just a diva in scrubs

Todays a new day..............

2006-10-02T09:49:00.000-07:00

Saturday I was really down..........in bed all day feeling bad......Sunday I drove up 2 my aunts about an hour and a half away. She gave me some money and filled my gas tank up............I went to her monthly brunch with her sister friends. She figured I needed the support from older sisters who have been where I am now................

I was happy 2 see some of my aunts girlfriends who I had not seen in a while. Her best friend of over 30 years was there and she is like an aunt 2 me as well!!!! It's nice and comforting to hear from older sisters the struggles and the stories.......some of them although just meeting me, really gave me words of wisdom and faith to really make me feel better. I'm glad I went............My aunt paid for my brunch and I was thinking shit I could use this $4o for a million other things............but my aunt reminded me that in all this I still have 2 enjoy life..............

So today is a new day and I look foward to whats ahead.............even though it's the 1st of the month and I can't pay my rent today.........I KNOW THINGS WILL WORK OUT!!!!!!!

THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT BLOG FAM!!!!! IF I GO M.I.A. AGAIN YOU WILL KNOW IT'S CAUSE MY CABLE/INTERNET GOT SHUT OFF......LMAO

theres always a lesson............

2006-09-26T14:00:00.001-07:00

Hey blog fam.............

still searching for a J.O.B. who would think that a nurse would have such a hard time finding employment..............

One of my bestest girlfriends is a bartender. Last nite was her birthday and she had a REALLY big party at the club she works at. The owner and I were setting up yesterday afternoon and she asked me 2 be a cocktail waitress for the party because sdhe had fired a gurl the nite before. Of course I said yeah......cause 1: the owner is hella cool 2 me...she always always takes care of me when i'm there and 2: it was my gurls birthday. I worked the party and I made about $70 in tips!!!!! YEA!!!!!

When I got home last nite and counted my ones and fives I started 2 cry................even though it was only $70 it meant sooooo much 2 me because I have N.O.INCOME. I AT THAT MOMENT WAS HUMBLED!!!!! This time last year I was making 3 times that a DAY. Sitting back in my comfy lil office listening 2 yahoo tunes on my computer.......half working, blogging my ass off, taking 2 hour lunches with boss lady.....a year later i'm waiting tables at my girlfriends job, serving drinks 2 my friends..................my how things can change in a year............

From this whole ordeal I have learned so much!!! If any of you have ever lost a job you know how I feel........

I have learned 2 take NOTHING for granted. not that i did in the past but this experience has reminded me constantly!!!

I have learned to better budget my money!!!! I have been living off of $1000 less monthly probably a little more that........

I have learned how to ask for help from friends and family without feeling bad.

I have learned that my job does not make me the woman I am!!!!!

Most important i learned 2 excercise my faith.........

Even though things are dark right now I keep reminding myself that things are always darkest before the dawn.........I keep reminding myself, he has never let me down before!!!!!!

Thanks for the prayers and well wishes!!!!!! I will keep y'all posted!!!!!!!

theres always a lesson............

2006-09-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

sorry it's been sooooo long!!!!!!

2006-09-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hey all!!!! My youngest is adjusting well 2 high school!!!! Yeah!!!! I have now "limited" his my "crackspace" time!!! LOL My oldest is still working at C.O.S.T.C.O. he even goes in on his off days!!!!!

Me, i'm still hanging in there with young buck.....it is what it is......hell sometimes I forget his age......the only time I remember is when one of my gurls reminds me........LOL

My unemployment ran out..........I thought it was good for a year cause it said on every check: "your claim expires 2/17/07" so my ass never being on unemployment before thought I had a year..................not that I would stay off for a WHOLE year........antywho..........I got my last check and it was only for one week and I just figured I was at my half way mark so I had 2 re-apply..............I get on line and fill out the form.......got a letter on Friday that simply said "NO MORE MONEY DEE" WHAT?????? I cried for 5 minutes where the old me as y'all know would have cried for DAYS!!!!!! so now in 2 weeks I will have no check in the mail and i'm a lil scared but I know things will work out!!!!!!

I'm on the GRIND...........searching everyday........y'all wish me luck and send up a couple of prayers for your gurl!!!!!!!

I promise I will try and keep up with my blog and catch up with y'all!!!!!!

I hope all is well with you all..................

my space must be laced with crack................

2006-08-10T12:40:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam!!!!! No I'm not off naked with young buck.........I wish..he's been out 2 sea for a few weeks. He will be home Friday though..........WOOO WHOOO!!!!!

I haven't been able 2 blog because my youngest has discovered MY.SPACE. Err time I think about getting on the computer he's on it..............shit I wake up at midnite he's on it............I wake up in the morning, he's on it!!!! What the hell??????? My oldest was into it for about 5 minutes last year and now he's sooo over it!!!!

So what's up with me???? Well same ol shit. My baby got registered for high school.....i'm more nervous than he is. He starts on the 21st. The oldest is still working at C.O.S.T.C.O. He will start city college soon. I told him I don't care if he takes ONE class he HAS 2 go!!!!!!

I haven't started looking for work yet..............I am working on my resume though.........I am just not motivated.......i think i've been off 2 long............

had a date with big country on Sunday. he's leaving for 6 months in a few weeks and that solves that dilema...........LOL

well lemme go catch up with all of you~~~ I will have 2 fight for mor computer time.............LOL

Where in the world is big country?????

2006-07-19T06:38:00.000-07:00

What ever happened to "big country"?~?~

y'all remember "big country" don't you??? Southern gentleman very handsome..lot's of charm...a lot closer to my age(still younger though). Well ever since the night he canceled our dinner date and "young buck" called and offered to "entertain" me for the evening........he has been around constantly........"big country" left for a few weeks and then when he got back........"young buck" was keeping me VERY busy. I do talk 2 "big country" every now and then. He has been gone a lot(out 2 sea).

About 3 weeks ago I went 2 "big countrys" and I took a picnic type dinner....we had dinner and watched movies and I thought hmmmmmm "I still like him" dude is funny as hell (very important 2 me)................BUT the whole time I was with him, I felt like I was sort of "cheatin" on "young buck"(who was out 2 sea)..................I was out with my girlfriend last week and "big country" joined us and had a few drinks with us..............we danced and had a great time......he walked me and my girlfriend 2 her car and asked me 2 come home with him and I DECLINED!!!!!!! what the hell??????

Here is the problem...............I don't really know how 2 be a "playa" so 2 speak..........my girlfriends say "well if you are not in a relationship with "young buck" you can see "big country" also.....one says "men do it"..I.JUST.CAN'T. I suppose if I take out the "grown-up-naked" parts I could.........LOL

Then there is the whole "big country" is closer 2 my age.........."young buck" is a baby. "big country" would be the better choice for sooooo many reasons...............BUT "young buck" keeps me smiling, makes me feel 25, and the nakedness is AWESOME!!!!!

so for now I just share texts and e-mails and an occaisional "clothes on" visit with "big country" and give the majority of my attention 2 "young buck" because i'm just not able 2 do both!!!!!! PUN INTENDED!!!!!

let's talk about "young buck"

2006-07-10T16:32:00.000-07:00

What's up with "young buck"????

First off let's not confuse him with "mr.25" he didn't make the cut. Why you may ask?????

1. he didn't have a car.

2.he didn't like 2 eat at the buffet (if you know what I mean) it was open once and he refused 2 partake........BOOO

3. he didn't have a car

4. he asked me 2 take him 2 the airport one Thursday and pick him up on Sunday night. I did cause i'm nice like that........he didn't offer 5 cent for gas!!!!!! you can fly to Virginia for the weekend but can't put $5 in my tank?????? mmmkkkaayyy LOSE.MY.NUMBER!!!!

5.DID i MENTION HE DIDN'T HAVE A CAR??????

O.K back to "young buck"......HE HAS A CAR!!!!

He makes me smile. He seems to go outta his way to say something nice daily.

"Dee I love your hair" I have never ever had a man mention my hair!!!! EVER!!

He plays in my hair ALL.THE.TIME. not just when we are having naked grown up fun!!!! ( I like my hair pulled....T.M.I. but hell it's my blog)

He calls me by my REAL name!!!! What y'all didn't think my birth name was Dee did you????

He sometimes calls me "sunshine"
"good morning sunshine" "can I please speak 2 sunshine"

He tells me i'm sexxy. He appreciates my "thickness"

He's a gentleman...........period!!!!

He's funny as hell........so important for me cause i'm a little on the silly side as well!!!!

He's tall enough for me 2 wear my highest heels and he's still taller than me!!!!!

Dark skinned and handsome!!!!!
He's not afraid 2 call me on my shit. He tells me just what he feels right then and there......even if I don't ask or want 2 know. I like that and need it from time 2 time.

Now for the great part............................THE.GROWN.UP.NAKED.FUN.IS.AWESOME!!!!!!

He never ever ever gets tired!!!! Ever!!!! How cool is that???? He is very very verbal!!! That's a plus for me!!!! I don't care if you sing the alphabet....just say something!!!!! He lives on the ship so we get 2 have hotel sex!!!!!! WOOO WHOOOO!!!! Now some of you may be saying "so what Dee what's the big deal about hotel sex" well lemme tell ya...............

when you are a single momma you have 2 be really careful.......sneaking around being all quiet and stuff.....sneakinking him out before the kids wake up......sneaking him in after they go 2 bed, which is really hard with 2 teenagers by the way!!!!!!

When at a hotel, I just turn into some one else...............i can scream like a wild banshee..............walk around naked..................sleep in............get more in the morning...........all theese things others take for granted..................I get to be grown up.....even if only for the weekend!!!!

Now I could go on and on but I will not bore you with the details.The best part is he makes me smile!!!!! PERIOD!!!!! When I have doubts and start 2 feel bad about the age difference he simply says" I make you smile right? You're happy right? Then what's the problem???? I don't have a problem.......I like you and you like me"

So no matter what happens.........this is "young bucks" season....or maybe he's here for a reason.......I don't really know but i'm gonna enjoy the ride!!!!!!!

o.k o.k i'm posting..............stop cussin me out.......

2006-07-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

I hope everyone had a great 4th....I had a blast. I freaking 4got it was the 4th weekend until Friday............I guess since i'm all gaa-gaa over "young buck" LOL

Saturday I went 2 a que at a park with bestfriend and her youngins. It was o.k. I didn't know anyone but hey that never ever stopped me. The food was extra yummy but the peeps were not very friendly. I did know one lady there. She had been in a co-workers/friends wedding about 4 years ago and she remembered me. WHOA that was like 6 years ago. She told me what a great job I did decorating the reception. The host and hostess are her aunt and uncle.Did I mention the food was yummy?????

Sunday I just chilled. I sat outside with my neighbor and his parents and drank beer. He lit up his frill and I threw a couple of burgers on it when he was done. Why is it that we can't let a good fire go 2 waste????? What is that about????? Or is it just me????? I be like oh that's a good fire....lemme go pull a chicken outta the freezer!!!!!

Monday nadda..........ate ice cream all day.........no really!!!! Ice cream sammiches, push ups and theese popcicles by dryers......YUMMY they are made from real fruit and you need 5 servings daily right????? so shit I ate 5...........

The 4th a que again with best friend and the kiddies.....theese people were a lil more friendly....we had a great time then James dropped us off(our designated driver) at our favorite hole.in.da.wall. 2 have free holiday drinks. The thing I love most about this place is there is a nice mixed crowd. There are 20's 30's 40' 50's even 60's and older. There is always entertainment. I could sit for HOURS and listen 2 the stories from the older folks......and when they get on the dance floor WATCH out!!!!!! The other thing I love about that place is my gurlfriend is the bartender................What????

Last nite I went 2 a little graduation party/dinner for a friend who got his B.A. I had a great time as usual!!!! He is a member of the American legion so he had the party at his post. I was a HIT with all the old men.......LOL I danced with half of them in the place. I heard my friend Ron telling the older gentleman at the end of our table "yep that's Dee the life of the party" One gentleman I pulled out on the floor told me he hadn't danced in over a year because of his arthritis. I can't imagine not dancing or being able 2 dance.......he said "gurl you make a man wanna dance all nite" LMAO was he being a dirty ol man???? if he was I didn't mind cuz we had a ball. Everytime I got back 2 the table there was a beer. I would look around 2 see where it came from and some old man would lift his glass and smile!!!! It was fun dancing 2 the oldies.........that was great music. The Isleys the whispers and Ojays..............

I think that's it for now. Let me go catch up with you guys............"young buck" has been out 2 sea but he will be home for the weekend. I will devote an entire post 2 him soon!!!!! WOW!!!!

also coming soon:
"what in the world happened 2 big country" and

"What happened when the LIAR showed up at my house while young buck was here"

Have a great day!!!!!

sooo much 2 say.............

2006-06-28T08:21:00.000-07:00

I know I have been gone forever...........I have so much 2 say..........here goes!!!!!

I won my unemployment appeal!!!!! I went 2 court and the rep from labor relations was not prepared at ALL!!!!! He knew absolutely NOTHING about me or the case!!!!!! No written policies about nurses writting notes.......no statements about my prior conduct. No evaluations from my career ther.....NADDA!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

Both my babies graduated. James from highschool and harry from jr. high..........One down one 2 go!!!!!! Iam sooo proud of them both!!!!!! james started a new job at COSTCO!!!! yeah!! can you say FREE MEMBERSHIP??????

My family was here from the 8th-20th!!!!! I love my family but DAYUM that was a long ass stretch!!!!!! It was nice at 1st but then.......................well you can imagine!!! My momma, grandma, 2 uncles and my aunt and her hubby all in my place......................NUFF SAID!!!!!!

The sperm donor showed up a day earlier than we expected(trying 2 sneak up on me and shit like we are still married or sumthin)......................can I just say that the looks on my babies faces was PRICELESS????? My heart smiled for HOURS!!!!! It made all the fights we've had over the years seem soooooooo STUPID!!!! James and Harry smiled 4EVER!!!!!! I told the sperm donor "NO MORE"!!!! We HAVE 2 get along for them!!!!! The boys stayed with him the entire time he was here. we met up for dinners and the graduations........we got along the WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!

young buck is AWESOME!!!!! i need a whole post about him..............he is just what I needed right now!!!! I am all ga-ga over this dude.............trying 2 take it slow is out the window........I feel 25........ well at least 29 with this dude.........and every now and then when I get a little uneasy about our age difference he simply says"i make you smile right"? We have soooo much fun. Even doing the simplest of things..............dude tells me how pretty my hair is while running his fingers through it............who says that????? I was married to a negroe for 123,543,899 years and he has never told me how pretty my hair is/was.............tells me i'm sexxxy and shit........makes me laugh like crazy and can't keep his hands off me........what more can I ask for?????? So I told him one night we were talking
"even if nothing much comes of this/us I want you 2 know how glad i am 2 have met you"

he said "i'm glad I met you 2!!! Don't put the negative out there because you never know what could happen........In the mean time I just want 2 keep a smile on your face"

O.k that got me...........well that and he calls me "sunshine" what da hell???? who da hell??????

sorry 2 the W.C.B.H. crew. I missed the event this weekend. Please 4give me...........I was M.I.A all weekend. No phones no internet................Tam I know you are/were cussing me out.

I will go and catch up later. I hope all is well with you all...................

I'm no Demi Or Cameron Diaz but..........

2006-06-03T12:43:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam... I know I've been M.I.A. for a minute! I have been hanging out with a young gentleman caller!!!! LOL

No no not Mr. 25 with no car.....this one is lets call him "young buck" LOL I had been talking 2 him off and on, on the phone for a few months.....we had never really hung out though...... He called one nite and I was supposed 2 hang out with "big country" because he ("big country") was going out 2 sea for a week and wanted 2 have dinner before he left. Well he called me when he got off of work and said he was really tired and would have 2 see me when he got back..............

well "young buck" sent me a text and asked what I was doing............I told him I was bored and just had my dinner plans cancled on me.....he offered 2 take me 2 dinner and I declined because I had just eaten......i told him he could come over and we could just chill and watch the game....so he came over and we watched basketball and drank beers......chatted it up a bit and just enjoyed each others company........I asked him if he wanted 2 go to a lil hole in the wall and have a drink and off we went............we people watched and cocktailed it up a lil bit and we have been hanging out EVERYDAY SINCE!!!!!!

That was a Thursday nite. Friday after he got off work he came and picked me up and we hung out watching movies and having cocktails...............Saturday more movies and beer. Saturday nite he had a party and asked me 2 go but I declined..Sunday he worked all day so we talked on the phone and i took him dinner............Monday he was supposed 2 leave 2 drive up north to visit his family..........he called monday morning and said he wanted 2 see me before he left.....he came over and i made him breakfast.........we chatted and watched a lil t.v. then he went with me 2 my friends 2 get my hair braided.........Tuesday morning out 2 breakfast...then picnic at the beach............wednesday...........2 the movies......well you get the picture!!!!

Hanging out everyday for 10 days.............just having fun......laughing joking whatever.............watching basketball, drinking beer, telling jokes........just fun!!!!

What about "big country"???? Well of course I still like him.......he was home for 5 days and then he went back out 2 sea.........the few times he tried 2 hang out with me.."young buck" was already here so I had 2 decline............

I'm just having a good time........period!!!! "young buck" is hella cool but I will not consider him more than a good time!!!!! We have been having a really good time!!!!! He is new here so i have been just showing him around San Diego.........getting my "tour guide" on...........a lil naked fun doesn't hurt either!!!!!!

When my girlfriend met him while I was getting my hair braided she said "who do you think you are Demi Moore and Ashton"???? I said no I'm cameron Diaz and he's Justin...............

He looks a lot younger than he is............but he is YOUNGER!!!!! I would mention the age difference a few times just joking around..........then one day i made a little joke and he replied "look Dee i don't have a problem with our ages...........i like you and enjoy your company........as long as i make you smile......whats the problem"?????

Well I guess he told me!!!!!!

My baby graduates Friday. my mom and grandma uncles and aunt will be here on Thursday!!!! The sperm donor will be here also............I have not seen him in 2 years.........we have had lots of internent and phone fights the 2 years he was in Italy............lots of mean things have been said so it's going 2 be a little weird 2 say the least...............They all will be here until the 18th and 19th.............

Have a great Saturday!!!!!!!

Don't call it a comeback................

2006-05-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam...........I have been M.I.A. for a minute.................I'm still here but I have been havig soooooo much fun. I will give ful details later.....................

I'mma (yeah I know it's not proper english...yadda yadda) I'mma go catch up on all of you and I will have a r.e.a.l. post later in the week!!!!

No I didn't meet up with the ex-co-workers and "bosslady"....yeah yeah I can hear y'all now........I punked out!!!!!!

o.k give it 2 me............................

What the hell is my problem????????

2006-05-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

I got a text and an e-mail from a co-worker, well ex co-worker. They set up dinner near my old job because everyone misses us. The girl that sent me the text said boss lady will be there and they want me 2 be there as well......I told her I didn't know if I could make it................her response was that she was sure that everyone would be sad if I didn't come. I like most of them and LOVE a few.

I was there longer than any of them......I trained all of them in some way shape or form...........from the girls in the call room 2 the medical assistants to the front desk girls. I taught them about each of the Dr.s personalities.........what's cool about them, what makes them tick, who runs late....yadda yadda...........

Why don't I want 2 meet theese people that I spent 40 hours a week with for over 7 years??????

I think it's because i still feel bad about causing boss lady 2 lose her job.........I feel a little embarassed that i made a STUPID choice trying 2 help someone who obviously didn't give a F.U.C.K. about me!!!!! Over my 10 plus years as a nurse I have did the same thing( written a note to go back 2 work or school) for SEVERAL people...............WHY.DID.IT.GO.SO.WRONG.THIS.TIME?~?~?! NOT ONLY DID I LOSE MY JOB BUT I CAUSED MY BOSS 2 LOSE HER JOB................SHE ONLY HAD 5 YEARS 2 GO BEFORE SHE COULD RETIRE FROM THE UNIVERSITY...............Boss lady has told me several times that she doesn't blame me......she assures me that she would do it for me again........she says that GOD has other plans for the both of us but I STILL FEEL BAD!!!!!!

I don't think I will go!!!! I haven't seen any of them since I was terminated. I don't know if i'm ready!!!!! I will meet boos lady for lunch ALONE but i'm just not ready 2 look at the rest of them........

WHAT THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM????????

just what I needed.................

2006-05-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

My mothers day was cool!!!! I did my traditional brunch with best friend. we ate our asses off!!!! Then my gurlfriend had a mothers day party at the club she works at. They had a live jazz band. we danced and danced and drank. It was a blast!!!!!! I got dropped off and picked up!!!! It was great!!!!!

The card I got from my youngest made me ball my eyes out.............

front: 2 the best mom ever from your 2nd born son

inside left:mom when you are worried I will give you hope...........
when you are sad I will dry your tears..............
when you are sad I will comfort your fears................

mom even when I get mad at you I will always still love you because you are the best mom a son could ever have!!! I am thankful 2 have you!!!! go have the best time with your friends cause you deserve it!!!!

I was balling my eyes out after reading...........especially because I was feeling soooo bad about my friends son passing..............

