETTO(feel free 2 insert any other adjectives here and i'm sure they will apply!!!!)...............

Saturday 2 friends had a birthday brunch for about 20 people. I don't ever mind helping out but DAYUM!!!!! My job was SUPPOSED 2 be OMELETS.......all the fixins were 2 be already cut up when I got there so all I would have 2 do is prepare them as people asked for them..................well when I got there all the shit was cut up so my friend asked me 2 make the potatoes..............not problem they were peeled all I had 2 do was "smother" them with a lil onion and seasonings................then I ended up cooking bacon and sausage cause no one had done that..............then I scrambled 5....I repeat F.IV.E. DOZEN EGGS!!!!! I have never fried soooooo much bacon in my whole life!!!!! then by the time it was done the grits needed 2 be cooked as well!!!!! I was sooooooo freakin tired by the time it was time 2 make omelets, I made 3 and we ran out of eggs..............THANK GOD!!!!!!!! So one of my gurlfriends went 2 get more eggs and when she got back I said I QUIT!!!!!! I REFUSE 2 SCRAMBLE ANOTHER EGG!!!!!!! Y'ALL HEFFAS ARE ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!! I sat my black ass down and got my "mimosa" on!!!!!!

As the brunch went on.....I noticed that NO ONE was walking around picking up trash!!!!!! ALL the tables were filled with plates, napkins and other garbage!!!!!! So I went and got trash bags and started just walking around cleaning up a lil bit...................not ONE of our gurlfriends got up 2 help me!!!!!! NOT ONE!!!!! The birthday gurl offered but I told her 2 go enjoy her company!!!!!

I was sooooooooo tired when it was over I couldn't even go out with them!!!!!! I got a few "thank-yous" and "you're invited 2 all my parties" Is that supposed 2 be a compliment??????? What do i look like HAZEL up in here??????

Sunday another birthday............we went 2 joes.crab.shack. It was cool as hell but I.HATE.IT.WHEN.THERE.ARE.MORE.THAN.5.PEOPLE.IN.A.DINNER.PARTY!!!!!!!! We are not in 2nd grade!!!!!! There is this thing called tax and gratuity!!!!!!

Why is it the same same people who fuss all the time???

Why order a bunch of shit and then dispute every penny???

Why order SEVERAL cocktails and swear you only had TWO?????

Why do i continue 2 put myself through this??????

"big country" had me staight cheesing last night..............

big country: I was just thinking about you!!!!

me: well i'll talk 2 you on Friday when you get back from sea. Thanks for thinking about me.........

big country: if I called you everytime I thought about you, you would be calling me a "stalker"

me: aaawwwwww dayum!!!!!!

Still taking it slow!!!!!! I did tell him I really enjoyed his company and he was like " I enjoy yours 2. You are cool as hell" so I will just see how things go..................

Have a great week you guys!!!!! I will sure try!!!!!