I got drunk dialed from "big country" early saturday morning..........he met some friends from college out at a club about an hour away. They stayed in the casinos hotel so they wouldn't have 2 drive all the way home after clubbing..........

me: hello is everything o.k???

big country: yeah!! we had a great time.....

me: are you drunk?????

big country: yes siiirrr and I thought i'd call you

me:o.k

big country: I just thought I would get you back from last weekend

me: I deserve it............

big country: nah i was just thinking about you....

me: aaaawwwww

we talked for about 2 hours. it was cool. we went 2 eat when he got back 2 town and I needed it because i was feeling sooooo down!!!!! We laughed and people watched and I felt a lot better!! !!!

sunday nite i didn't drunk dial him I just sent drunk texts................LOL

When he called me Monday evening he said he appreciated the drunk texts............I told him my gurlfriend scolded me for drunk dialing. He asked "does your gurl have a man??" I said NO he said well miss lady I definetly wouldn't take HER advice!!!!!! LOL

My baby didn't win prom king...........he lost by 20 stinking votes!!!!!!

Y'all know I can't post pics but I will jsut say my baby looked soooooooo handsome!!!!!!

I'm still feeling a little down but i'm trying 2 keep my spirits up!!!!!

have a great week!!!!!!

I just can't imagine.............

2006-05-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

I got a call from an ex-coworker yesterday!!! I didn't want 2 answer but im glad I did......she was calling 2 tell me that a girl that once worked with us lost her son............WHAT I don't understand what you are saying 2 me???? Brent is only 14........she told me he was hit by a car and killed...........I just hung up!!!!

I am in shock!!!! No mom should have 2 plan a funeral for her 14 year old son.......

I am soooo sad!!!! I waited and waited 2 call her because I didn't want 2 hear the hurt and pain in her voice...............

I went 2 bed crying..........

I woke up crying............

I called a few minutes ago and left a message.............I only know her cell number..........

I prayed for God 2 give me the words............

NO MOM DESERVES THIS....................

It could have been one of my boys.................

If she can do it...............

2006-05-11T09:06:00.000-07:00

I just read the BEST book!!!!!! A PIECE OF CAKE by CUPCAKE BROWN

This is an awesome book of survival. This is the memoir of a woman who OVERCAME horrible things!!!!!

She was thrust into the foster care system after her momma died when she was 11. Her sperm donor sent her away to the foster momma from hell. This sent her into a never ending cycle of running away, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, prostitution, gang activityand theft. You name it she did it................

It was not just her hellacious youth that touched me it was her DRIVE!!!! After leaving rehab she decided to try school. Not only did she graduate community college and San Diego state.........she went on to LAW SCHOOL!!!! You hear me?????? Law school!!!!!!!

I was in tears!!! I read the book in record time.......it is AWESOME!!!!!!! I was a little skeptical to read a memoir after the "million little pieces" OPRAH fiasco but i'm glad I picked this book up!!!!! check out her story at www.cupcakebrown.com

If she can do it...............WHAT THE HELL IS MY EXCUSE??????? WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?????

GUESS WHO GOT NOMINATED FOR PROM KING????????

yep...... my oldest was sooooo excited when he got in from school yesterday!!!!!! He was going against 50 seniors and he has made it 2 the top 5!!!!! he came home with his little crown on yesterday...............grinning from ear 2 ear...........

"mom someone nominated me for prom king"

who son???

"I don't know probably some females"

that's cool..........

"they nominated me on Monday but I didn't think anything of it cause there were 49 more popular boys nominated 2!!!" Then they came 2 my home room today with this little crown saying I made the final 5"

that's awesome son!!!!

"I guess i'm more popular than i thought"

I guess so baby!!!!

"I hate I have 2 run against my homeboy Shane though"

oh yeah that sucks...................

"oh well it's a competition........it's on!!!!! I've been walking around all day shaking hands saying vote for James Monte vista sr. high prom king 06!!!!!!!

my baby prom king...........it's soooo cute 2 see him so excited!!!!!!!!

I will keep you posted!!!!!! Have a great day!!!!!!!!

Easy like Sunday morning...............

2006-05-07T10:35:00.000-07:00

I love that song.......................

Thursday night a gurlfriend called me and asked me 2 go 2 a salsa bar with her. I was soooooooo much fun!!!! I love live music and even though I may not have had salsa lessons..........i know how 2 move!!!!! LOL I enjoyed watching couples dance........the movoements are hella sexxxy!!!

James(oldest son) and I............no I had a fight with him!!!! He came in at 5 a.m. yesterday morning. Now the rule in my house is this...........i don't mind you staying out late as long as I know where you are. Send me a text, voicemail or something!!!!! when I wake up at 2 a.m and there are no messages on my cell and you DON'T answer your phone.........I PANIC!!!!! 2 no answer 3 no answer 4 no answer now i'm worried!!!!!

son why din't you call me or send me a text letting me know you were o.k?

mom I left my phone in the car.......

so you couldn't stop what you were doing for FIVE minutes 2 send me a text?

mom I just didn't think about it!!!!

so think about this.........the next time you decide 2 stay out this late and not be considerate enough 2 call or text me..........just stay where you are!!!!!!!

huh?????

next time you decide 2 come into MY house this late and not have enough consideration/respect for me........KEEP IT MOVING!!!!!!

but mom i'm 18!!!! you are treating me like i'm 14!!!!

I don't give a dam if you are 118!!!! respect me and my house!!!!! unless you want 2 be roomates............

huh?????

If you give me 1/2 the rent and all the utilities, i will treat you like a roomate. don't eat my food or ask 2 use my car!!!!! you can come and go as you please...........rent is due 2day!!!! you got my money?????

nope

well you wil act like you are my son..........respect me and be considerate of me!!!!! Next time things will not turn out so nice!!!!!!!! You understand me????? And please don't ask 2 use my car until further notice.........

sorry mom!!!!!

He had 2 be at work at 10. So he had 2 get on the bus by 9..........I could tell he was hurting............tired as hell!!!!! me and Harry(my youngest) went on with our saturday morning breakfast plans while his ass WALKED 2 the bus stop!!!!!

I bumped into the LIAR last night!!!! He walked by me and shook my hand!!!!! I thought hmmmmm that was weird!!!! He went out 2 the patio and I noticed a chick sitting next 2 him.............I sent him a text saying you shook my hand cause you are with HER??????? You spoke and hugged lots of chicks when we were together!!!!! i waited good until the chick went 2 the bathroom and I walked out 2 the patio and told him...............as long as your ass is BLACK don't ever do that again!!!! be consistent with your shit dude!!!!! if she wasn't here you would be all over me like a tourist attraction...............so either you keep your shit REAL or 4get you ever met me!!!!! Then I greeted his boys and walked away!!!! He grabbed my hand and tried 2 hug me and apologize..talking about how nice I looked!!!! Negroe PULEEZE!!!!!! I said sweetie your apologies are getting REALLY old!!!!!

I went back 2 my spot and finished my drink and left!!!!! I don't know why that bothered me so much but it did!!!! Then I got in the car and drunk dialed big country!!!! i felt bad cause well cause drunk dialing is very bad!!!! Who wants 2 get woke up by a drunk heffa at 1:45 a.m.???? He knew immediately that I had been drinking........he asked me several times if I was o.k. I said sorry and goodbye!!!! I sent him a text this morning 2 apologize..................what the hell was I thinking?????? I got my feelings hurt by the LIAR and I expected big country 2 do what????????

o.k y'all can chew me out now.......I can take it!!!!!!!!

oh yeah and for ms.nikki and chele.......yeah I picked mr.25 up the other day!!!!! He asked me and said he would give me gas money..................

o.k let me have it ladies!!!!!!!!

no title just thoughts..........

2006-05-04T08:25:00.000-07:00

My son graduates in about 5 weeks!!!!!! Dayum where did the time go?????

I blinked and his ass is 6'4" 245 pounds!!!!!

I sometimes fell like I "nag" him 2 much!!!!!!

I just don't want him 2 be a sorry ass man!!!!!

He is a good young man................he talked his dad into getting me my "tiffany" earings for mammas day!!!!!!

I got my mamma her gift!!!! I just have 2 wrap it and mail it...............

I always feel like I should do more for her!!!!!

I guess we ALL feel the same about our moms!!!!!

Well maybe not all of us!!!!!

I hope ALL of you got your mammas day gifts/cards ready 2 go!!!!!!

If you have your mom close enough 2 be with her on mammas day......you're lucky!!!!

I haven't seen my mom in almost 2 years............

It's the longest time we've gone without seeing each other!!!!!

I miss her!!!!! She will be here for 2 weeks in June............I'm excited!!!!!

My grandma is coming also............yeah!!!! My grandma is the BEST!!!!

I'm tired of being single!!!!!!!!

It has gotten really old really fast!!!!!!!

Mr. 25 has been calling A LOT!!!!!

He came over the other night and we watched basketball and had a few cocktails.....

THAT'S IT!!!!!! No nakedness!!!!!!!

I'm feeling big country!!!!!! He gets home on Friday!!!!!! Maybe mr.25 can sense this!!!

I don't wanna put all my eggs in one basket though!!!!!!

Part of me feels that I should put all my effort into one person at a time.............

The other part of me says why should I???? I'm single...................

I'm torn!!!!!!

Reading Ms. P's blog yesterday and the whole "what black men want" has got me thinking...................

Shit I do all that and then some................WHY AM I STILL SINGLE????????

I'm a great catch!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!

I don't mind helping but DAYUM!!!!!!

2006-05-01T14:33:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam!!!!! It's Monday!!!!!! Funny how Mondays don't mean a dam thing when you are a lady.of.leisure!!!!!!!

Weekend wrap-up!!!!

Friday nite bestfriends brother-in-laws party!!!!! I love bestfriend 2 death.........but I can only take her WHOLE family in doses!!!!! They are RUDE.LOUD.NOSEY.GHETTO(feel free 2 insert any other adjectives here and i'm sure they will apply!!!!)...............

Saturday 2 friends had a birthday brunch for about 20 people. I don't ever mind helping out but DAYUM!!!!! My job was SUPPOSED 2 be OMELETS.......all the fixins were 2 be already cut up when I got there so all I would have 2 do is prepare them as people asked for them..................well when I got there all the shit was cut up so my friend asked me 2 make the potatoes..............not problem they were peeled all I had 2 do was "smother" them with a lil onion and seasonings................then I ended up cooking bacon and sausage cause no one had done that..............then I scrambled 5....I repeat F.IV.E. DOZEN EGGS!!!!! I have never fried soooooo much bacon in my whole life!!!!! then by the time it was done the grits needed 2 be cooked as well!!!!! I was sooooooo freakin tired by the time it was time 2 make omelets, I made 3 and we ran out of eggs..............THANK GOD!!!!!!!! So one of my gurlfriends went 2 get more eggs and when she got back I said I QUIT!!!!!! I REFUSE 2 SCRAMBLE ANOTHER EGG!!!!!!! Y'ALL HEFFAS ARE ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!! I sat my black ass down and got my "mimosa" on!!!!!!

As the brunch went on.....I noticed that NO ONE was walking around picking up trash!!!!!! ALL the tables were filled with plates, napkins and other garbage!!!!!! So I went and got trash bags and started just walking around cleaning up a lil bit...................not ONE of our gurlfriends got up 2 help me!!!!!! NOT ONE!!!!! The birthday gurl offered but I told her 2 go enjoy her company!!!!!

I was sooooooooo tired when it was over I couldn't even go out with them!!!!!! I got a few "thank-yous" and "you're invited 2 all my parties" Is that supposed 2 be a compliment??????? What do i look like HAZEL up in here??????

Sunday another birthday............we went 2 joes.crab.shack. It was cool as hell but I.HATE.IT.WHEN.THERE.ARE.MORE.THAN.5.PEOPLE.IN.A.DINNER.PARTY!!!!!!!! We are not in 2nd grade!!!!!! There is this thing called tax and gratuity!!!!!!

Why is it the same same people who fuss all the time???

Why order a bunch of shit and then dispute every penny???

Why order SEVERAL cocktails and swear you only had TWO?????

Why do i continue 2 put myself through this??????

"big country" had me staight cheesing last night..............

big country: I was just thinking about you!!!!

me: well i'll talk 2 you on Friday when you get back from sea. Thanks for thinking about me.........

big country: if I called you everytime I thought about you, you would be calling me a "stalker"

me: aaawwwwww dayum!!!!!!

Still taking it slow!!!!!! I did tell him I really enjoyed his company and he was like " I enjoy yours 2. You are cool as hell" so I will just see how things go..................

Have a great week you guys!!!!! I will sure try!!!!!

What's a gurl 2 do?????

2006-04-28T09:52:00.000-07:00

Happy Friday 2 you blog fam!!!!!!

I really like "big country" but I don't wanna tell his ass for a few reasons.

1. I feel like it's 2 soon 2 be all in "like" with his ass!!!!

2. It's a lil scary cause i'm not feeling like myself cause i wanna call him often and thats sooooo not me!!!!! I'm not a call.your.ass.every.day.kinda.gurl!!!!!

3. If I tell him I like him there is a chance he might "switch" up on my ass if you know what I mean!!!!!!

If I fuck around and tell him that I think that he's cool as hell and I really enjoy his company..............he might turn into another muh-fugga and ruin it!!!! Ya know????? So I try and think positve. You know I will keep you posted!!!!

Since I dam near got cussed out for not giving details about the nakedness.................here it goes:

he's good.............not great!!!! Just good!!! He pays attention 2 detail and covers ALL bases!!!! That's a plus!!!!! He is VERY VOCAL wich is a plus!!!!! I can't stan a quiet dude...........you gotta dam near pull teeth 2 get him 2 say shit!!!!!! If I tell you I like 2 be talked 2 and you still are silent.......you are about as good for me as a root canal with no anesthesia................anyways!!!!! He gets the job done!!!!! Makes me wanna put B.O.B.(battery.operated.boyfriend) away for a minute!!!!!! He could be my man easily.......but we will see...................

I have FOUR birthdays this weekend!!!!! 2 friends on Saturday.........1 on sunday and 1 on Monday!!!!! They ALL know that i'm not working right now but me being me..........i've been stressing the fuck out all week trying 2 find F.O.U.R gifts that are not that expensive!!!!!!

It's hard.as.hell.having.MOET.taste.with ANDRE.money!!!!!

Bestfriends sister is having a birthday party 2 nite and asked me 2 be bartender!!!!!! HA!!!!!HA!!!!!!! That's like having a crackhead package the product!!!!!!

Have a great weekend blog fam!!!!! I sure as hell will!!!!!!!!

greetings from the lady of leisure.................

2006-04-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam!!!!! it's official my new nickname is L.O.L(lady of leisure) I crack myself up!!!!

Well so far "big country" is in the lead!!!!! I will not get all excited and "giddy" cause then his ass will cut.da.hell.up. so I will just keep it cool!!!!! He is full of compliments!!!!!! y'all know we LOVE compliments!!!!!

"you look 2 hot 2 have an 18 year old" (stop it!!!!)

"bring your fine black ass over here" (o.k you can call me black ass with FINE in front of it)

"hey beautiful how was your day" (shit whatever was wrong with my day it's o.k now)

I could go on and on but I don't wanna bore y'all 2 death!!!!

So far so good!!!! GO BIG COUNTRY!!!!!!!! YEAH WE HAD GROWN UP NAKED FUN BUT BEFORE WE DID I ASKED HIM "AFTER WE HAVE NAKED FUN, YOU'RE NOT GOING 2 THINK I'M YOUR GIRLFRIEND ARE YOU?" (remember the stalker thought I was his woman after nakedness went down)

Big countrys reply "naaah we will have 2 talk about that 1st....the feeling must be mutual"

CHA-CHING!!!!!!! MAJOR COOL POINTS FOR BIG COUNTRY!!!!!!

HE EVEN MADE ME BREAKFAST IN THE MORNING..................

MORE COOL POINTS!!!!!!!!!

Saturday nite I went 2 a cool.ass.house.party. i felt like I was 25 again!!!!! A friend of mines is moving 2 Seattle. I sort of lost touch with him over the last 2 years and I saw him in the mall a couple of weeks ago and he invited me. I was hesitant 2 go cause I wasn't sure if I would know anyone and his girlfriend is as friendly as a bag of rocks................but i said "what.da.hell." got dolled up and hit it!!!! I knew at leat 20 people there!!!!! It was a very nice party!!!! He had it set up really nice!!! The d.j was on the lower level but speakers were everywhere!!!!! Almost all the furniture was gone and there were dance floors on all 3 floors!!!! It was cool as hell!!!! I.HAD.A.BALL!!!! There were a shit load of cuties ther 2.........I didn't give out my number though..................

Sunday my beautician had a bar-b-que. I had 2 show my face cause he cussed me out for not attending his last 3 functions!!!!! I told him i'm on the hunt for a man and there.are.no.men.4.me.at.a.GAY.function!!!! LMAO Anyways whatever I ate gave me a BAD.ASS.BUG!!!!! I woke up at midnight with the SHITS.........AND THROWING UP VITAL ORGANS!!!!! I WAS AFRAID 2 EAT YESTERDAY!!!!!! Can you say 7-up and sprite all day????????? I called around and took surveys of what everyone ate and we can't figure it out!!!!! 2 others got the shits but no one trew up their gutz!!!!! Hmmmmm.................

I got a letter in the mail the other day stating that my old employer is appealing my unemployment!!!!! i cried for 2 minutes then I let it go!!!!!! The old Dee would have panicked and stressed the hell out but the new Dee is like WHATEVER!!!! IT WILL WORK OUT!!!!! So now I have 2 wait for a court date in the mail.............I will keep ya posted!!!!!

All is well in my world!!!! You all have a great week!!!!!

KEYSHIA COLE SUCKS BIG PENIS!!!!!

2006-04-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

KEYSHIA COLE IS GARBAGE!!!!!!!!!! PERIOD!!!!!

I saw this heffa last nite at the house of blues.........There were about 8 of us and we were hyped 2 see a good show!!!!!!

1st she had THREE i repeat 3 opening acts!!!!! Bitch who do you think you are Patti Labelle or sumthin????

2nd she started an HOUR I repeat and HOUR late!!!!!! They played music while we waited but that was no help cause at the House Of Blues it's STANDING ONLY!!!!!! So we had already been standing TWO.DAM.HOURS.

3rd this RED.WIG.WEARING.BAD.OUTFIT.SPORTIN.BRAUD comes out and does FIVE I repeat 5 one more time F.I.V.E. fucking songs!!!!!! And get this........you are not ready..........

ONE SONG DIDN'T EVEN BELONG TO HER ASS!!!!! (SHE DID AN ISLEY BROTHER JAM.....VOYAGE 2 ATLANTIS)

THEN THIS BEEEYATCH DID ONE SONG TWICE!!!!!!!! YOU HEAR ME 2 TIMES!!!!!! this bad weave having muhfugga tried 2 trick us by so called hyping up the crowd talking bout "san diego y'all are the best........y'all hyped 2nite.........that's whas up.....yadda yadda yadda" then the BITCH.REPEATED THE SAME SONG AGAIN AND SAID GOOD NITE!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! you should have heard the BOOs and aaaww hell naws

I swear if my feet didn't hurt soooooo bad I would have bum rushed the stage and beat her ass like she stole my last $5....................

my dam feet still hurt this morning for 3 dayum songs......................but I did look cute though!!!!!

I got up this morning 2 take the boys 2 school and I coulda swore there was glass in both my feet they hurt sooooo bad!!!! feels like I've been walking on HOT.ASS.LAVA.ROCKS.FOR.DAYS!!!!!

I called bestfriend this morning and she said her feet were on FIRE!!!!
I'm glad it's not just me!!!!! LOL

have a great weekend...............i'm going 2 soak my feet!!!!!!!!

Time 2 play catch up!!!!!

2006-04-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

Heeeyyyyy everybody!!!!!

I've been M.I.A. for a minute.......I have really been enjoying all the sunshine!!!!! Easter was cool!!! We ate and ate some more!!!!! I didn't get 2 color eggs but i'm over it!!!! Next year I'll just USE I mean help my nephew color eggs!!!! LOL

I'm still on the "DATE-A-THON" there is a new candidate in the running............
We will call him "big country". Handsome and funny. From Louisianna and COUNTRY.AS.HELL!!! I like 2 listen 2 him talk!!! I have kicked it with him twice and he seems pretty cool!!! Educated, Employed and ELIGIBLE...........I asked all the important shit up front on the 1st and 2nd date:

How many phone calls/texts in one day is excessive?(remember the stalker would call 123,234,234,000 times???)

You don't have a wife back home do you??(remember the LIAR and his wife back in Texas???)

If and when we have sex.........you will not think that i'm your woman??? (1ST RED FLAG FROM THE STALKER.......I introduced him as a friend and when we got 2 the car he LOST.HIS.DAYUM.MIND!!!!)

Would you ever....eva.......eva.....eva..........EVA show up at my house without calling??? (STALKER AGAIN)

He passed so we will see!!!!!!

Mr. 25 I dunno.................he's really cute and fun!!! I enjoy his company but.............drum roll please...........................

HE DOESN'T HAVE A CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

The last time we hung out..........he asked me 2 pick him up and I thought SURE!!!! He's only been in San Diego 4 weeks and i didn't think anything about it!!!!!! He called and asked if we could hang out the other nite and I said "yeah that would be cool" He asked "what time can you pick me up"???

HUH?????? NEGROE I AM UNEMPLOYED AND GAS IS HIGH AS HELL!!!!!!
YOU WANT ME 2 PICK YOU UP GO HANG OUT AND THEN TAKE YOU BACK??????

UHHHH I'M GOING 2 HAVE 2 DEDUCT COOL POINTS!!!! HIS ASS AINT SO CUTE ANYMORE!!!!!!

So i'm still hanging out!!!!! Giving out my number........looking...............

Sunday morning went 2 the car and some son.of.a.bitch.broke in my car and took ALL MY C.D.S.my.phone.charger.AND THE.CHANGE.OUTTA.THE.ASHTRAY. I HATE THIEVES!!!!!! At least they didn't break a window.......................

Thursday nite KEYSHIA COLE house.of.blues. Should be fun!!!!!!

Let me go play catch up!!!!!!! have a great day!!!!!!

What do you mean you don't wanna color eggs????

2006-04-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam...........

I love EASTER!!!! I love coloring eggs and making cute baskets for my boys and my friends!!!!! So imagine my SHOCK when my youngest said "MA I DON'T WANT 2 COLOR EGGS" then like clockwork the oldest said "MOM WE ARE 2 OLD FOR THAT STUFF" huh?????? what???????? With that said I snapped back "well I guess you guys don't want your baskets either" they both replied "WE WANT OUR CANDY" lol

I have been enjoying this nice sunshine all week!!!! I have spent everyday out and about doing whatever!!!!! It's beautiful!!!!!

I can honestly say that I have not been happy in a LONG.ASS.TIME.

I'M HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!

Still on the campaign 2 "get Dee a man"!!!!!

MAYBE D.L.BRUTHA: his roomate creeped me out as well as their interaction with each other.

I'M.A.BARBER.YEAH.RIGHT.: he called me twice and I didn't answer!!! I don't do drug dealers boo!!!!!

THE LATEST I'M MARRIED.BUT NOT HAPPY: this dude was a "re-meet" I met him about a year and a half ago and he was hella cool!!!! I didn't hook up with him cause I was with the "LIAR" at the time!!! We bumped into each other last sunday and were going 2 go out on Tuesday nite......we were talking and he tells me he's MARRIED.BUT.NOT.HAPPY. SCREECH........................I AM A SINGLE WOMAN!!!!! CALL ME AFTER THE DIVORCE!!!!!!

MR.25.AND.SEXXY: I like him and he's cool as hell but shit.........I can't get past his age!!!!! I don't want 2 get married next week but DAYUM what kind of future could I possibly have with him?~!~?~?! I'm sure we could have a LOT of GROWN.UP.NAKED.FUN!!!!!!!!

Well that wraps it up for me!!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT EASTER WEEKEND!!!!!!!

Can I just CHILL.DA.FUCK.OUT?~!?~!?

2006-04-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hey blog fam!!!!! Happy Monday 2 you all!!!!!!!!

1st lemme touch on the title a bit!!!! If one more mufugga asks me when i'm gonna start looking for a job................i'm gonna have 2 go APE SHIT!!!!! Can I chill????? My kids are eating.......rent is paid...........when they flip the switches the lights come on.................WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?????????

For the 1st time in a LONG ASS TIME...................I'm happy!!!!! I'm CONTENT!!!!! I can't go shopping and shit like I would like but i'm STRAIGHT!!!! I'm chillin with my kids.....getting my "social" on.......datin and shit and I.FEEL.GOOD!!!!! I realize it's just people being concerned but hey can't I have a lil break???? Or is that not an option for a hard working single mamma????? As long as the state of california sends me my lil check every 2 weeks by the way i've earned...........I'm cool!!!!!

I'm on a lil sabatical!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday night I was chillin on the couch. I got a phone call from not ONE not TWO but THREE different people asking me 2 come out 2 the SAME spot and they would buy me a drink!!!!!!! THAT'S 3-4 DRINKS FREE!!!!! I jumped my ass up showered and dressed in record time!!!!! what are the chances of 3 different friends being in the SAME SPOT REQUESTING MY PRESENCE??????? I had a great time until I had 2 cuss a gurlfriend OUT!!!! She's now an ex friend!!!! THAT.WAS.HER.3RD.AND.FINAL.STRIKE!!!!!! I'LL BLOG ABOUT HER ASS LATTER!!!! They say drunk minds speak the truth!!!!!!

Saturday was beautiful!!! I hung out with a gurlfriend and we went 2 this dudes spot that i've been "talking 2" on the phone for a couple of weeks!!!!! We only hung out once and he was throwin sumthin on the grill so me and my gurl go 2 kick it with him and his roomate...............We are chillin roomie seems like he plays for the OTHER team cause my GAYDAR was going CRAZY!!!! But he was cool non the less!!!! We listened to old school hip hop...........talked about everything from music 2 politics 2 how we were all raised.........it was cool but then when we left my gurl was like "I think they're both GAY" I was like huh????? So at this point i'm thinking and thinking REALLY HARD about this!!!!! I thought about how theese two interacted and shit and hell I think she may be on 2 SOMETHING!!!!!!

Saturday night I had a DATE with a cool brutha who claims 2 be a barber..............he has a BRAND.SPANKING.NEW.CHRYSLER.300.REALLY.SHINY.AND.PRETTY.WITH.1000 MILES.ON IT

You all may be thinking so???? Barbers can drive nice rides Dee don't be so judgemental.................

HOW COME HIS CELL RANG 123,234,678,345,232,000 TIMES DURING DINNER????????? WITH AT LEAST 5 DIFFERENT RINGTONES??????

And just because you say "I can't work that out right now cause i'm having dinner with a beautiful lady" does NOT excuse you!!!!!!

ANSWERING YOUR CELL ON A DATE IS JUST RUDE!!!!!!
UNLESS YOU'RE A BARBER I GUESS!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!

I'm not a writer!!! I blog just like I talk!!!!

2006-04-07T09:28:00.000-07:00

In case you aint up on thangs............I had the pleasure of meeting four bloggin hotties for a night out in HOLLYHOOD. Go on over and read their versions of our night out then come back and check out my version...........

part one: This is how it all went down
supa.

part two: Tell him I said "fuck you!!!"
tam.

part three: I wasn't born a GEISHA
ms.glam< /a>.

part four: I wish I could start you
one.cool.sista

Now let me start by saying this............my blog fam knows that I just blog!!!! Theese ladies PUT IT DOWN!!!! They link and post pics and do all the fancy shit I one day dream of............

NO FANCY BELLS AND WHISTLES HERE!!!! JUST DEE!!!! lol

So I hit the 405 headed north up 2 the L.B.C. Lucky for me that girl TAM lives right around the corner from bestfriends old spot...so I find it with no prob!!!!! I get there and meet her cute.ass.kids. They begin 2 entertain me.......y'all know how our kids do when we have company!!!!! LOL She has boys like me so I know what 2 expect!!!! Tam is gettin her "diva" on and I chill with the kiddies!!!! We wait on her sista-in-law to get there so we can bounce and Tam starts 2 get a lil bit testy cause sista-in-law is a lil late!!!! I don't trip cause I know how the hell it is!!!!! I'm chillin the boys are showin me what they do and we are watching the sponge bob movie.........

This is a good time 2 take a moment for Ms. P. She couldn't make it but Tam would torment her through various text messages through the nite!!!!!! I GOT YOUR BACK!!!!

Sista-in-law gets there and we are OUTRO!!!! We head 2 SUPAS pad!!!!! We chit chat it up about this and that.TAM is hella easy 2 talk 2. Either that or I just like 2 run my mouth!!!!!!

Tam: oh that street looks scary

me: yeah it is dark!!!

Tam: we will go the other way........calling SUPA

TAM: where do I turn? we are on such.n.such

SUPA: (i'm guessing she said sumthin like "I don't know")

TAM: You don't know where da fuck your house is???

Me: is this your 1st time meeting?

TAM: yeah

Me: umm hmmmmm (thinking o.k I feel like I already know them. Tam is JUST LIKE SHE IS ON HER BLOG)

We bend a few corners and we arrive at CASA DE SUPA. we exchange hugs like old girlfriends. One cool sister, TAM, Supa and myself. She gives us a tour, we snap a few pics. Jam 2 a lil old school hip-hop and we are out!!!!! We bend a few more corners and we arrive at our 1st destination. We valet and wait for the other ladies. then there was a lil situation.........It seems that BECKY told SUPA that we didn't need reservations just show up!!!!! Door boy says no!!! Ths is the part where it could have got REALLY.UGLY.REALLY.FAST. SUPA handled it like all grown up like!!!! She gets hella cool points for that!!!!! Ms GLAM and Cuzin(one cool sisters cousin) show up and Ms. Glam comes up with plan B...........

Off we go like bats outta hell!!!!! Err bodys on cellies trying 2 make sure err bodyknows about plan B. 2nd spot GEISHA HOUSE!!!! Ms Glam hooked it up!!!! We Valet and sashay in the spot!!!! It's hella cool. The set up........the decor...........and sushi............it's on!!!! A few ladies don't like sushi...Ms glam tries 2 sell them on the tempura and a few other dishes but naah they aint havin it!!!!! we have a photo opp. with a cool ass bartender. Ms. Glam gets some BAD.ASS.SHOES.DELIVERED. We all ohh and ahh over the shoes finish our cocktails and off 2 plan C.

Cafe des artistes......from the outside you can't really tell what's up but this was the cutest lil spot!!!! We valet for the 3rd time and saunter inside. Here is my 1st clasSICK line of the night:

"y'all valet 2 much!!! That's why y'all be broke" I HOLLERED!!!!!

The ambience of this place is hella cool!!!! We stop at the bar for cocktails of course..oh yeah except for TAM she's already D.O.N.E. Who knew that she was a light weight????? I wish the weather would have been a little nicer cause the restaurants roof and sides would have been open. instead the roof and walls consisted of some thick tarp like material. It's good though cause I fell out when one cool sister stood up on the bench and attempted 2 close the tarp like wall cover. That was funny as hell!!!! I don't blame her cause who da hell wants 2 be cold?!?!

We chit chat and sip. It's hella cool.Lots of convos going on at once

"the french fries here are 2 die for"

"dam theese olives are good"

"pass me that bread"

"can we get some butter for our bread"

"my ass don't need no butter"

"I just TIVO and read"

"it's times like theese i'm glad i'm a witch"

~~~~Crickets~~~~~~~~

"are you a good witch or a bad witch?"

Then in come white boy #1 and 2. Their party was at the table next 2 ours. I'm in and out of their convo. one cool sister is giving the "please.don't.say.anything.stoopid.look" All while protecting herself from the elements.........Cuzin asks if they are buying drinks.........Supa is obviously WOWING them. Glam is in their convo and back and forth with me and Tam. I think she's dazzlin them as well cause like Tam says "they are white boy magnets" LMAO

There is some talk about an expensive ass t-shirt white boy #1 is wearing and a bad ass jacket #2 is wearing. The jacket was his dads back in the 70's and has matching pants ........yadda yadda yadda!!!! then the say good bye didn't buy any drinks for the hotties........i'm thinking they would have had our attention had they bought a round or two...........LOL

All and all it was a great evening!!!! since i'm last everyone has already covered just about everything so I will say this:

TAM one crazy sista. Even though she was sick as hell.sippin.green.tea. she still brought the noise!!!! Can you say JOKES???? Even sick, she found a way 2 get her joke on!!!!!

SUPA cool as shit!!! You feel like you've known her 4 eva!!!!! She's tiny as hell though.........itty bitty even!!!!! She's mad cool!!!!

MS.GLAM ms HOLLYHOOD. someone you would want 2 know. She's got stories for yo ass!!!!! She had me rollin!!!!!

ONE.COOL.SISTER a.k.a Ms southern comfort. I could just sit and listen 2 her talk!!!!! I'm still tryin 2 figure out how she's from L.A. but has a mean "southern drawl"

I LOOK FOWARD 2 HANGIN OUT WITH THEESE FABULOUS WEST COAST BLOGGIN HOTTIES AGAIN!!!!

It was really cool 2 meet 4 positive sistas from all walks of life with one thing in common this "BLOG THANG"

WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT???????

What happens when 5 bloggers hang out?????

2006-04-04T13:22:00.000-07:00

The 1st west coast bloggin hotties was the shit!!!!!

I HAD THE PLEASURE 2 MEET that girl tam, supa sista, one cool sister and Ms Glamazon Theese ladies are hela cool!!!!

What happens when 5 bloggin divas get together for a nite out on the town??????

part 1 http://supasister.blogspot.com/ Supas spot

part 2 http://thatgirltam.blogspot.com Tams spot

MORE DETAILS LATER.........

Happy Monday y'all!!!!

2006-04-03T17:32:00.000-07:00

Happy Monday!!!!!!!

I had a great weekend!!!!!! I attended the WESTCOAST BLOGGIN HOTTIES event hosted by THAT GIRL TAM AND SUPA SISTA was hella cool!!!!! I met 4 cool ladies and i'm sure we will be hanging out more in the future!!!!

Friday night I went out for happy hour and had a blast!!!!!! I mentioned this before and I HAVE 2 mention it again!!!!!! GROWN ASS MEN SHOULD NEVA EVA EVA EVA LEAN WITH IT OR ROCK WITH IT!!!!!

If you are 6' or taller you have no biddness doing this freaking dance!!!!! you look like an ass!!!!!!! Dancing in a cirle with four of your lil friends leaning back and snappin your fingers is soooooooo not grown and sexxxy!!!!!!! you are not in the video!!!! Thoose negroes can do that silly ass dance cause well ummmm IT'S THEIR SONG AND THEIR VIDEO!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!

And if you decide 2 look like a complete ass doing it..........please for the love of all things holy, don't try 2 holla at me after doing it three songs in a row!!!!!!

Women of Sand diego!!!!! I.LOVE.MY.SISTAHS I swear I do but PLEASE..PLEASE...........PRETTY PLEASE STOP LETTING SHANIQUA AND MONIFAH DO YOUR WEAVE!!!!!!! IT AINT A GOOD LOOK!!!!!!!

I am not anti-weave!!!! But as with anything if you are gonna do it...please do it right!!!!!! Cause you better beweave if I ever get one it will NOT look like it was done in bestfriends kitchen while we sipped wine!!!!!

You all have a great week!!!!! I will!!!!!!

Friday happenings!!!!!

2006-03-31T06:17:00.000-08:00

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

I had a lil chit chat with that girl TAM last night that really got me thinking!!!!! You know I don't know how 2 link so don't trip................you know where 2 find her.............

She made me realize that if I remove the EMOTION from a lot of situations......shit will not stress me as much!!!! WOW!!!!!! THIS IS REALLY BIG!!!!!

So I have decided that I will not start sending letters to dudes job. I will not call his supervisor and his supervisors supervisor...........not like the chick at his job did me........I'm over it!!!!!! Maybe civil court....maybe!!!!!!!!

I'm excited.................why you ask???Or maybe you don't ask but i'm gonna tell ya!!!!!! I'm going 2 L.A. saturday 2 meet a few bloggers.............yeah!!!! COCKTAILS ANYONE????? I will be meeting TAM and Supa and a few others Saturday evening......P can't make it and i'm a lil sad.............NEXT TIME MS.P!!!!!

It should be fun!!!!!! I have only met one other blogger and that's O(can't link him but you know where he is) and he is hella cool!!!!! We have hung out a few times and he's fun!!! It's nice 2 put a face with the blog!!!!!!

My gurl Vern called me Tuesday nite and said "don't make plans Sunday nite cause i'm taking you 2 see FLOETRY at the House Of Blues" I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!

Before I go two things !!!!! I had 2 pay a BIG ASS DEPOSIT to the light and gas company!!!!! HOW BIG????? $399 BIG!!!! I paid this in 3 payments about 16 months ago!!!!! Now theese sons of a bitches told me that if I paid my light bill on time for 12 months in a row........I would get my money back!!!!!! yeah yeah I was late paying the light bill ALL.THE.DAM.TIME!!!!! I lived in military housing most of my adult life where there are NO.UTILITY.BILLS!!!!! WHAT??? That's a good excuse right????? Shit my rent was late also for the 1st 4 or 5 months too!!!! shit the Navy had me spoiled............

Anyway all this time i've been looking foward 2 getting my $399 back in April cause that's what the heffas were telling me on the phone......APRIL!!!! So I get on line this morning 2 pay my bill which is due 4/17 mind you......I was FLOORED 2 find out theese ASSHOLES
1. want me 2 pay APRIL bill 1st which mind you comes out 4/26

2. then review the payment history

3. then they want 2 apply $399 worth of credit!!!! OH HELL NO!!!!! WHO NEEDS $399 WORTH OF CREDIT FOR $40 MONTHLY BILLS???????

I SAY UMMM NO THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR ME!!!!! I WOULD LIKE MY MONEY BACK!!!!

she says well the credit will be applied 2 your bill. once you see that it takes about 2-3 WEEKS for you 2 get a check in the mail!!!!!!!

I AM SALTY!!!!!! I HAD THE MONEY SPENT Y'ALL!!!!!!

SDG&E IS THE DEBIL!!!!!!!!

I went out on Wednesday night for some adult interaction. I had fun cause you know I always do!!!!! Can I just say GROWN ASS MEN SHOULD NOT LEAN WITH IT OR ROCK WITH IT!!!!!! YOU ALL LOOK LIKE ASSES!!!!!!!!

Then i met a REAL cutie............6'5" chocolate like I like em........nice convo........polite and hella cool. we exchange numbers and then he hits me with..............................."I'M MOVING 2 ATLANTA ON SUNDAY" What the hell?????? I wasted all my time getting my flirt on and his ass is leaving on Sunday!!!!! I coulda threw my gimlet in his face!!!!!!! WHY?????WHY?????

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!! I WILL!!!!

IS IT WRONG?????

2006-03-27T05:47:00.000-08:00

IS IT WRONG FOR ME TO WANT THE PERSON WHO CAUSED ME TO GET TERMINATED, FIRED?????

The person that caused me to get fired still has his job!!!! Why is that????? It's his fault!!!! Period!!!!! He asked me for help and was not honest about his intent!!!!! The woman at HIS job pursed this until I was fired!!! Me and my boss!!!! Do I do the same????? I don't want revenge.....it only seems right!!!!!! Why does he still have a job????? He didn't use the note for the reason he said he was!!!! He tried to get PAID fraudulently............I got fired!!!!!! He didn't!!!!!!!

AM I WRONG??????

DEE'S FEELIN GOOD!!!!

2006-03-24T10:38:00.000-08:00

Hey blog fam!!!! Happy Friday!!!!! I'm feelin good.....hence the title of the post!!!!

1st I got my first unemployment check in the mail!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!
a sistah has never ever been sooooooo happy to see a check with her name on it!!!!! I had my girlfriends cracking up about my welfare check.........."gurl I gotta mail this form in on this day so my check isn't late" LMAO

Since I was approved for unemployment i will take a few classes I have been wanting to take. I am looking into takining a medical spanish course. I speak a little spanish but no medical terminololgy. In Cali you NEED a lil espanol...................

The reason for the title...........i feel good because i have decided to look at this whole thing different. Yeah I lost my job of 7 years where I was comfy and cozy. Yeah I could pretty much come and go as i pleased. I loved my boss and she loved me and now i will have 2 start all over again with new co-workers and a new boss......new Dr.'s with horrible personalites and bad bedside manner. But you know what???????
IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!!!!!!

This happened 2 me for a reason and God has a plan for me!!!!!!

I get to take the boys 2 school EVERYDAY!!!!!

I pick them up almost everyday!!!!!!!

They get breakfast most mornings before school!!!!

We get to really talk in the mornings cause i'm not RUSHING to get out the door.

I feel really good.................

My house is SPOTLESS!!!!!!

EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!

The day my youngest was crying because I lost my job.................I felt REALLY bad. REALLY BAD!!!!!

My job does not define who I am as a person as a mom. Money will be tight until I get another job but.........................

I WILL BE FINE!!!!!!!

I have not been blogging all week cause i've been enjoying this nice weather..........DON'T HATE CAUSE SOME OF Y'ALL ARE STILL HAVING WINTER!!!!! lol

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!!! I WILL!!!!!!

I LOVE SPRING!!!!!

2006-03-20T08:41:00.000-08:00

IT'S SPRING!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

HELLO spring dresses...............

GOODBYE turtle neck sweaters.......

HELLO strappy sandles.............

GOODBYE boots mules and closed toed shoes..........

Time 2 pack away the winter clothes and break out the spring/summer clothes!!!!

YES I STILL PACK CLOTHES AWAY IN SEASONS EVEN THOUGH I LIVE IN SOUTHERN CALI...............YEAH I KNOW YOU FOLKS IN PLACES WITH REAL SEASONS ARE SHAKING YOUR HEADS AT ME BUT HEY OLD HABITS DIE HARD................

My youngest son woke up yesterday and said "momma lets go to church" so we got up and went!!!! My gurlfriend has been asking me for about a month to visit her church so we went!!!!! She attends my friends family church so I called him and asked him if he was going and he said "yeah my dad is preaching today" so that was great because I had never heard his dad preach!!!!!

I always feel sooooo much better after church. I don't have a church HOME ducking as y'all throw stuff at me.............I will visit another friends church next week and we will see..................

After church a friend took me to lunch so we could catch up!!!! We sat at the bar while waiting for our table. I had the yummiest drink i've had in ages..................PINEAPPLE MOJITO..............CAN YOU SAY YUMMY?~?~? It was sooooooo good I had to have 2!!!!! Our food was really good and we just caught up!!!! We didn't talk at all about my job hunt.....that was good. We talked about lots of other things!!!!! I LOVE Shelly for that because she's the ONLY friend that NEVER brings up my unemployment!!!!!!!

Well I gotta go catch up on your blogs cause I only have ONE HOUR 2 BLOG!!!!!! Then i'm gonna do a lil spring cleaning......

HAVE A GREAT MONDAY!!!!!! I WILL!!!!!!!!

IT'S ALL GOOD!!!!!

2006-03-18T09:57:00.000-08:00

IT'S RAINING AGAIN!!!!!! it's all good!!!!

It started last night. It's supposed to rain ALL weekend!!!!! I just think of it as "the cleansing of Dee" I'm not tripping!!!! Last weekend it was making me sad...this weekend i'm thinking of it as a renewal so to speak and when it stops......I will be refreshed and brand new!!!!!

The boys are both feeling better!!! I made Harry stay home the rest of the week and he was/is pissed at me. Says I treat him like a baby!!!! "NEGRO YOU HAVE BRONCHITIS"!!!! I told him if he keeps giving me attitude he will be better instanly cause I will knock the bronchitis right outta his ass!!!!! YOU KNOW SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO GET REAL UGLY WITH A 13 YEAR OLD WHO IS "SMELLIN HIS SELF" as grandma would say................

We (me and Harry) were laying on the couch on Wednesday snugglin and watching a movie. (he's not a baby though....right???) Anyways I looked at him and he was crying.....

me: baby what's wrong?

Harry: mom i'm scared.

me: why??? Of what???

Harry: that you won't find another job and we will be hungry and get avicted....

me: baby you mean EVICTED!!!

Harry: yeah that

me: baby please don't worry!!! I will take care of everything!!!! Everything will work out!!!!! Have you ever been hungry before?

Harry: NO

me: what about avicted?????

Harry: mom that's not funny!!!!

me: don't worry baby we will be fine!!!! I promise...........now stop crying and lets finish our movie caus it's gettin good!!!!!

AT THAT MOMENT I FELT I HAVE TO CHANGE MY OUTLOOK ON THIS!!!! I AM PROJECTING MY WORRY AND FEAR ON TO MY SON!!!! THAT MADE ME FEEL REALLY BAD!!!!! HE SHOULD NOT BE EVEN THINKING ABOUT THEESE THINGS!!!!!

SO AT THAT MOMENT I DECIDED TO LET IT GO!!!!! I KNOW EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!!!!! THE LAST THING I WANT IS FOR MY BOYS TO FEEL WHAT I WAS FEELING!!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND YOU GUYS!!!!! I WILL RAIN OR SHINE!!!!!!

Tuesdays goingz on!!!!

2006-03-14T11:45:00.000-08:00

Hey.............

nothing much going on here!!!! I stayed in ALL weekend!!!! Lounged.

Today I have both boys home SICK!!!! I think Harry(youngest) may have pnuemonia...his cough is HORRIBLE!!!!! James(oldest) may have food poisoning.........They are BOTH sleep right now!!!! Harry has an appointment at 2:30. He started with this cough on Sunday. I kept him home yesterday. today it sounds AWFUL!!!!!

I found out today that I have insurance until the end of April.......yeah!!!! We ALL have appointments made!!!!! That is a blessing!!!!!!

Unemployment called today 2 ask more questions. She needed 2 know my last day of work because according to my former employer I was on admin. leave...............WHAT DA HELL?!?!?!?!?!?! sO I READ HER THE LETTER i GOT IN THE MAIL AND TOLD HER I WOULD FAX IT TO HER IF NEEDED!!!!

I feel if I work all my life and need unemployment I should get it!!!!!!

I finally watched the final episode of the flava fiasco!!!!! I'm glad hoopz won...........but i'm not sure if flav is a prize............LOL Hoopz is a cute gurl but she may need her head examined!!!!!!

I was watching the OPRAH 20th ANNIVERSARY dvd yesterday and Maya Angelou(I LOVE HER)
said that during difficult times you should say "thank you" because the harde times are what make you the person you are..............I thought WOW!!!!

That really stuck with me!!!!!! that is dificult 2 do.............I'm working on it!!!!!!

I'm trying to keep positive....once I hear from unemployment.......I will go on from there!!!!!!

I need some inspirational music........any suggestions? Any books you could send my way???

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY................

2006-03-11T12:22:00.000-08:00

RAIN RAIN PLEASE GO AWAY!!!!!!!

I HAVE NO MAN TO SNUGGLE UP WITH AND HAVE NAKED FUN!!!!

EVEN IF I DID I HAVE THE BOYS!!!!!! NO DAYTIME NAKED FUN IN THE DAYTIME!!!

IT'S COLD AS HELL!!!!
why do we say cold as hell???? hell is hot!!!!

I HAVE ON MY WARM P.J'S AND MY PINK WARM ROBE MY GRANDMA SENT ME...........AND I'M STILL COLD!!!!

I DON'T LIKE THUNDER AND LIGHTNING.........IT SCARES ME!!!

I JUST HAD A CUP OF MY FAVORITE TEA...........TAZO PASSION TEA.......YUMMY!!!!!

I HAVE THE OVEN ON AND OPEN.....THAT'S OLD SCHOOL!!!!

DID YOUR MOTHER DO THAT?????

OR IS THAT JUST A PROJECT/CHICAGO THANG???

I HAVE WATCHED ALL MY DVR'D SHOWS

THERE IS NOTHING ON T.V.

ALL THEESE DAM CHANNELS........ALL THE MONEY I PAY FOR CABLE..........

I JUST FINISHED FANTASIAS BOOK..........IT WAS O.K. I GUESS........I STILL HAVE NOT FORGIVEN HER FOR THAT DAM BABY MAMMA SONG.........I DID LIKE A COUPLE OF HER OTHER SONGS.........

I LOVE BOOT LEG CD'S........

NOT BOOT LEG MOVIES................

THE QUALITY IS GETTING BETTER!!!!!

SOMETIMES I MISS THE "LIAR"

HE ALWAYS GAVE US ALL THE LATEST MOVIES AND MUSIC.............THAT WAS HIS LITTLE SIDE HUSTLE............

I WOULD SEEL THEM 2 MY CO-WORKERS FOR $7 EVERYWHERE ELSE THEY ARE $10.............THAT BECAME MY LIL SIDE HUSTLE........

MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE HIM BRING ME SOME MOVIES................

NAH!!!!!!!! I CAN'T ASK HIM FOR SHIT!!!!!!

EXCEPT NAKED SHIT!!!!!

I MISS THAT EXTRA MONEY!!!!!!!

OH YEAH HE WAS GOOD FOR NAKED FUN ALSO!!!!

I HAD ANOTHER RELAPSE LAST WEEKEND!!!!

YES NIKKI I KNOW, I KNOW....................BUT IT WAS GOOOOOD!!!!

I AM GOING BACK AND ASSUME MY POSITION ON THE COUCH!!!!

I HOPE YOU ALL ARE HAVING A BETTER SATURDAY!!!!!!

DAM I'm feeling OLD!!!!!!

2006-03-09T06:12:00.000-08:00

My baby turned 18 yesterday!!!!!! Dam I feel OLD!!!!!

It seems like yesterday he was born..........TIME FLIES!!!!!!

We have a birthday tradition where the birthday boy pics his favorite place and we go for dinner. James had a game at 7 last night so I decided we would do lunch and have a heart to heart without the little nosey one!!!!! LOL My 13 year old is soooooo NOSEY!!!!!

I pick James up from school at 12:30..........he gets out early because he has all the credits he needs to graduate......we went to T.G.I.Fridays and have lunch and just talk............It was nice!!! I mean I always tlk with the boys but this was really nice cause it was just US!!!! I always try and give my boys individual time but it's hard with his work schedule and his "SOCIAL" life........

We ate and chit chatted about his future, how he feels about his dad. His role as the man of the house................(when my ex and I seperated before the divorce he told James he was the "man" of the house now. that really stuck) He takes it serious. I listened and felt really good!!!! I mean really good. I know there is still work to be done but at least a god foundation has been laid!!!! I was able to buy him a couple of outfits(yes he's a male version of me.....LOL) I also gave him a card with some lottery scratchers.........he couldn't wait to turn 18 and play lotto.........HE WON $116 AND TWO FREE TICKETS.............He said "MOM I SOULD GO TO THE CASINO. I'M LUCKY TODAY"

James is my ROCK at times.......he is an awesome son!!!! I sat down to write him a birthday letter........I wanted to remind him of my dreams for him and what adulthood/manhood really means!!!!

I want him to:

Respect himself and others
treat women like he would want me to be treated
be honest
be kind
stay true to himself
be considerate
be strong yet compassionate
be a hardworker
be the best man he can be...........................

THEN IT HIT ME...............................

HE IS ALL THOOSE THINGS!!!!!!!

I try not to get on the computer that much because "blogging" can consume HOURS if you let it!!!!!! Just because i'm home i don't want my WHOLE day to be spent on the computer..........

You all have a GREAT day!!!!!! I'm gonna try!!!!!

I AM IN LOVE WITH THE D.V.R...........

2006-03-06T11:55:00.000-08:00

HAPPY MONDAY BLOG FAM!!!!

IN EFFORT TO GET MY MIND OFF OF MY TROUBLES..................

I WATCHED A SHITLOAD OF T.V.

THE FLAVA FLAV FIASCO:

What the hell??????? Are they SERIOUS???? They can't be serious!!!!! I recorded all the episodes and watched them!!!! I soooo love being able to fast foward thru commercials.............I hate watching things that are not recorded because I can't use the fast foward button...........LOL

T.V. ONE

This is a new........or new to me black cable network. They show good times, New York undercover, 227, Amen and other good shows.
They also have a bid whist show where celebs play bid whist for charity.
They have livin it up with Patti LaBelle which i LOVE.
A cooking show "tun up the heat with G.Garvin.......ooohhh he is soooo FINE!!!! And he can cook..............WOWSER!!!!

There are some other shows I can't remember the names of but they have me hooked............

HGTV

I am soooo hooked on this channel. All the decorating shows and design ideas keep my "creative juices flowin...........hmm what can I paint now??????

MTV'S THE SHOP

I can't really explain why I like this show..........I record it and watch later cause it comes on past my bedtime. LOL 10 or 10:30 on thursday nights........the barbers are hella funny and they have celebs roll thru and pretend to get haircuts!!!!! bobby brown came by and had the female barber take his braids out.........WTH???? I remember on one episode she said "i'm a barber i don't do conrows" maybe that didn't include taking braids out...........or maybe different rules apply to celebs..........i dunno!!!!

MTV'S WILD N OUT

I'm not really sure why i like this one so much either but i do..............It cracks me up at hte end where they do the "wild style" where the comics battle rap......it's cute!!!!

THE BEST SHOW BY FAR THIS WEEKEND WAS "DMC MY ADOPTION JOURNEY"

Big thank you to Ms. Nikki for blogging about it!!!!!!
It was great...... It showed DMCS journey to finding his birth mother. Wow!!!!! I just sat going through all the emotions with him.................It was great.........I cried buckets of tears...................

My youngest son had a game on Saturday the playoffs. They WON!!!!! Yeah!!!! They then went on to the finals which we just knew we would not win.........the team we were playing had beat, no WHOOPED us 3 times.............so we were just going to be happy getting 2nd place trophys...........guess what????? Sunday we WON!!!!!! 36-10!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!

The look on the kids faces was worth every late practice and giving up every saturday afternoon!!!!!!!!

Friends........how many of us have them??????

2006-03-03T10:29:00.000-08:00

I talked with one of my best gurls as I do everyday since my suspension/termination. I told her I was having a HORRIBLE day!!! You know what she said?????????

"Enough Dee GET OVER IT!! THE PITY PARTY IS OVER"

ME: CRYING YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!

gurlfriend: I more than understand.........i'm tired of hearing you like this

me: oohh!!! But i'm going thru it!!!

gurlfriend: no you've gone thru it!! It's over!!!!

me: Wow

gurlfriend: That's what REAL friends do!!!! They give it 2 you real!!!!!!

Thank you guys but my gurl in Atlanta says NO MORE!!!!!

I'm just TIRED!!!!

2006-03-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

Hey blog fam........

I appreciate all the support. all the kind words and comments from people I have never laid eyes on.......that is great.......I haven't cried in about 3 days....................that's good..........today I am filled with tears!!!!

In six days, my first born will turn 18. I had plans to take him and a few of his closest friends to dinner to celebrate. I can't because i don't have a job..........

I was able to pay my rent today and for this i am happy, grateful but after the check clears and I buy a few groceries, insurance and utilites, I will have no more money!!!

ex-husband knows of my situation and do you think he sent $5 extra dollars???????

I am embarassed to tell my family........only my mom and brother know!!!!! I'm tired of the "oh poor dee, the single mamma pity party"

I still feel guilty about boss lady getting fired also..........GUILT CONSUMES ME!!!!!

I am angry that I have to endure this alone..............

I don't want to be strong anymore!!!!!!!!!!! I have been strong since 17 when i left my moms house!!!!

I was strong when I became a young wife, then a young mom!!!!

I was strong when my youngest was born 3 months premature and spent the 1st 6 months of his life in the hospital.......

I was strong when all i wanted 2 do was visit the hospital and it almost ruined my marriage!!!!

I was strong when my ex-husband was out to sea and i was alone raising kids and the car broke down!!!!

I was strong when I took several buses to get to nursing school cause my ex was 2 dam proud 2 get a ride 2 the base when we only had one car!!!! And ALL of our neighbors were going to the base!!!!

I was strong when i found out my then husband fathered a child..........

I was strong when we seperated.........

I was strong through the divorce that he filed for in another state so that I could not get to court..............

I have been strong all my adult life....................

NOW I'M TIRED!!!!!! JUST TIRED!!!!!!!!!!

Not tired like I would commit suicide or anything.............just tired of being so dam strong............tired like I want help, not from my family cause that is a given...........Family is always here to help!!!! I would like help like someone here to say "Dee it's gonna be o.k" and kiss me ever so gentle................rub my back.........and tell me it's gonna be o.k.

I go back up and down!!!!

2006-02-27T08:54:00.000-08:00

I saw the play Man of her dreams on Saturday nite. It was o.k I guess. Musiq was in it that was a nice added bonus!!!! Shirley Murdock, Jackee, Ralph Tresvant a few other folks, I can't remember their names but know their faces..............i should have written them down.....LOL Oh and some comedian A.J sumthin or other.......he was in players club........sad to say he made the play!!!! He was funny as hell!!! The play was pretty much predictable........sad but hey we try and support the effort!!!!

After the play we all went out. My friends pretty much treated me but I had to at least buy ONE round of drinks.............so I spent $60 total that nite..........I felt bad sunday morning. WHY????? Because I spent $60 and I have NO JOB!!!!!

I am trying soooo hard to stay positve!!!! I know I will overcome this and this time next year I will look back at this as a learning experience.........but for now, I keep having all theese emotions!!!!!

Fear, guilt(because my boss was fired also), sadness, anger(because the person I tried to help still has his job), worry, anxiety..........you name it, I feel it at any given time!!!!

Thanks again you guys for all the POSITVE support!!!!! I will keep you all posted on the job search!!!!

I'm brushing up my resume this morning.......dusting it off cause it's 8 years old............

THANKS GUYS YOU ALL ARE THE BESTEST!!!!!

Today is a new day!!!!!

2006-02-25T16:24:00.000-08:00

Thanks so much the kind comments!!!! You guys are the best!!! I have even had a few phone calls from the blog fam........That is hella cool!!!!! All the words of encouragement and advice mean so much!!!!!!!! You all are the best!!!!

Tonight My friends are all taking me to see the latest play on the "chitterling" circut MAN OF HER DREAMS It should be entertaining to say the least............One friend gets mad when I call it the "chitterling circut"....LOL well when you dig up old ass yesteryear r&b singers and put them in a play hollerin and making jokes......what else would you call it??? LOL I'm not sure who's in this one.......Shirley Murdock, christopher Williams, Ralph Tresvant hell I dunno........

I will go out and try and have a great time!!!! Hey there is a bar so I WILL enjoy myself!!!!!! I will be entertained by all the folks coming out in their sunday best, leather, furs and whatever else they can "shine in" LMAO Why does anyone in San Diego own FUR???????

I would like to thank you all again for all the kind comments and prayers!!!!!!

A special shot out to MWABI for sending all the positive vibes my way!!!!! She's the BESTEST!!!!!!!!

TODAY IS A NEW DAY!!!!!

I'm so sad!!!!

2006-02-23T17:09:00.000-08:00

I got the letter in the mail today!!!!

I HAVE BEEN TERMINATED!!!!!

A letter y'all!!!! I'm soooo I dunno!!!! Mixed emotions right now!!!!

Thanks sooo much for the comments and prays especially!!!! You all are the best!!!!

I WILL TRY REALLY HARD TO STAY POSITIVE!!!!!! I WILL TRY AND REMEBER ALL MY BLESSINGS!!!! I HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR THE BOYS!!!!!

send positive vibes my way y'all cause I need them..............

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~THANKS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I'm really going through it y'all.................

2006-02-22T08:18:00.000-08:00

The 19th was my blogaverssary. One year of this blog thang!!!! I had it all planned out. I was going to write a lil sumthing about my blog inspiration(around the way girl) she no longer blogs!!! I was going to throw a lil shot out to my very 1st comment from "humanity critic" I was like yeah....blog "royalty" LOL....Then there are the bloggers who have been with me from the start. Ms. Nikki over at infinite ink, Rhonda, Schatzi, Ms Tikki(youtoldharpotabeatme).

My new blog friends as well. You all have helped me through some tough times. I appreciate all the laughter and good solid advice!!!!! You all just don't know how much I appreciate all the advice/comments!!!! You all have got me through some tough times!!!!!! THANKS!!!!!

I was recently suspended from my job without pay. This is the 2nd week!!!! I attempted to hel someone out and it turned bad!!! REALLY BAD!!!!!

I am really going through it in a bad way!!!!! I can't stop crying!!!!!

FIRST: I feel bad because "bosslady" was suspended too!!!!

SECOND: I can't afford 2 weeks without pay

THIRD: I'M AFRAID!!!! my job has been the one constant thing in my life for the past 7 years!!!!! Through my seperation with my ex-husband. The divorce, my youngest son getting diagnosed with a seizure disorder and the meds giving him horrible side effects, my dad passing away, my grandma passing, my bad breakup with the LIAR............all the trials of being a single momma..through all this the one thing I could count on was my job!!!!! I knew that I was respected there as well as needed. I knew that no matter what was going on in my personal life, my job was for sure!!!! Now it's not!!!!

They are "investigating"!!!!! I told the truth and nothing but the truth. I know what I did was wrong........I was just helping out someone in need...............a simple note!!!!!

I can't stop the tears!!!! I SCARED!!!! I know I can find another job but starting over S.U.C.K.S.

I know that this is where my faith steps in................God has brought me through soooooo much! I know he will not let me down now!!!!! I'm sure of that!!!!! I just hate waiting for them to say "Dee you are fired"

I'M SCARED!!!! SCARED OUTTA MY MIND!!!!!!

I know me and my kids will eat................I know we will have a roof over our heads but everything else is unknown!!!!!!

Y'all pray for me!!!!!!!!

Happy cupids day!!!

2006-02-14T08:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!

FOR ALL OF YOU THAT ARE IN LOVE...........ENJOY!!!!

New love, old love, looking for love, aaaawwww for me:

BAAAAHH HUMBUG!!!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!

No I didn't fly to Italy and shank his ass!!!!

2006-02-10T11:47:00.000-08:00

Happy Friday y'all!!!!

Thanks soooo much for all the kind words and comments!!!! I have let it go...........

His sorry ass said "sorry" several times in return e-mails. Only after I cussed him out and called him all kinds of "dirty.dick.sorry.son.of.a.bitches.for.fucking.your.so.called.friends.wife.

He claims he didn't mean to send those pics to me.......what the hell ever. I don't know how to send pics via e-mail but i'm sure you have to look at the dam pics before you hit SEND!!!!!

I am better each day and I just try not to think about it at all!!!!

His sorry trife ass had the nerve to say "Dee once you move on, you will be so much better off"

BITCH!!!! I don't give a dam who you fuck...but it would be nice if it was not a bitch that lived in my house for 3 months and ate my fucking food YOU IDIOT!!!!!!

I was hurt then sad then mad now i'm just done!!!!!

Thanks again for all the great comments!!!!!

The LIAR stopped by last night..........for you that know my history with him..............sorry I just couldn't help myself!!!! He claimed he came by to check on me and the boys.......well while you're checking un us.............mamma needs a tune up!!!! Don't worry I will not be calling him or trying to have a relationship with his NON-TRUTH telling ass.......but I sure am glad he CAME!!!

I NEEDED IT!!!!!! I AM ONLY HUMAN..............

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!

hurt only hurts as long as you let it!!!!!

2006-02-08T06:12:00.000-08:00

I got an e-mail yesterday from my ex-husband. Why was he in the picture with his parents, two aunts and a friend of ours!!!!! SHE WAS HOLDING HIS FUCKING HAND????? WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING IN ITALY????

DUUUUH DEE HE'S FUCKING HER!!!!!!

She is/was the wife of one of his friends!!!! They lived with us for 3 months back in 2000 while they waited for their house to become available to move in.

The pictures were of him making chief in the navy. They were having a ceremony. The 1st pic was him and his boys......the 2nd pic was him, his mom, dad, 2 aunts and I saw a white girl standing behind his mom.......I thought hmmmm that's weired!!! Who is she, she doesn't have on a uniform so she can't be in the Navy.............scrolled down to the 3rd picture and he is holding his mom's hand on one side and HER hand on the other side!!!!!! THAT HURT!!!!!

I stareted crying....a mean ugly cry cause that hurt!!!!!!! Yeah people are supposed to move on after divorce, but with a friend or so called friend??? I was soooo upset I had to leave work!!!!!! What else can this asshole do to hurt me?????

Were they fucking around in my house???? How long has this been going on????? All the card parties and fish frys....were they messing around then???? This sucks!!!!

I came home and prayed and prayed some more.......................I prayed for God to take this from me..........

Then I decided I can make the decision right now to be sad, mad and depressed of MOVE THE HELL ON!!!!

I woke up this morning and decided NO MORE!!!! HE CAN NOT MAKE ME SHED ONE MORE TEAR!!!!

3 tries and the gay boys did it!!!!

2006-02-06T09:06:00.000-08:00

Hope you all had a great weekend!!!!! My weekend was pretty cool!!!!

First let me tell y'all.............my son went to a formal dance with a co-worker. She goes to a different highschool so he didn't know anyone but her and one of her girlfriends. I told him I thought that really cool that he would go to a dance where he doesn't really know anyone. He said "ma I get along with everybody.......i'm a social butterfly like you" I laughed my ass off cause my baby is 6'5" 250 pounds talking about he's a social butterfly.......LMAO This ws his 1st time in a tux....can I just say my baby was SOOOOOO HANDSOME!!!!! He wore a white tux with the pink/fuschia tie and vest to match chicky poos dress........dam I wish I could post pics............

I was gonna just stay home for super bowl but bestfriend drug me outta the house!!!!!

1st stop.........7 dudes only one cutie..............an older lady on the grill who didn't look like her hands were very clean. She introduced herself to us like 3 times............me and my gurl gave each other the signal like only bestfriends can do..........we had one beer and bounced!!!!! The signal is when I decline food and liquor........it's time to go!!! LMAO

2nd stop our favorite lil hole in the wall had a party. They had some chicken shishkabobs, rice and deviled eggs...............WHAT THE HELL????? This bar/club has a kitchen that serves some of the best fried chicken here in San Diego....their catfish is banging.......people come to the club for the chicken and fish and I get DEVILED EGGS for the super bowl!!!!! WHAT IN DA HELL??????

side note: I EATS!!!!! I LOVE TO EAT!!!!! SUPER BOWL SUNDAY IS A GREEDY HEFFAS HOLIDAY!!!!!

UNLIMITED BEER AND DIPS CHIPS WINGS AND NUMEROUS OTHER GOODIES AND BEER...................

SHISHKABOBS AND RICE...............ONE DRINK WE BOUNCED!!!!!

3rd stop: THE GAY BOYS FUNCTION!!!! we made this our last resort because we LOVE our gay crew but we didn't get all cute to NOT be SEEN!!!!!

We walk in the door and BINGO!!!!! WE HIT THE FOOD LOTTO!!!!!

The WHOLE table was filled with yummy goodies!!!!!!! Lemme splain................I LOVE TO EAT!!!!!!

Crabcakes..............oooohhhh, hot wings, yesssssss, catfish..............what????? spaghetti, meatballs, crablegs, all kinds of chips dips, veggie trays, fruit trays, fried chicken, potatoe salad, you name it, it was on the table!!!!!

Me and bestfriend broke out the kid and play!!!!! We were in HEAVEN I tell ya!!!!! I paid NO attention to the game from that point on.............I ate til I couldn't anymore!!!!!!

Then I played a few hands of spades kicked major ass talked a lot of shit and we left!!!! Some chick kept rubbing my legs talking about how nice they were which really should have WEIRDED.ME.DA.HELL.OUT but I was so full and happy it didn't phase me!!!! LOL

I didn't want to go home so I got sropped off at a lil spot and they had a live band I had a few more cocktails danced a bit and had my son pick me up!!!!! It's great having a son that drives!!! He laughed at me cause I was really tipsy...................I like this passenger thing..............

I'm back to cussin like a sailor in case any of you noticed...........

How was YOUR weekend?~?

Guess I've gotta do it......

2006-02-02T13:12:00.000-08:00

I was tagged by Mrs. T.J waaaaay back when. The reason it took me so long to do this is because I can't really type and you know I blog at work, share an office with boss lady...............o.k now there you have all my excuses.................

4 JOBS I HAVE HAD:

1: I worked in a hallmark store when I was in highschool.

I loved this job. I think that this job led me to my LOVE of greeting cards!!!! I can spend 45 minutes looking for the perfect card............. I also did the gift wrapping............and yes I am big on wrapping paper, tissue paper, bows, ribbons bags..........I have a large container filled with gift wrap.........

2: I was a sales associate at a plus size store.

HATED IT!!!!! IN 2 MONTHS I HAD MADE MINIMAL SALES!!!! Them heffas wouldn't buy water from me if they were on FIRE!!!!! It finally dawned on me when my grandma said "dee I wouldn't want your size 6 ass selling me my size 24 either!!!!!" so I quit!!!!!

3: TARGET!!!!!

dam I loved working at TARGEZ!!!besides the 10% discount, a sistah got paid ERR WEEK!!!! This really helped me through nursing school!!!!!!

4: I was the "on call" person for a nursing registry.....

I loved this because at 18 I was making good money.......I had to call nurses to fill shifts for hospitals and nursing homes..............at the last minute.........I had to beg a lot...............one night I was at a concert, Fat boys, run DMC and a bunch of others and my pager kept BLOWIN.DA.HELL.UP!!!! Back then there were no cell phones so I had to keep going to the pay phone and I missed most of the concert...................I QUIT!!!!

4 MOVIES I CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AND OVER:
I usually only watch ONCE but theese.......

1: color purple.............we can dam near recite the WHOLE MOVIE

2. What's love got to do with it......nuff said!!!

3. Love jones!!!!!!!

4. Waiting to exhale

4 PLACES I'VE LIVED:

1. CHICAGO................I was born and raised........

2. Hopkinsville Kentucky NUFF SAID

3. Long Beach Ca. home of snoop d-oh-double-g

4. San Diego...my home!!!

4 favorite T.V. shows

I don't really watch a lot of t.v.

1. ANYTHING ON HOME AND GARDEN T.V. design on a dime, design re-mix

2. AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL
I love this show I have only been hooked on the last 3 seasons.........

3. OPRAH.......nuff said I d.v.r it EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!!!!!

4. A FEW SHOWS ON M.T.V. (don't laugh) I don't have to watch but if i'm bored I will watch made......making the band.......my sweet sixteen..........

4 favorite books:

I LOVE TO READ.................I READ ABOUT 4-5 BOOKS A MONTH!!!!

IF I HAD TO PICK FOUR:

1. The bluest eye
2. The coldest winter ever
3. ANY/EVERYTHING BY DR.MAYA ANGELOU
4.ZANES SEX CHRONICALS
this book helped me learn to REALLY entertain myself without B.O.B( battery operated boyfriend)

4 VACATIONS

DAM I NEED ONE!!!!! I CAN'T COUNT VEGAS CAUSE I HAVE BEEN THERE SOOOOOOO MANY TIMES!!!!!

I CAN'T COUNT ANY CITY IN MEXICO CAUSE HELL, I DAM NEAR LIVE IN MEXICO

I CAN'T COUNT TRIPS TO CHICAGO CAUSE SHIT that's where i'm from!!!!

JAMAICA I WENT 7 YEARS AGO FOR 14 DAYS WITHOUT THE KIDS OR HUSBAND!!!!!! YEAH I HAD A BALL BUT THAT WAS 123,345,246,999 DAYS AGO!

IT DOESN'T COUNT ANYMORE!!!!! I NEED A VACATION!!!!

4 DAILY WEBSITES.......

1.ALL MY DAILY BLOG READS

2. GOOGLE

3. dictionary.com ( I use it daily....y'all know I can't spell)

4. yahoo/msn

4 favorite foods

let me just tell you all how much I.LOVE.2.EAT..........IT'S RIGHT UP THERE WITH GROWN UP NAKED FUN!!!!!!

Since I loooovvvee food soooo much I will narrow it down to four types.LOL

1. Soul Food of course.........neckbones, cornbread,cabbage, ox tails, greens you name it I love it!!!!

2. SUSHI ooohh I love sushi....not all Japaneese food just sushi!!!!

3. THAI.....................YUMMY

4. ITALIAN I could eat pasta ERR DAYYY!!!!

4 palces i'd rather be right now:

1. SHOPPING

2. taking a nice bubble bath in a huge tub with jets and lots of bubbles with a bottle of wine and candles

3. at my grandmas house in Chicago

4. some where NAKED doing grown up nasty things with a handsome man who is well endowed...........

o.k Mrs. T.J. i'm late as hell but better late than never..............

I WILL TAG NO ONE!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY EVE.......................

i'm shocked............

2006-02-01T10:35:00.000-08:00

I'm shocked at the people who think that I should have let James go to the girls prom even though he was getting a D in one of his classes.

I understand that for girls, the prom is BIG. My son not being able to go one week before was bad............I was sorry and apologized to the young lady and her mom. She had been dateless TWICE in a two week period. I really felt bad for her.....REALLY!!

Listen there was no WAY I was going to let him go with a D.......PERIOD!!!! I still had to give him $100 for his tux...........$25 for her flower and money to spend at and after the prom..................NO FREAKING WAY!!!! (SEE I DIDN'T CUSS....IT'S FEB 1ST)

The thing that concerns me is young ladies thinking that they HAVE to have a date for prom!!!!! I would just ROLL with my gurls................just me...............If I had a daughter I would tell her to do the same.............go and have a great time for the last time as a high schooler!!!!

Me letting him go would let him know it's o.k to mess up and you can still go have a good time because this young lady can't have a good time without you on her arm...........naaah I couldn't do it!!!!

This time around he was asked to the dance a few weeks ago (whats with all the last minute invites?~?~) James assured me that his grades were up to par and there would be no last minute cancellations..............he said "mom I don't want to make any more girls cry"

By the way James prom is in May and he's thinking of going SOLO. When I asked him why he said "because I don't need a date to have fun...I will just CHILL with ALL my friends one last tme............

let's take a break from the stalker!!!!!

2006-01-31T10:12:00.000-08:00

I decided to take a break from my drama that is the "stalker".

Let's talk about my oldest son, who makes me really proud to be his mom!!!!!

Let me give you new readers a little backround on James.....my first born. He is a senior. He is 17 and an all around good young man!!!

Last May he was asked to the sr. prom by a girl who had been dumped 2 weeks before the prom. James stepped up to the plate and decided to go with the girl. One week before prom I got a call from a teacher saying James had a D in her class. You know I don't play that shit so I called him on his cell and told him "call ol gurl and tell her you can't go to prom with her" Long story short the gurl cried and her mom had the nerve to call me and question the way I parent MY CHILD!!!! She called her self going off on me and I LET HER ASS HAVE IT!!!!! You can go back and read it I think it was titled "oh no she didn't" back in May.................anyway it was a bit much.she even had the vice principal call me as well and I had to give it to her cause as an educator, I expected her to side with me..............it was a big deal!!!! I ended up telling a few folks off!!!!

Fast foward..................a gurl my son works with asked her to a dance at her school. she needed a date at the last minute so he stepped up to the plate.

James: mom this whole being nice to gurls is expensive..........

me: yes sir and it gets better when you start dealing with WOMEN

James: yeah my tux is $95 ans her flower thing is $25

me: wow.......but she's paying for dinner, the tickest and the limo............

James: yeah that's true but she is a cool friend, so it's all good.

me: that's really nice of you..............

James: I don't want to make another girl cry about a dance and me not going at the last minute..........

me: well as long as I don't get any calls about your grades.....

James: aaawww Ma belive me I learned my lesson last time..............my grades are SOOOO STRAIGHT!!!

me: then we have no problems!!!!

James: No Ma we don't cause you don't PLAY!!!

LMAO!!!! Times like this asure me that i'm doing o.k as a mom!!! Sometimes I question myself and wonder if i'm going about parenting the right way but my boys ALWAYS show me that my hard work and lessons/lectures really do pay off!!!

And the verdict is.....................

2006-01-30T08:07:00.000-08:00

I decided to leave dude ALONE. He just doesn't get IT!!!! I told him that I was really upest about him just showing up at my house. I also told him that I don't think he needs to call me 123,876,999 times daily.I told him that I just wanted to be his friend(for the 2nd time).I made good eye contact............I did'nt smile.......... This was Friday night. Saturday he called me SEVEN times!!!!!!! Then He asked if I wanted to go out for drinks later. I said NO!!!! He asked if he could bring over some beer and drink a few with me I said "no thanks.I just want to CHILL" He then asked if he could make dinner and I come over.........NO!!! He asked if I wanted to cook if he brought the food NO!!NO!!!!

Sunday morning 3 calls I ignored.................the 4th call I picked up and said" LOOK I NEED YOU TO STOP CALLING ME SO MUCH!!!!! I NEED MY SPACE!!!! IF YOU CAN'T RESPECT THAT.I'M GONNA ASK YOU TO STOP CALLING ME PERIOD!!!!! WHEN YOU CALL THE FIRST TIME AND I DON'T PICK UP, WHEN I LOOK AT MY PHONE, I CAN SEE THAT YOU HAVE CALLED.....WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT I WILL CALL YOU BACK......IF AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT!!!!!

dude: so you are saying I call you 2 much?

me: EXACTLY

dude: so you want me to pull back a little

me: do you know the difference between wants and needs??????

dude: I think so......

me: let me break it down for you..............wants are things you CAN live with out............jewelry, fancy cars, cable t.v NEEDS are things you HAVE TO HAVE like AIR,WATER AND FOOD!!!!!

dude: o.k whaty are you saying Dee?????

me: I NEED YOU TO STOP CALLING ME SO MUCH!!!!

dude: that hurt.................

me: do you understand what I NEED????

dude: yes..............

This was Saturday night!!!! I thought I made myself crystal clear!!!! Sunday morning he called at 7 a.m. Asked if I wanted breakfast........NO THANKS!!!! He called at 9 and asked if he could come over and see me.........NO I'M CHILLIN 10:30 "do you want to come over and I fix you lunch" NO DUDE I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU TODAY OR TONIGHT!!!! I NEED SOME SPACE!!!!!!!

dude: but I miss you..............

THAT WAS THE FUCKING BACK BREAKER!!!!!! HOW THE HELL CAN YOU MISS ME WHEN YOU SAW ME ON FRIDAY NIGHT AND I TOLD YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SPACE!!!!! YOU HAVE A PROBLEM!!!! NOW IF YOU DON'T GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.....I AM GONNA DEMAND THAT YOU STOP CALLING ME PERIOD!!!!!! THE MORE YOU CALL ME AND ASK ME OUT IN THE SAME 24 HOUR PERIOD....THE MORE I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AT ALL!!!!! STOP ASKING STOP CALLING!!!!!

dude:you don't know how many women would love to be in your shoes...........

well go stalk them.........please don't call me anymore!!!

I can't do it anymore!!!!! He is a bugga boo!!!!! I have never had this happen before..........I really don't even want to have a friendship with him...............................

I really liked dude.........

2006-01-27T14:20:00.000-08:00

I liked him, I really did. He made me laugh.......he made me smile........all the time!!!!

Then I felt he was moving fast............I just wanted to slow it down a lil bit!!!!

He got mad when I introduced him as my "friend".......

I thought that when you get into a relationship both parties had to talk about it..sign some paperwork, give each other dap(handshake), drink on it or something...........

Dude showed up at my house!!!! Yeah he called 123,865,999 times during the day but when I talked to him that morning I told him I didn't feel well and I would be going to sleep after work!!!!

Maybe he really was worried when he kept calling all through the day and I didn't answer...........

Dam when dude SHOWED.THE.FUCK.UP.AT.MY.DOOR he didn't have even a box of kleenex, no NYQUIL, no orange juice or chicken soup................what the hell????

It has been brought to my attention that I din't give dude a fair chance.............

Yeah I may have been a BITCH for cussing him the hell out but I meant it!!!!! You don't just come to my house talking about you were worried.....................

DUDE I HAVE A FUCKING COLD NOT THE PLAGUE OR WEST NILE VIRUS!!!!!!!

Am I wrong????? Did I over-react???? I have a gurlfriend who seems to think I was a lil HARSH...........whatever...........

I know that you all will give it to me straight with no chaser!!!! LOL

Yeah I talked to him yesterday night........he said he was really sorry and yadda yadda..............I reminded him again that it's not cool to show up at my house EVER............without me saying it's o.k. He seemed to understand.................

Do I give dude another chance or do I kick him to the curb???

Are my RED.FLAGS legit or am I just being a pessimist(sp?)???

What do y'all think??????

DUDE YOU HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!

2006-01-25T08:39:00.000-08:00

This DUMBASS called me 123,234,999 times yesterday!!!! I answered once at 6 a.m and said this " I don't feel well. I'm going to work because I have to. When I get off i'm going home and go to bed!!!"

Dude called me a gazillion fucking times!!!! I din't answer!!! I keep my phone OFF at work and check a couple of times a day to see if anyone has called!!!! I saw he had called and didn't call him back.......WHY????? Because I didn't feel like it!!!!!!

I left work about 3:30 went home and cooked a really quick dinner, got in my p.j's and got in bed by 5 with my dinner, some o.j and my cold.medicine.to.knock.my.ass.out. At 5:30 My son comes in the room "dude is here" Stop playing son..........."no mom he's at the door!!!! My son goes back out to the living room and he comes back and stands in my doorway.............i'm laying in bed with my cherry nightgown on looking up at him like he HAS.LOST.HIS.FUCKING.MIND!!!!

ME: WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??????

IDIOT: I was concerned...I knew you were sick and I hadn't talked to you today.you were not answering my calls............

ME: I fucking talked to you at 6 a.m.

IDIOT: I was worried you had went to the hospital or something.

ME: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?????MOTHERFUCKKA I WORK IN A CLINIC WITH 20 DOCTORS!!!! WHAT IN THE FUCK WERE YOU GONNA DO FOR ME?????? WHY IN THE HELL WOULD I CALL YOU?????? I AM A FUCKING NURSE!!!!!!

IDIOT: I WAS CONCERNED...........

ME: BULLSHIT..........YOU WERE BEING A FUCKING STALKER!!!!!! DON'T EVER,EVER,EVER, COME TO MY HOUSE WITHOUT CALLING ME!!!!!

IDIOT: You didn't answer your phone though.........

ME: that's because I didn't want to talk to your ass!!!! did you ever think about that!!!!! I DON'T FEEL GOOD!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO TALK!!!!!

LOOK AT ME AND LISTEN REALLY GOOD!!!!!! GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE AND DON'T CALL ME AGAIN!!!! YOU ARE OUTTA LINE!!!!! WAY OUTTA LINE!!!! YOU HAVE NO RESPECT FOR MY SPACE AND I DON'T APPRECIATE IT!!!!!!

Do you know this CRAZY motha fucka said "I can see you are mean when you are sick"

DUDE WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??????

WHAT IN DA HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM?????

2006-01-24T13:52:00.000-08:00

I went to bed early last night. I came home from work, ate some soup and a grilled cheese took some cold.and.cough.make.your.ass.drowsey.medicine, put on my p.j's and hit the bed!!! The boys were not at home and wouldn't be for the next hour-two hours...........yes.....just enough time for me to be knocked-da-hell-out!!!!!

I forgot to turn my cell off!!!!!! BIG FUCKING MISTAKE!!!!

He called at 7:30, 8, and 9 He called the house phone twice as well......I heard my oldest say "my mom is sleep" Then my phone rings at 3:38 a.m. WHO THE FUCK CALLS YOUR CELL AT 3:38 IN THE MORNING????? NEGROE YOU BETTER BE ON YOUR FUCKING DEATH BED!!!!!!!

ME: hello, what's wrong???

dumbass: I haven't talked to you

Me: what the fuck????

dumbass: I called you quite a few times last nite and you didn't answer..

ME: because I was SLEEP!!!!! I don't feel good!!!!!

dumbass: you sounded o.k when I talked to you earlier

Me: i started feeling really bad after lunch!!!! I decided to come home take some medicine and REST!!!!

dumbass:oh

me: why in the fuck would you call me this time of the morning??? I thought it was an emergency!!!!!!

dumbass: well go back to sleep and call me when you wake up.

me: wait on it!!!!! CLICK!!!!!!

dumbass didn't even say feel better or anything........ASSHOLE!!!!!

It just is what it is.................

2006-01-23T07:57:00.000-08:00

Happy Monday y'all!!!!

I have read over ALL the comments. You all have some valid points and I thought a lot about what I want.

I have decided that my "hesitation" so to speak is from FEAR!!!! I sat dude down and told him exactly how I felt. I explained to him that I would rather us become "friends" real friends 1st before becoming a couple!!! He didn't like the idea. Just like I thought his idea was because we were/are having sex..we were a couple.........WHAT THE HELL????? Who in this day and age thinks that?????? So it's my fault for not making that clear before engaging in "adult naked fun"............What I should have said before the 1st sexual encounter is "hey we are gonna have sex but i'm not your gurl"!!!!

So on that note...............I told him that we will eliminate ALL.NAKED.FUN.UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE!!!!!!!! Let's build a REAL friendship I told him!!!!! He looked at me like I had 3 fucking heads!!!!!!

Hmmmmppphhh that shit didn't go over very well!!!!!!

I'm sticking to it!!!!!

o.k you all can chew my ass out now i'm ready!!!!!!

How was YOUR weekend?????

Lemme write a REAL post...........

2006-01-18T08:03:00.000-08:00

Since I got cussed out yesterday for having a fake post.............I will not mention names..well yeah maybe I will......LOL Ms.Tam(you're lucky I don't know how to link). She said "is that all we get"???

Let's talk about the new guy. He still makes me ~~~SMILE~~~. He's nice and funny and considerate. He just moves a little fast. Yeah there I said it......I told him we need to take things slow and just enjoy each others company......he said and I quote "i'm a grown ass man and I know what I want" Well DAAAYUM how do I respond to that??????? I responded by saying let's build a friendship first and take it from there.....he took that as rejection.........I din't say I didn't want to see him anymore, I simply said hey I like you and I really enjoy your company but let's just be friends....Is that so wrong????

He said that I am taking it out on him what the "liar" and my ex-husband did to me......he won't hurt me yadda yadda yadda is what I heard............sorry i'm not making him pay for the things they did to hurt me but I do have to keep my guard up............ya know???

Shit if it was up to him i'd be moving in next month..............he's already talking about taking me home to meet his family............WHHOOOAAAA. I'm like shocked.........this is happening really fast......

My gurlfriend keeps reminding me you have to be careful what you wish for...........yeah I prayed for a man worthy of all I have to give. I prayed/wished for someone to treat me the way I DESERVE to be treated and BAAMM!!!! Here he is...........it's almost unreal......we get along really well. His kids get along with my kids. He's got two kids 13 and 17 like my kids. Except the 17 year old is a girl and I have both boys............like y'all didn't know that.......LOL

Well we will see.......Am I so wrong????? I want to just take things SLOW!!!!! We were in the grocery store and I introduced him to someone as my "friend" when we got to the car he said "i'm not your friend...i'm your MAN"!!!! What the hell??????? What did I miss????

speedy: i'm not your friend...i'm your man!!!

me: when did this happen??

speedy: (with attitude) don't be such a smart ass!!!!

me: i'm serious!!! When did we establish ourselves as a "couple"???

speedy: how would you feel if I introduced you to someone as my friend??

me: shit it wouldn't matter cause you are my friend!!!!

speedy: I thought you were my woman....

me: did you ask me when I was sleeping????

speedy: Dee you are such a character.......

me: I don't remeber you asking me to be your woman

speedy: what are we in highschool?????

me: uuuuhhhh no but don't you have to ask me???

speedy: I like you a lot..I know what I want!!! I knew you were gonna be my woman the 1st time we spent the nite together!!!!

me: uhhh well I like you 2!!!

speedy: let's just change the subject!!!!! (with attitude!!!)

me: O.K.

Now y'all know i'm new to all this dating and courting and shit!!!! I was married for 124,345,876,999 years then I JUMPED right into a relationship with the "LIAR" But when do you know you are a couple???? Shit doesn't someone have to ask or something????? Am I just "old school"???? Shit do I have to sign something?????

DEE DO YOU WANT TO GO WITH ME?

YES NO
MAYBE

CHECK ONE

How do you know????? He has not mentioned it since then........

How does this work?????

Turn that frown upside down...................

2006-01-17T07:43:00.000-08:00

Morning y'all!!!! Thanks for all the support and threats to the ex and the IRS............dam them BOTH!!! My blog fam is the shit and I appreciate y'all......reading the comments made me smile and laugh!!!!!!! YOU.ALL.ARE.THE.BESTEST. and some of you are just NUTZ!!!!!

I decided this morning that THIS week WILL be BETTER!!!!!! Has to be!!!!!! Besides my Grandma says it will be better and SHE.KNOWS!!!!!

I feel bad I should have done something with the kids yesterday in honor of Dr.King but I laid around the house ALL.DAM.DAY. I did cook a nice dinner..................

I will get this I.R.S shit under control and the EX well I just won't answer any of his calls/e-mails..............

I hope you all have a great day.................I will!!!!!

The IRS is the DEVIL!!!!!!

2006-01-12T14:56:00.000-08:00

To top off my horrible day yesterday............I got a letter from the IRS yesterday!!!!!! They say i owe them 4,000

what the hell!!!!!!

How in the fuck is that possible???? I don't have $400.

Let's recap yesterday's events.............shall we?????

woke up and forgot I had a class to attend for work at 7...........DAM.DAM.DAM.

The cabinet under my bathroom sink just fell.da.fuck.apart. when I opened it!!!!!!! like in pieces!!!!!! Cheap ass particle board...............

Get to work and find out I had made a MAJOR fuck up!!!! Boss lady is trying to cover my ass!!!!!!

Check e-mail and had that dumb ass crackhead ex of mines ask to claim one of MY kids on his taxes..........that started an ALL DAY E-MAIL WAR!!!!

There was a letter on my desk saying my next check will be GARNISHED!!!! Some debt that I have no idea about!!!!!!!!! $1,212 lets see how many payments is that?????

Then get home and get that letter from the IRS!!!!BASTIDS!!!!!

My new sweetie blew my cell phone up like his life was in danger!!!! AFTER 6 CALLS AND I DON'T ANSWER...............DEE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK!!!!!

AFTER CALL 4 I WAS CALLING HIM "STALKER"

yeah he's sweet and all that but when I told him earlier that I was having a bad day and I was in a horrible mood.........I THOUGHT THAT WOULD DO!!!!!! I SHUT MY CELL OFF!!!!!

Today is not better cause the shit from yesterday still LINGERS!!!!

Last nite I was sooooooooooooo depressed I went to bed at like 7:30..............

I'M soooooooooo glad Monday is a holiday.........

IN ITALY THEY MUST PUT crack IN THE WATER!!

2006-01-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

MY EX HUSBAND HAD THE NERVE TO ASK IF HE COULD CLAIM ONE OF THE BOYS ON HIS TAXES!!!!!!

IS HE ON FUCKINCG CRACK???????

HE BARELY GIVES ME ANY FUCKING MONEY AS IT IS!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!

CLAIM THE CHILD YOU HAD DURING OUR MARRIAGE!!!!!!! OH YEAH YOU CAN'T CAUSE THAT BITCH IS ON WELFARE!!!!!!!

ASSHOLE!!!!! I WORK MY ASS OFF TO PROVIDE AND YOU HAVE THE NERVE!!!!!!!!

HE MUST BE A CRACKHEAD!!!!!

THE NERVE OF HISS SORRY ASS!!!!!!!!!!

How was your weekend?~?~

2006-01-09T07:31:00.000-08:00

Hope everyone had a great weekend............

I chilled all weekend!!! I went out Friday nite with my new sweetie and two of his friends. We had a great time. We danced and drak a lot!!! I had to dance my ass off to keep my buzz under control....LOL It was also my duty to dance with all 3 of them being the only lady with them...............

Saturday, I rested ALL.DAM.DAY!!!!! I think I may have bed sores!!!!!! LMAO

Sunday Harry (my youngest) had a basketball game.it was the 1st of his season and he lost...aaaww he takes it hard when they don't win....I didn't even talk about it after the game........usually we talk about what he could have done better and he asks me what I would have done......so after the game I didn't even bring the game up...............

The new guy is still really sweet...............it just scares me a little cause things are just soooooooooo um right!!!! I'm trying to be positive but after being hurt TWICE in a row...I can't help but wait for the ball to drop!!!!!! At least I do know that he doesn't have a wife back home in Mississippi...not like the LIAR!!!!! Y'all remember him right????? Go back and read all posts titled the LIAR!!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!! He had the fucking nerve to call me this weekend..I didn't even answer!!!!!!

I hope you all have a great day.....................how was your weekend??????

college footbal,chicken wings,beer and tears...........

2006-01-05T07:51:00.000-08:00

I watched the game last night with my new sweetie. I went over after work and we drank beer ate chicken. I'm not really into college ball but it was a good game!

We sat on the floor and chit chatted and ate a big ass plate of chiken and drank. He is soooooo sweet!!!! pinch me cause it seems so unreal........ I'm not a mushy gurl but I find myself saying "aaawwwww" all the time!!!!! It kinda happened so fast it's making my head spin.....................

One of my best gurls left last nite for Atlanta............she called me when I was leaving his house. She had a few things she wanted to give me that she couldn't fit in her car. She called me and said she was on her way to my house and she would wait for me....I told her to just go............it's easier that way.....I cried all the way home....she is a great friend.....she really helped me through my breakup with the "LIAR" back in March................she is the "real deal" when it comes to friends............ATLANTA here I come!!!!! Soon as the weather breaks.....LOL

as far as the comments yesterday..........I do need to work on my bad ass mouth!!!! I always wanted to but with a lil incentive................

Happy Friday eve.................

Divas still got a smile on her face!!!!!!

2006-01-04T14:16:00.000-08:00

Things are still all good with new dude!!!!! He is just..........just nice!!!! He makes me laugh. The stories are soooooooooooo freaking funny!!!! He is from a town of about 500..........yep 5.0.0. that is soooo dam funny to me!!!!!

Last nite we were on the phone a lil to long and I told him he was killing my roll-over minutes (gotta love cingular). He said are you ready for this? Dude said well i'm gonna go get you a s.p.r.i.n.t. phone so we can talk as long as we want!!!!! Me huh????? I said "why don't you just strap a LO-JACK on my ankle................" Then I fell out laughing............He didn't laugh at all!!!! I crack myself up!!!!!

Yesterday he picked me up for lunch and we sat in the park and jsut talked!!!!! How cool is that?????? Who knew?????

He did tell me that I needed to work on my bad mouth!!! As incentive to stop all the fucking cussing I do, he said If I quit for a month, he would take me anywhere in the states I want to go in the spring...............I said o.k but DAM.IT.I.WANNA.FUCKING.START.IN.FEBRURAY.CAUSE.THE.MONTH.IS.SHORT.AND.THIS.SHIT.WILL.BE.HARD!!!!!

I crack me up!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

2006-01-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

THEY SAY THE WAY YOU BRING THE NEW YEAR IN IS THE WAY YOUR WHOLE YEAR WILL BE......................

I had a great new years eve. My lil brother,his gurl visiting from Hawaii, my nephew, my son(the oldest had other plans....dam 17 year olds!!!!!) My gurl Jaime, her daughter, and my new friend and his 2 kids.....we had a great time eating and playing games..........very nice time had by all!!!!

New years day, my new friend cooked for me again..........yeah!!!! Twice already........he went to the store and came back with a pork roast, black-eyed-peas, cornbread, cabbage and fried some chicken!!!!! I layed on the couch me and my gurl drinking bloody mary's while he cooked one helluva dinner......I think he's a keeper!!!!!!

Let's talk just a little about H.I.M. He's a few years older than me.........40 and a REAL gentleman!!!! He just makes me smile!!!!!!! I'm scared cause it happened so fast and feels ummm sooooo right!!!!!! He kept calling my brother brother-in-law on Saturday nite!!!! Me and my brother got a good laugh about it last nite!!!!! Yesterday bestfriend came over to meet said dude that is taking up ALL.MY.TIME. LOL she brought 2 of our other friends along cause my friends are just nosey like that!!!! All three of them said he was hella cool but best friend called when she left and said "Dee he held your hand most of the time we were there....that's really sweet" AAAAAWWWWW!!!!!

Anyways.....I will take it slow o.k ms. NIKKI......for now I will just enjoy and hope it stays just like this.....the compliments, the phone calls, the good feelings I could REALLY GET USE TO THIS!!!! He said "i've been looking for someone like you my whole life"!!!!!! Dam no one has ever said that before.....shit even if it was/is a line, it sure as hell felt GOOD!!!!!

Back to the plantation today after 4 1/2 days off!!!!!

Hope you all have a great day!!!!!!!!

aaaaaawwwww dam!!!!!

2005-12-29T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all!!! I have me a new friend..................you all are saying...yeah Dee we've heard this one before........give it a week or two and he'll be kicked to da curb...........

He's different............I dunno......just different. Keeps me smiling!!!! It just happened so fast. He constantly compliments me and makes me feel all tingly inside...........Hell even if he don't mean half the shit he says, it sure as hell feels good!!!! It feels right!!!! You know????

He is from Misssissippi hella country but in a really cute way!!!! He's a few years older than me(40) and a real gentleman!!!! And guess what???? He can cook!!!! He made me neckbones and cabbage and cornbread this weekend and I was in HEAVEN!!!!!!

So I don't want to get my hopes up but I will just sit back and enjoy!!!!!! I will keep you guys posted!!!!

As far as the birthday pics........I was waaaay too tipsey..........couldn't find my dam camera!!!! oooppppsss!!!!

I will have another opp. to take pics on Friday my gurls moving to Atlanta and it's her birthday!!! making menta note to self....don't forget camera!!!!!

I did it REAL big!!!!

2005-12-27T08:22:00.000-08:00

Thanks for all the birthday wishes!!!!!! You all are soooo sweet!!!!

1st I have to say I am soooooo blessed!!!! It's good to know that i'm loved by my friends and appreciated by my co-workers!!!! I got so many great gifts it's unreal!!!! Every year my birthday gets better and better!!!!

I hope you all had a merry Christmas and I hope you all have a great new year!!!!

I will try and catch up on all you guys blogs later this week!!!!!

THANKS AGAIN FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!!! YOU ALL ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!

OVER 35 NEVER LOOKED SOOOO GOOD!!!

2005-12-22T08:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!

I AM SOOO BLESSED!!! I am working half a day today then going home to get ready for my cocktail party!!!

When I got to work I had roses and breakfast and several gifts on my desk!!!! I got two cheesecakes(one for work and one for home) some bad ass boots from boss lady!! A cute wallet, Mary J cd(yessss) starbucks card and mug..............My co-workers went all out!!!! I got a card with ca$h......yeah boy...............

Today is a good day!!!!

I promise I will post pics of my party this weekend...........Thanks brother dear!!!!!

Have a great day you guys!!!!!

Have a drink for Dee today!!!!!

My birthday eve..................

2005-12-20T10:38:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Mrs. T.J. I had to find the 23rd post and the 5th sentence or close to it. At least she gave me heads up....not like some bloggers who tag and don't tell or even give you a clue................LOL

Oh shit now I forgot what the dam sentence said.....I forgot to wrie it down.................i'll be right back!!!!!

Here it is: I LIKE TO GET UP AND GET MY SHIT DONE SO I HAVE THE REST OF THE DAY TO DO AS I PLEASE!!

Now I have to tag 5 people but instead...................I want the 1st 5 people that comment to make up the next sentence!!!!! I think that should be funny as hell. I'm gonna LOVE the responses!!!!!

The 1st 5 comments write the next sentnce!!!!!!

I still don't have the "perfect" birthday outfit but i'm sure I wi;; pull it all together....Diva's have a way of doing that!!!!!

I spent waaaaay too much money........My son gave me the money for my part....it was his idea.......I didn't have the heart to tell him he didn't give me enough!!! LOL It was so sweet of him to offer to fund my lil coctail party!!!!!

I will have my brother post the party pics for me this weekend............Thanks in advance if you are reading this brother dear!!!! Yes my brother reads my blog..........he comments sometimes. He already knows all my biddness so I don't mind him reading................If you want to go see some really cute pics of my adorable nephew look for comments from justwill and mosey on over to my lil brothers spot...................

Tonite is the pre-party!!!!! One of my favorite wednesday nite spots for a lil pre-birthday fun!!!!

Today is my Grandma's birthday................Happy Birthday Grandma!!!!!

Happy hump day y'all!!!!!

Day 6 no glasses.......2 days and counting!!!

2005-12-20T08:43:00.000-08:00

Day six no glasses...yeah!!!! I must say it's getting easier to get them in. I still have a lil tuble getting them out!!!! Saturday night it took me 30 minutes to get them out....maybe it was the 7 yep SEVEN vodka gimlets I consumed!!!!! LOL

Two days til my lil birthday cocktail party...........I didn't invite a lot of folks cause i'm not trying to feed too many people. And the cocktails...everybody I know DRINKS and since i'm providing the liquor I though I should LIMIT my invites!!!! LOL

I just about finished my shopping last nite.............yeah i'm last minute!!! I shop right up to Christmas eve...................

I was trying soooooo hard to find the PERFECT pre-birthday and birthday outfit!!!! I went to my 3 favorite stores and NOTHING!!!!! Shit I always but myself TWO birthday outfits!!!!! Now what am I gonna do?~?~ The birthday gurl does NOT have her SHIT together...........I have not even got the food or liquor for Thursday!!!!! What I work soooooo much better under pressure!!!

I think I need Wednesday off!!!!!!!

Day two.......no glasses!!!!!

2005-12-16T11:37:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I could only wear my new eyes for 4 hours. She (my Dr.) said 4 hours the 1st day..........6 hours the next......then graduate to 8 and so on................

Well I went out last nite for a lil pre-birthday drink and it took ALL my will power not to pop my "new eyes" in.....LOL

This morning I put the 1st one in without a problem but the 2nd gave me a lil trouble but I.DID.IT!!!!

I love my new eyes.......................

Y'all just don't know what a big deal this is...........I'm a big gurl now!!!!

My office party is tomorrow............I have to make macaroni and cheese. I swear they think that's all I can cook........every dam pot.luck.barbeque.whatever.excuse.to.eat.lots.of.food. They sign me up for macaroni and cheese. My co-workers..............

I hope the Dr.s have our gifts at the party(money)..they always give us $100 every year!!! I used to complain and call them cheap asses until I found out what they get downstairs($25 last year and NOTHING the year before) What the hell????? That makes our crisp $100 bill in the cards we get the bestest!!!

Well since I don't have a sweetie for my birthday.........I went and got myself something NICE you know to put a smile on my face............a new C.O.A.C.H. bag......if I could post pics I would show you.............

Happy Friday y'all....................

I did it!!!!!

2005-12-15T11:48:00.000-08:00

No more glasses for me!!!!! I got contacts today!!!!!

You might be saying/thinking "big deal Dee"

Well let me tell you........this was my 3rd attempt to get fitted!!!! I chickened out the last three times!!!! My eye Dr. wanted me to take them out and put them in not once but TWICE before I could get them.

The 1st time last year I just didn't even try!!!!
The 2nd time I didn't go to the appointment
Today I went in for my eye exam and she pushed.I mean persuaded me to try......

Dr. Joe: just try while you're here. Your vision has not changed from last year. I will give you two different kind and in 1 month come back and tell me which you like better.

Me: uuhhhh o.k I guess...

Dr.Joe: c'mon you can do it....(walking out to get contacts)

Me: Dee you can do this.....

She comes in puts them in and sends me to the room with the tech. He gives me a bunch of stuff. I sit down and I must take them out and put them in again.........this guy is so sweet and relaxed. I have to send him a starbucks card....he was very nice. I would have been like "look lady......I have other people to see" LOL After 30 minutes........I completed my mission and I was off with my cute lil bag of goodies!!!!

I have only had glasses for 3 years now............I'm sick of them!!!! I miss being able to wear cute lil sun glasses. My glasses are ALWAYS dirty!!! You can't really see my eye makeup the RARE times I decide to try and be ultra sexxxy. I forget my glasses ALL.THE.TIME. I sit on them and lay on them..........................NO MORE!!!!

Now if I could get past this feeling like they are moving or going to pop out or sumthin is in my eye.........LOL

I'm so proud of me!!!! Let me run out and get me some MAC eye shadows!!!!!

Wednesday What??????

2005-12-14T08:31:00.000-08:00

Guess who got a 6 foot tree for $22.46 ?~?~ Yeah boy!!!! Walmart is the SHIT!!!! I paid $6.44 for the stand and now my apartment smells like a winter wonderland..............What? Walmart............

I still have not sent out Christmas cards yet....I did get them at walmart last nite though................What am I waiting for????

I decided to throw MYSELF a lil cocktail party on next Thursday (22nd). Yes sir i'm throwing it for myself so that it's done right!!!!! LOL Just a few appetizers and martinis................So if you all are in the area come on by!!!!!

I talked to a guy that I was sort of talking too for a minute when I 1st broke up with the "liar". He didn't really work out cause I could tell he was still "into" his ex (he had broke up around the same time as me and the "liar").........so we just sort of didn't call each other anymore........here is the convo:

him: hey how have you been?

me: i'm good!!!

him: did you get back with your ex?

me: hell no!!!

him: well who are you seeing?

me: uhhh nobody!!!

him: you're STILL single???

me: uhhh yeah!!!!

him: I find that hard to believe..........

me: shit me too!!!!!

him: maybe we could hang out sometime????

me: yeah only if you are really over her..............

him: why did you have to say it like that????

me: because that's what I mean. every other convo was about her and what went wrong..........that is not what I want or need to hear if you are trying to get to know me!!!!!!

him: I didn't know you felt that way.............

me: duh!!!! Me constantly telling you that i'm not her was not clear??? Me saying oohh that's too bad maybe you should be telling her theese things.........was not plain as day?????

him: well I don't really remember.........

me: well you just heard it again!!!!

him: well I gotta go....

me: of course you do!!!!!

him: can I call you later?

me: sure as long as we don't talk about her!!!!!

him: Dee you are such a smart ass!!!

me: no sweetie i'm REAL!!!!!

NEGRO PULEEZE!!!! WHAT????

I got a picture CD in the mail from my Grandma. It has all the pics from her Europe, Canada, Hawaii and Houston trips. I threw it in my purse this morning cause I checked the mail on the way to work.....looking at the pictures at my desk everybody that walked by said the same thing:

Dee you have a LOT of white people in your family..........Dee your grandma is so light..............

My family is DIVERSE!!!!!!!! WHAT????????

Happy wednesday!!!!

8 more days...........................

Weekend in a review.......

2005-12-12T14:30:00.000-08:00

Hey you guys...................

Friday night my gurl had a tree trimming party. Now this chick is ONE of my bestfriends but sometimes I wonder WHY????

How does she throw a party and expect me to do ALL the work?~?~ Two years ago I threw her a tree trimming party. She was having her 1st christmas in her new lil apaprtment and wanted to have a party. I suggested she make it a tree trimming party. I printed out invites on cute christmas paper. I asked that everyone bring an ornament to "trim" her tree. I thought up games to play and had prizes. I played all Christmas music and gave out disposable cameras to capture ALL the memories.......it OVERALL was fun!!! There were appetizers on cute lil christmas trays...............I out did myself. She gave me some money and the rest I did as my gift to her................

Her version of the party:

she asked me to make not one but THREE dishes!!!!

she had fried chicken and tuna and crakers. oh yeah there was a veggie tray..

her neighbors, me, her roomate, one co-worker and one gurlfriend oh yeah and her neice(who is like 2 days over 21 and acts 16 at times)

no Christmas carols.........Keysiha Cole(GHETTO) I luv her cd but not at a tree trimming party!!!!

no games just us watching each other eat and shit.

drinks..brandy and egg nog(E & J who still drinks that shit???) Vodka with no mixer..........lukily I came with my own pinapple juice. I am currently HOOKED on pinapple martinis. She had no other mixer for the vodka........

only her co-worker and myself brought ornaments when I asked the others they simply said "we didn't know we had to" YEAH I ASKED WHAT???????

She expected me to come through and just DO everything but I said "hellous nous"

Saturday my gurl who is moving to ATL had a going away party. Much more fun. Her roomate gave her a going away get together.......much better done.....leave it to the gay boyz to hook it up!!!!!!

Sunday I chilled and took the 123,324,456,876,999,900 braids out of my dam head!!!! I wish I could post you all the pick of my "FRO"

Last nite me and my youngest went to look for our Christmas tree. We came home empty handed cause the tree we liked so much was $37.95 but it had a metal stand on it and it was $9.95. My son decided he wanted to get the tree "flocked" cause we have never had that done before. That was $3 per foot. Our tree was 6 feet........

$37.95 tree
$ 9.95 stand
$18 .00 flocking

$65.90 Shit I don't think so!!!

we searched and searched for a similar tree with a FREE plastic stand and 2 wooden planks to hold it up but guess what????? Smaller trees with the free stands were priced the same and more!!!! What a fucking gimmick!!!! Dam SHIESTERS!!!!

I was talking to a lady on the tree lot and she told me to go to home depot and get one for $25 and I will go to Target and get a stand........... shit I need to get in the tree biddness...........

10 days til the divas birthday!!!!!

2 weeks and counting!!!!!!

2005-12-08T07:39:00.000-08:00

Exactly 2 weeks from today.......................My birthday!!!!!

I just want to start off by saying this: TYRA and her judges S.U.C.K.T.H.E.BIGGEST.

How in the hell did they 1: get rid of Bre?~?~ she is the shiznit!!!! 2. how in the fu*k did they pick pastey colored Nicole over Nik?~? Nik was my second choice cause her pose was ALWAYS the same!!! I was mad as hell. My youngest son simply "mom I told you they were gonna pick Nicole" I just rolled my eyes at him..........

I am soooo not ready for Christmas......not one gift purchased. I only buy for my boy cuz Christmas is for the kids.........The ONE fucking thing I ask baby daddy to buy for my youngest son.....he calls this morning at 6 and says he couldn't get it......now I gotta scrape and scrounge to get my baby that dam PSP or whatever the hell it's called. The hand held play station2 thingy....what a freakin ASSHOLE!!!!!

I need to get my house decorated to get me in the spirit. I don't get my tree until the 10th because I keep my apartment soooooo warm, I don't want my tree to go up in flames!!!!!! ~~~~~POOF~~~~~ I always wrap my front door and air conditioner and put big ass bows on them.make them look like gifts!!! I Hang a few other decorations like candy canes or garland around my porch!!!! Shit I need to get cards out too!!!! Dam I'm really sucking this year!!!!!!

Not really hanging out with dude anymore....something is just not right about him...............can't quite get my finger on it!!!! I have to go with my gut feeling.....back to the drawing board!!!! I'm not giving up yet!!!!!

I had lunch with a friend I have not seen in a while. He and I were really close. We worked together for about 2 years. He was also friends with my ex-husband. When I moved on with "the LIAR" he did not want to come around because he said he didn't "feel" right because my ex is his "boy"....what the hell ever!!!!!! Any ways we promised to do a better job of keeping in touch after our friend/co-worker died a few weeks ago!!!! At the funeral we promised to see more of each other!!!!! So He met me for lunch yeaterday. He wanted to know how me and the boys were and of course how my ex is. He asked if I was still with "the liar" and I told him NAAWWW!!! He said "how do you do it"? HUH??? He wanted to know how I just pick up and move on after my marriage ended bad.............my next relationship ended horrible. I said I JUST.DO.IT!!!!! I don't blame the next man for what the last 2 did!!!! PERIOD!!! He said you know what Dee? You are a RIDER!!!! " I said yeah I know...shit I gotta be!!!!!! I just take shit as it comes you know!!!!! My day is coming!!!!! My prince is looking for me as we speak!!!!!! I know it.....all the bullshit I've been through the last 4-5 years is just preparing me for the ONE!!!!! I know this!!!!!!!

Y'all have a great Thursday....................and REMEMBER:

EXACTLY 2 WEEKS FROM TODAY............SOMEBODY IS HAVING A BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

5 random things.................

2005-12-06T16:19:00.000-08:00

I was hand picked by Rhonda to do this! You all know I don't know how to link.........get over it!!! LOL Good thing I went by her lil spot today or I would have had NO IDEA!!!!!

That is one of my goals for 06..........

to learn to link

to learn to post pics

anyways Ms Rhonda here goes:

1. I am very tall for a woman...................5'11 bare foot I always wear at least a 2" heel.............it's the super.model.diva.in me!!!! I hated it as a kid/teenager but luv it as an adult.......especially the "tall drink of water comments" save the "dam youre tall!!" NO SHIT!! I HATE the amazon comments.....that's not appealing!!!!

2.I don't know how to swim........fear mostly!!! Do I want to learn?~? yeah maybe one day but you know the saying........can't teach an old dog...........

3. I luv grown.up.naked.stuff. y'all know exactly what i'm talkin bout...........there is a fine line between being a freak and just having a good time!!! I know y'all want other details.let your minds run free!!! Good thing I have the boys or I would be outta control in my new found "singleness"

4. I love my skin color(dark chocolate).............I wish I had blemish free flawless skin............I have tried err thing under the sun. I need an esthetician (sp? spell check doesn't work here at the plantation) Everytime some one asks me the one thing I would change about me they ASSUME I would want bigger breastesses....nnnaaaww i'm cool with my b cups!!!! I want pretty skin!!!!

5. I am afraid to watch scary movies!!!! Yeah big.bad.ass.will.whoop.a.mufuggas.ass. is afraid of scary movies!!!!! Not afraid of anybody on 2 legs but none of them scary movies that give me bad dreams.............

Now maybe you all know me a lil better!!!!

Whats the big deal???????

2005-12-05T12:25:00.000-08:00

I am back................again!!!!

My lil bro fixed my computer at home.....YEAH!!!!

I was sick ALL weekend..............in bed with a horrible cold!!!!! I am a little better now and back at work!!!!

I got out of bed last night long enought to catch up on Oprah. The whole Kirk Franklin porn addict show was comedy to me!!!!

What's the big deal??????

So he watches flics,,,,,,,,big deal!!! Me too!!! So do most of the members of his church!!!! LOL

So while I was catching up on my blog reads I got to thinking...............

Maybe he has an album coming out or something..............this is SURE to help sales!!!!!!

The show just seemed sooooo FAKE to me.....his wife was not really convincing at all to me!!!!! She just sort of sat there like a puppet!!!!
So your hubby watches flics err now and then.................I can think of a whole lot of shit he could be doing that is real bad!!!! LOL

I dunno is it just me??? What do you all think!!! Or am I just CRAZY?????

Hello.....it's me........

2005-11-30T08:49:00.000-08:00

Hey you guys!!!!! I hope you all had a great holiday!!!! My turkey day was good!!! I had a good little break. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday.....Monday my youngest was sick so I MADE him stay home from school.

While I was calling in to work at 6:15 he was in the backround saying "mom i'm o.k. I wanna go to school!!!" LOL After I hung up I told him not to EVER do that while i'm on the phone!!!! Boss lady called to see if he was o.k. She just laughed at the message. That kid hates to miss school!!! I hope he keeps it up when he starts High School next year.........

Can you believe it's December???? I am NEVER ready for Christmas............ALWAYS ready for December 22nd though........Diva's birthday is coming.........YEAH...............22 days from now!!!!!

Hmmm what else???? I kind of started dating again......I will keep you posted........He seems nice enough now but you know how quickly that shit changes!!!!!!

Happy Tuesday!!!!!! I need a computer at home so I can catch up on all of the stuff I missed over the last few days!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!

2005-11-23T09:11:00.001-08:00

I just want to wish you all a very happy thanksgiving!!!!

My computer died at home so I will not be able to blog all weekend!!!! BOOOO!!!! I have Friday off as well.........

My lil brother and nephew are on the way down here from Washington so I will have family with me for the holidays!!! YEAHHHHH!!!

You all be safe and eat really good!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!

2005-11-23T09:11:00.000-08:00

I just wan to wish you all a very happy thanksgiving!!!!

My computer died at home so I will not be able to blog all weekend!!!! BOOOO!!!! I have Friday off as well.........

My lil brother and nephew are on the way down here from Washington so I will have family with me for the holidays!!! YEAHHHHH!!!

You all be safe and eat really good!!!!!

Great weekend!!!!!

2005-11-21T07:20:00.000-08:00

I had a great weekend.........I hope you all did too!!!!

1st off it has been really nice out here!!!!! It's mid November and it's been BEAUTIFUL!!!!! Sure as hell doesn't seem like Thanksgiving when it's 80 degrees outside........ducking as my peeps on the east coast throw shit at me..........

Friday night I did nothing.......I was supposed to go out but I went to bestfriends house to get the front of my hair re-braided and she took FOREVER!!!! But hey when it's FREE..............

Saturday I went to Mexico to eat lobster with a fellow blogger. We had a great time. There was another blogger there as well she is hella cool so is he. It felt like we had known each other for a minute instead of just meeting........"I luv my people" lol I will not name names without permission but I will say I look foward to kicking it with them again!!!!! The females(the fellow blogger and her gurl) were easy to talk too. Sometimes when meeting women for the 1st time and you are new to their crew, women can be a lil "stand offish" but they were not at all!!!!

The female blogger had also gone to the D.C. blooger meet up and showed me some pics.......it was nice to put faces with some of the blogs i've read in the past.....SMALL WORLD!!!!!

Sunday I lounged all day. It was soooo hot all I could do is lay on the couch!!!!! I should have got my ass up and went to get a freaking turkey and ham but NOOOOOOOO not your gurl.........

We went to see LYFE and Vivian Green at the house of blues last nite!!!!
Dude was nice!!!!! I only knew a couple of songs but I WILL go get his CD!!! His vibe was hella cool and he mentioned his faith a few times and that is rare theese days!!!! He had one song where he kept saying how he knows he needs to be in church on Sunday instead of doing other ish and couldn't we ALL relate???? Vivian Green has a great voice......Who can't relate to "i'm on an emotional rollercoaster, luvin you aint nothin healthy.......luvin you was never good for me....................."

Well it's Monday and boss lady is gone so theese heffas need to be watched!!! Two of them called me at home yesterday to "call in"

When the cats away theese mice call.the.hell.in..................

Have a GREAT MONDAY!!!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!

2005-11-18T08:12:00.000-08:00

Today is my mothers birthday!!!!! Happy Birthday momma!!!! I know she is going to have a good day cause my grandma is visiting her in Hawaii.....I wish I was there with them!!!!!

Why did I get a letter from James(the oldest) econ teacher saying he has a "low D" in her class.......

Why did he try to play me like i'm DUMB? Talking about "mom I will bring it up" In a week???? NEGRO PLEASE!!!!! You act like I never went to school.....you act like I fell off the turnip truck.and.bumped.my.head.and.don't.know.shit!!!!!

I told him:

1. your teacher needs to call me by the end of the day!!!!! PERIOD!!!

2. don't ask me for SHIT!!!! ESPECIALLY my car keys!!!!!!

3. work, school and home PERIOD!!! Until further notice!!!!

4. any violation will result in a beat down like you never ever had.....you might just find yourself "assed out" like your lil friend!!!!!

*after I said that I felt bad for saying I would kick him out but I wanted him to know I was not playing*

Boss Lady is gone for 2 weeks...so y'all know I will be hella stressed "babysitting" my co-workers!!!!!

Can you believe it's already gonna be Thanksgiving already??????? I am soooo not ready!!!!

Happy Friday you all!!!! Have a great weekend!!!!

WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS.........

2005-11-16T08:57:00.000-08:00

I'm back y'all!!!!! I had a really good time!!!!!

I'm sorry I don't have any wild.ass.sex.with.random.strangers.stories.!!!

I left on Friday with my gurl that lives there in Vegas. She had to work in L.A. Friday morning then work a lil while in La Jolla(near me). She didn't want to ride home alone so she picked me up and we hit the road!!!! It worked out cause I got to spend time with her alone before the rest of the gurls got there!!! Four and a half hours of driving.....you get to really talk about EVERYTHING!!!!

We hung out Friday nite and really talked a LOT!!! She has a beautiful home and a great new job!!! I am sooo proud of her. Two years ago she was unemployed...........GOD.IS.GOOD.

Saturday morning she got up and made me breakfast in her beautiful kitchen....I just love pretty kitchens.......LOL We ate and drank coffee and talked a lot!!! Then we got dressed and got ready to hit the streets!!!!
As soon as we got in motion, theese bitches call and say we are here!!!!!
BITCHES.PLEASE!!!! Meet us at the bar.....it's 1:00 on saturday.....you heffas were supposed to be here Friday nite!!!!

Now we give them directions to where we are and do you know one of them bitches have the nerve to say "but i'm not dressed" My gurl said "i'm sorry, but me and Dee are" Why in the hell are you not ready to HIT.IT!!!!

So they get to the bar, we all have a few rounds and then we go BACK to the house and my gurl shouts "YOU BITCHES HAVE 30 MINUTES TO GET READY"!!!! I WAS LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!!!!!!! We hit the strip!!!!

The rest of the weekend was a blast!!!! Drinking and more drinking!!!! Dancing and maore drinks and eating and more drinks and laughing and more drinking!!!!!

Sunday we woke up to mimosas and went to bed drinking......ALL.DAY.DRINKING.AND.NON.STOP.LAUGHTER!!!!!

All and all the weekend was great. Only two lil fights.....thats good for FIVE women......We got home at five on Monday!!!!

I NEEDED THAT!!!!!!

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!!!

2005-11-09T09:38:00.000-08:00

We are leaving Friday morning for Vegas. My two gurls were in charge of getting the rental!!! Why did best friend call me at 6 this morning saying "we can't get a rental car" What the hell???? It is Wednesday!!!! I do not have a credit card....in order for me to get a rental, I have to have $350 extra dollars sitting in my account because to use my visa.debit.card. for a rental, I must have $350 for them to HOLD until I return the car............I have done it in the past but I was PREPARED to do it!!!!! No last minute shit!!!!! I'm sooooo pissed!!!!!

Why do bitches do shit H.A.L.F.A.S.S.E.D.????
Why do brauds wait til the last minute?????
Why do they think I can just FIX.SHIT.???

It just seems if I don't do shit, take charge, shit just doesn't go right!!!!!

Then my other gurl said I have to work Friday half a day!!!! What the fuck??? We all have the dam day off!!!! That was the dam plan!!!! We are always waiting on her PUNK ASS!!! Always!!!! It's not cute!!!!!

Vegas is 4 hours away if you leave at the right time!!!

7-11 a.m. on Friday....Perfect......the freeway is CLEAR!!!!

1-6 p.m DUH!!!! Err body and their momma is getting off work trying to get outta town....mainly Vegas...........

2 lane highway during PEAK hours or a holiday weekend(friday is Vets day)......could make the usual 4 hour trip 8 hours!!!!!

Then she says "dee maybe we can all give you money to put into your account to get the rental car"

BITCH PLEASE!!!! How the fuck you gonna count other peoples money?????? How about you take care of it cause it was your job originally!!!!!!

Glad my gurl has opened her door to her brand new house cause if I had to depend on her ass for hotel accomodations, I would be sleeping in the rental car............oh yeah we don't have a rental!!!!!!

Y'all have a great Wednesday!!!!

I will finish up here and when 4:30 hits i'm off til Tuesday!!!!!

You all have a great weekend

I will get to Vegas if I have to gas my own car up and go....shit BETSY(my car) made it before................

It's Monday!!!!

2005-11-07T14:12:00.000-08:00

I didn't get any!!!!!! Still on FIRE!!!!! I thought twice about pulling B.O.B(battery operated boyfriend) out of the drawer but changed my mind.....I'm soooo not feeling his plastic ass!!!!! My gurl says I need to buy a new boyfriend.......

I spent the WHOLE weekend in the house!!!! I only left once on Saturday to take James(the oldest) to work........Then to Wal-mart. Only spent $44 YEAHHH!!! That is a 1st for me!!!!

What is it about that dam Wal-mart that makes you spend soooo much money???? I go for toilet paper and paper plates and spen $100!!! I swear there is something in the air...... Maybe that dam greeter persons sprays something on you when they say "welcome to Wal-mart"

I woke up to a flat tire this morning!!!! The teenager had the car all day yesterday!!!! He parked the edge of the tire on the white.parking.thingy. and it was broken and sharp I assume!!!!

This is a short work week for me....YEAH!!! Don't hate!!!!! LOL
I have Thursday off cause the lil one has a Dr.s appointment at 10 and Friday is a holiday....so I requested Thursday off. Then the gurls decided ROAD.TRIP. Off to Vegas Friday a.m My gurl that lives in Vegas is having her birthday this weekend....plus house warming!!! She just got her new house!!!! This weekend is going to be a BLAST!!!!! Two Of my craziest gurlfriends.........drinking, dancing,comedy and hopefully some ADULT FUN!!!!

This is my motivation to get me through Tuesday and Wednesday!!!!!

I NEED SUM SOON!!!!!

2005-11-04T13:29:00.000-08:00

Happy Friday y'all!!!

I need sum!!!! I want to do grown up naked shit!!!!

some of you might be saying "well Dee just do it!!! Like N.I.K.E."

I wish it was that simple!!!! You see being a mom really narrows down your naked-time!!!! It's soooo frustrating!!!

Let me explain.................

I would love to be able to have a "sleep over" but you see the problem is this, I don't want my kids to see some "random.ass.negro.cuming.or.going" I just can't see it!!! The few times I do have company......either the boys are gone(VERY RARE) or I sneak said victim in and out like a ninja.......it is understood that before the naked fun begings you must leave before the sun comes up!!!! UNDERSTAND?????

Even the liar who I kicked it with for 2 1/2 years still left before my boys woke up!!!! He was in respected the way I ran shit!!! EVEN THOUGH HE WAS/IS A BIG.FAT.LIAR.

ALL THE SNEAKING IN AND OUT IS HARD.....THEN THERE IS THE NOISE FACTOR!!! It takes all the fun outta "doing the do" if you can't yell,scream and act a dam fool!!!!

What's a gurl to do??????? Which brings me to my next problem........grown ass negroes that don't have their own place!!!! What's up with that shit?????? o.k I can understand if you are in the Navy and you live on the ship.......understood!!!!! If you don't have your own place this leads me to believe:

1. you live with a woman and your ass is a LIAR!!!
or
2. you live at home with moms..........
or
3. you are hiding something!!!!

The men that I have been talking too lately want to come hang out at my house. NO...........HELL.NO!! There is no need for my son's to come home and see you sitting on our couch and you probably will not be back!!!!! You coming to my house and drinking my liquor does not equal a date!!!!! HELLO!!!!

You want my number but you don't have a number to give me!!!! What the fuck????? Do I look that stooopid???? O.k I understand not everyone has a cell(hard to believe huh?) but no home phone? No work phone? You have a woman!!!

Anywayz....i'm on the hunt for someone with their own place to put out the fire!!!!!

Wish me luck.....thanks for listening!!!!!

Maybe i'm just old school......

2005-11-03T10:12:00.000-08:00

My friends funeral was yesterday!!! It was a nice service......It made me really sad to see her kids faces. Her mom handled it well!!! Her 2 brothers and step dad were fine too!!! I got up and spoke about what her friendship meant to me!!!! I felt I had to!!!!

Here is the problem!!!!!! Is there no "dress code" for church?????
I understand that we no longer have to wear black to funerals!!!! Black is for mourning and sadness. A lot of people consider funerals a "going home celebration" and white and other colors are worn now....o.k i'm o.k. with that!!!!

Tank tops................

club dresses.....................

shorts.....................

lacey tops..........................

open toed shoes.......................

hooker heels..............................

leather pants,skirts............................

jeans......................

Where i'm from, you dress a certain way in church. Funeral or wedding or even baptisim.............I know you are supposed to "come as you are" but DAM!!!! I could not stop looking and shakin my head!!!!

AM I JUST OLD SCHOOL OR HAVE THE TIMES CHANGED THAT MUCH???

OR IS IT AN EAST COAST WEST COAST THING??????

WHAT DO YOU THINK?????

I chickened out.......

2005-11-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

I did not go over to my friends mom's house. I will attend the funeral tomorrow. I'm really sad. I wanted to go over and give her mom a hug and let her know how sorry I am for her loss. You see the thing that gets me all choked up is I don't want to see her children's faces.......I know that seeing them will definetly break me down!!!!!!!

I know that when I look into their faces.....I will cry my eyes out cause I will see my own kids in them........I can't imagine growing up without my mom!!!! She was the only girl with two brothers.........I can't imagine life with out my only sibling.........

Well I better get to work!!!! Y'all have a good day!!!!!

Diva's got a lot on her mind!!!!!

2005-10-28T11:57:00.000-07:00

I have sooo much on my mind...............

I am feeling really sad. I had a friend/co-worker pass away on Wednesday!!!! She was too young!!!!! She left behind two kids........I feel so sad for them!!!!!

My "new" son is o.k. After my friend passed I have decided to just chill for a while!!! I will not approach his mom yet.....Thanks for all the good advice!!! He is a good kid and he is no problem to us!!! I will just see how things go!!!!!

I have a TERRIBLE cold....my chest feels like somebody is standing on it!!!!!

My best girlfriends birthday is today!!!! Of course she is expecting us to "do it real big" tonite!!!!!

I'm going home early to "dope" myself up so I can try and hang tonite!!!!

My computer DIED at home!!!! Black screen only!!!!!

Y'all have a great weekend!!!!

WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU??????

2005-10-25T14:01:00.000-07:00

My oldest son's friend has been staying with us since early Thursday morning(1:00 a.m.)
When I got home from my Wednesday nite outing.....grown folks stuff.....lol He was asleep at my house. When James got up to bring me to work on Thursday he told me the story on the way top work.

The kid( he's been friends with James since sophmore year) got into a fight with his mom lat Wednesday nite......she put him out.....he came to our house. Of course James let him in with his stuff!!!

James said "mom I know you wouldn't want the homie out on the streets" I had to let him in and I was gonna talk to you in the morning"

Now that was Thursday morning. I figured she would let it boil over and come get him on the weekend............It's been a week!!!!! No calls nothing!!!!! Everyday I ask him "did you talk to your mom?" He answers NOPE!!!!

Well last nite I asked him as I do every nite "you talk to your mom"? He replies yeah and the convo goes like this:

me: what did she say?

new.son:she wanted to know when I was gonna get the rest of my stuff

me: HUH????

new.son: she wants me to ge the rest of my stuff!!!!

Now we start to talk. We are home alone....my oldest is at work and my youngest is outside playing. He is hurt I can hear it in his voice. He says they fought over money.....everytime he gets paid, she takes/demands most of his money!!!! I feel for him....we talk about 30 minutes and I can hear the hurt in his voice....my heart goes out to him!!!

now before y'all get mad at me....I know that there are 2 sides 2 every story!!! But my point is this..........this lady doesn't know me from the man in the moon!!!! She has not called my house O.N.C.E.
SHE DON'T KNOW WHAT MY HOME IS LIKE!!!!
she don't know if we are crackheads..........
she don't know if my house is clean...............
she don't know if we eat..........................

How do you let your 16 year old stay away from home for 7 whole days and not come see about him????? I.JUST.DON'T.G.E.T.I.T.

So i'm gonna give her ass til Sunday and i'm going over there to see what the deal is!!!! I don't mind him staying with us.....but I want to know:
WHAT KIND OF MOTHER IS SHE?????

Am I going about this the wrong way???? What do you all think?????

Happy Monday!!!!

2005-10-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

I had a simple weekend!!!!

Friday NADDA.......NOTHING Me and my youngest went out for burgers and I was asleep by 9.......

Saturday: groceries..............bills paid......and hung out at my fav lil hole in the wall!!! SOLO I love going out alone.....I think people(men) feel sorry for you!!! LOL

random.men: "who are you with?"

me: i'm by myself

random.men: really? Let me by you a drink!!!

It seems people think you're lonely when you come out alone!!! Too funny!!!

Sunday: rest.....rest....and more rest.......I watched Love Jones laid in bed ate....ate...slept......ate...slept...coooked a great dinner......red beans and rice, fried chicken and corn bread....yummy!!!! and yellow cake with chocolate frosting!!!
Happy Monday y'all!!! How was your weekend?~~~~

My son is the best!!!!

2005-10-21T07:43:00.000-07:00

James (my oldest) is the bestest son!!!! He had the car all day yesterday!!!! It has become our little ritual that he can drop me off at work on his payday!!!! That way after school he can pick up his paycheck and take care of his "biddness" lol

He went to Starbucks this morniong and got me my white chocolate mocha with xxxtra carmel sauce......yeah!!! Then when I got in the car to come to work this morning, he had not only a FULL TANK OF GAS but he got me the Alicia Keys c.d. on my seat!!!!!

My son is the best 17 year old a mom could ask for!!!!!

His best friend just had a BIG fight with his mom on Wednesday night and he has been at out house that last few nights. James told him "my mom may yell and cuss but she ALWAYS apologizes and comes and talks to me later! She would never throw me out"

I can't ever see us getting into it THAT bad that I would have to put my baby out!!! I'm soooo glad we get along!!! I am BLESSED!!!

Y'all have a great weekend.....i'm listening to Alicia right now!!!

THE "LIAR" STRIKES AGAIN!!!!

2005-10-20T08:43:00.000-07:00

For thoose of you who don't know...the "Liar" is my ex.....who after 2 1/2 years, I found out he has a wife back in Dallas. I found out back in March that was the end!!! No excuses no apologies just me cussing and screaming and him walking off leaving me in his truck with the keys........SCARY ASS PUNK!!!!

Antywho......he went out to sea for 6 months and I never had any contact.......Until about 2 weeks ago I bumped into him at a spot we both frequent.......he wasn't due back for another month........I was having a ball and then BAM!!!!! He walks up to me ans whispers in my ear "SORRY" after 6 months of tears.ice.cream.over.eating.breakup.shopping.feeling.hella.bad.why.me.

Now I get an e-mail from him yesterday. When I saw his name, I cringed....so many feelings/emotions came back all at once.......GUESS WHAT THE E-MAIL SAID???? ARE YOU READY FOR THIS????

"HOW ARE YOU DOING"

You broke my heart and that's all you can say????

Help me out here y'all!!!!

Yeah I wrote him back and REALLY LET HIS ASS HAVE IT!!!!!

I have yet to get a reply!!!!! hmmmppphhh!!! I think I will go to the adult "goodie" store tonite and get me some treats!!!! LOL
~~~~~~Hope y'all have a great Friday eve~~~~~~~~

What a great weekend!!!!

2005-10-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

Saturday morning me and my girl met my aunt her hubby her best friend and her hubby. We caught a boat from Long Beach to Catalina island for a weekend of live Jazz and drinks!!!

We arrived around 11 a.m we checked into our condo, changed clothes and we were off!!! We had lunch in a very swanky mansion with a view of the WHOLE island..........lots of wine and lots of food!!! A little sight seeing back to the condo to relax and drink a lil more. We got dressed and hit the island for a lil "nite life" WE HAD A BALL!!!

sunday a concert at noon and a another at 7. For the 7 concert it was raining sooo hard but that didn't stop anyone!!!! The hall was still packed!!!! Our boat left a little late so we didn't get back to Long Beach until after 1 a.m wich means I didn't get back to my car until 2 a.m!!!! I got on the freeway at 2:30 a.m and got back to San Diego at 4:30 a.m DAM.I.WAS.TIRED!!!!! Then like and IDIOT, I slept 3 hours and came in to work!!!!!! DUMB!!!! I felt a 2nd wind but it only lasted until noon then I couldn't keep my eyes open!!!!!

Last night I slept from 6 until this morning!!!!!

I HAD A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!! I NEEDED THAT!!!!

HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND?

Tagged and didn't know it!!!!

2005-10-14T07:35:00.000-07:00

I was taggedby black silk and didn't even know it!!!

3 things I don't understand:

1. why people are so mean to one another!!
2. why people are so dam nosey!!!
3. why i'm so bad with money!!!

3 things on my desk:

1. pictures of my boys
2. pics of my brother and his son
3. too many dam charts!!!!

3 things i'm doing right now:

1. having my coffee
2. listening to music
3. playing hookey

3 things I would like to do before I die:

1. go on a cruise
2. run a marathon
3. learn to swim

3 thing I can do:

1. cook
2. dance
3. understand and speak a lil spanish

3 ways to describe my personality:

1. life of the party
2. friendly
3. considerate

3things I can't do:

1. SWIM
2. sleep late
3. TYPE (yeah i'm a 2 finger pecker....what?)

3 things you should listen 2:

1. your elders
2. your inner voice
3. loved ones that have your best intrest at heart!!!

3 things you shouldn't listen to:

1. gossip
2. people who don't have your best intrest at heart
3. people who are not in a better posistion than you

3 things I say:

1. ummmmhmmmph
2. oi'
3. okaaay

3 fav foods:

1. mexican
2. soul food
3. Thai

3 things I would like to learn:

1. TO SWIM
2. to speak another language
3. to play an instrument

3 beverages I drink regularly:

1. water
2. coffee
3. beer

3 shows I watched as a kid:

1. good times
2. different strokes
3. facts of life

3 things I wish people would learn:

1. do onto others as you would have them do onto you!!
2. what goes around comes around!!
3. life is too short!!!!

I will not tag anyone else......so y'all can all relax!!!!! LOL

Have a great weekend!!! I will!!! I'm off to Catalina Island for the Jazztrak jazz festival!!!

Titleless Tuesday...........

2005-10-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

I don't have a topic today!!!!

That will NOT stop me from posting..........lol

Too tight jeans has NOT called me back!!!!

I sent him a "good morning" text twice last week with no response!!!!

Could it be that he felt that I was not "feeling" him or the jeans?

Why do I work with soooo many haters?

Why are they sooooo concerned with what my responsibilities are?

Why did my son take his senior pics on Sunday and the prices are FUCKING outta this world?

The smallest package is.........................$225 for 8 gift portraits(wallets)

Why am I thinking of dressing him back up and taking his ass to Sears Portrait Studio?

DAM I NEED A "HUSTLE"!!!!

Any legal ideas???? Jail doesn't suit me!!!!!

One of my bestest gurl friends up and decides she's moving to Atlanta......

I want to be happy for her but I will miss her sooooo much!!!!

I wrote her a long sappy ass e-mail telling her how I wanted her to stay for my own "SELFISH" reasons...................

I felt bad because I didn't wish her well right away!!!!!

Now i'm over it!!!! Looks like I will have to make trips to the ATL!!!!

Why am I addicted to M.T.V.'S "sweet 16?

I can't stand rich ass brats!!!!!!

WHY IS IT ALMOST CHRISTMAS?????

WHERE DID THE YEAR GO??????

I better get to work now!!!! HAPPY TUESDAY Y'ALL

Remember my Grandma..............

2005-10-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

Today is my grandmas birthday. She passed away in March. I still can't believe she's gone............this May when I was picking out my Mothers day cards, I picked up 2 Grandma cards like I have always done. Then I realized I only have ONE now!!!! That really made me sad!!!

All week I have been anxious about today, wondering what emotions I would be feeling.........I want to remember all the things she taught me. I want to feel happy for her because I know she is in a better place. I know she is happy. I know she is "pain free".

I can not forget all that she taught me about being a lady and about life in general:
"ladies ALWAYS sit with their legs crossed. "

"ladies never ever leave the house without looking your best!!!"

"young ladies speak correct English. It seperates you from the rest"

"if you have it to give, give what you can, you will be better off"

"cook from the heart, with love"

"always walk with your head up high and shoulders back"

"look people in the eyes when they talk to you"

"listen when people talk to you, then respond"

"KEEP IN TOUCH WITH BOTH SIDES OF YOUR FAMILY, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE TO TEACH YOU"!!!

I can not imagine how it would feel to have your only child pass on before you. My dad died in November then my grandma in March. When I went home for my dad's funeral my grandma seemed fine. Then four months later she was gone.

I will remember all the fun I had with her. I will remember all the important things she taught me that I pass on to my kids. I will remember her!!!

Every October 9th I will remember Barbara Jean. A great mother, wife,mother, sister, aunt and friend. A REAL LADY who helped me to become the woman I am today!!!

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA!!!

Now im gonna drink me some coffee like grandma would do and read the paper........anybody got some Lou Rawls I can listen to?Cause grandma loved to listen to him!!!

Have a great Sunday y'all!!!

Shady negroes and dumb brauds............

2005-10-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

My cell rings at work.....I usually don't answer at work because we are not supposed to use cells in the clinic.

me: hello

dumb.ass: who is this?

me: this is Dee

dumb.ass: this is really awkward....

me: well i'm at work so I don't have long........who are you?

dumb.ass: welll this is kind of hard but my man has your number.....do you know Stephan?

me: ummm no!!!!
see folks....I have been giving my number out..........in an effort to date and get out there..............so I have been giving out the digits where as I usually DON'T.

dumb.ass: he is tall and dark skinned dresses really nice.................
HELLO.THAT.IS.EVERY.NEGRO.I.TALK.TO.DUHHH.MY.TYPE

me: ummm no I really don't remember him

dumb.ass: well he called you on his cell last nite!!!

me: well I don't really remember who he is....I am single and I give my number out A LOT!!!

dumb.ass: sorry to bother you.......

After getting off the phone I thought back to who he was....I remembered who dude was....I am horrible with names but I will tell his ass to never ever call me again!!!!
I had never spoken to him on the phone or anything.......

Cell rings after work on my way home!!!!

me: hello

dumb.ass: hi it's Tanya(like we are buddies)

me: yeah

dumb.ass: I spoke with you earlier....just trying to figure out why Stephan is calling you......

me: well did you ask him?

dumb.ass: no not yet....but I know somthing is up!!!!

me: well sweet heart you have to go with your intuition......if you feel something is wrong, it is!!!! But you don't have to worry about me.........

dumb.ass: do you know Patrick or Tee?

me: who? ummm no

dumb.ass: they are his boys.......maybe they called you from his phone......

me: sweetie how old are you? (cause now i'm getting pissed)

dumb.ass: 41

me: you are wasting your time talking to me....i'm not fucking your man nor will I ever!!!!! IF YOU THINK SOMETHING IS WRONG, IT PROBABLY IS!!!! BUT I'M NOT THE ONE!!!!!

dumb.ass: well we have been having problems.his.cell.is.in.my.name.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.my gurl works for verizon and I can monitor his calls.

Me: like I said you are wasting your time talking to me......try another number.....GOODBYE!!!!

DUMBASS BRAUD!!!!!

I spoke to dude last nite and told him:

your girl called me last nite!!!! throw my number away!!!!!!

you know this asshole said" i'm sorry about that.....what did you tell her?"

Get the fuck off my phone!!!!!!

Happy Thursday!!!! Oh yeah, tight jeans has not called me at all!!!!! Maybe he felt the dam.your.pants.aint.right.vibes.I was giving!!! LOL

SINCE YOU TWISTED MY ARM..................

2005-10-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

SINCE I WAS "OUTTED" BY AT LEAST TWO FELLOW BLOGGERS ...........................WHO SHALL NOT BE "OUTTTED" they know who they are!!!! LOL I guess I better post!!!!!

Here goes.........

Thursday nite.....my favorite bartender (well she is a friend as well) had a party after work for her birthday. I t was a good time. she introduced me to a guy that she tought wae "perfect" for me lol we chatted all nite and had a great time.

Friday nite...............I met said guy for coffee and we chatted some more. He took me to his place of business and explained to me what he does and showed me around and we chatted some more!!!! He is cool...easy to talk to funny but i'm not attracted to him on the physical you know?
side note: I usually opt for the physical attraction. well a lot of good that has done for me in the past....maybe I need to re-think just how important physical attraction is!!!!!
He is a gentleman, funny as hell ( a plus for some one as silly as me) and has good conversation...........great.........but I don't want to rip his clothes off!!!!! LOL

Saturday: my good friends partner had his retirement party. He retired after 20 years in the Marines. It was quite the event......DAM I WISH I COULD POST THE PICS!!! Y'ALL KNOW "them boys really know how to throw a party"!!! We all wore all white and everyone looked nice!!!! I wore a white corsette(sp?) with black lil flowers, whit capris and black strappy heels.....shit I couldn't breath or sit but I LOOKED GOOD!!!! I was a hit with the lesbians though....lol!!!! I stayed til almost 4 helping clean up!!!!

WHY DO FOLKS JUST GRAB PLATES TO GO AND NOT HELP CLEAN UP?

Sunday: sleep and sleep some more........then I went out on a dinner date and walked in the park after we ate..................it was cool but..............................his jeans were too TIGHT!!!!! I'm sorry y'all his shoes and shirt were cool but I.COULD.NOT.STOP.LOOKING.AT.HIS.TIGHT.ASS.A.LIL.TOO.SHORT.JEANS.

I am no run way model but.........I try not to judge but like I told my gurl It just helps to "look the part" LOL

He is really really nice though..........HAPPY TUESDAY Y'ALL

I WILL TRY TO POST AGAIN SOON SO I DON'T GET IN ANY TOUBLE FROM MY FELLOW BLOGGERS WHO SHALL REMAIN NAMELESS........................

Wednesday....What??

2005-09-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

It's wedsnesday........

Nothing much to talk about today!!!

Met a guy, he's all right I guess.....We will see!!!!

work is still the same......slave labor....LOL

I one of my good friends is having a big party on Saturday and I don't have an outfit yet!!!! We have to wear ALL WHITE....I have to be FIERCE you know how the gay boys do it!!!!!

I am sooooo feeling the Charlie Wilson cd.....check it out!!!!

Why do I have a "unibrow"? I better take care of this tonite!!!!

Why did my friends neglect to get our tickets to see MUSIQ at the house of blues?

I need new responsible friends!!!!! LOL

Happy Wednesday!!!!

All star tribute to Luther.....

2005-09-26T14:23:00.000-07:00

I went out yesterday and got the all star tribute to Luther. I lub me some Luther.....I grew up listening to him and my kids are growing up to him.

MARY J./ never too much: she did o.k. I am a Mary fan. Period I know a lot of folks don't care for her but I have ALWAYS liked her style.

USHER/superstar: I have never really been an usher fan but he SANG.THIS.SONG. He did a great job........LOVE IT!!!!!

FANTASIA/TIL MY BABY COMES HOME:1st of all who let her take part in the project? I'm so not feeling ghetto.fabulous.period.

BEYONCE' & STEVIE WONDER/SO AMAZING: shit you could have put Michelles.clumsy.non.singing.falling.on.106.and.park.ass on the record with Stevie and it would have still been the shit!!!

ARETHA/A HOUSE IS NOT A HOME: What can I say!!!! Aretha.......is aretha

DONNA SUMMER/POWER OF LOVE: ***crickets chirping....hmmmm

ALICIA KEYS/IF THIS WORLD WERE MINE: she did a good job.......doesn't give me goose bumps

ELTON JOHN&LUTHER/ANYONE WHO HAD A HEART: AWESOME!!! I have always liked Elton John....ALWAYS!!!!

CELINE DION/DANCE WITH MY FATHER: she did it justice!!!! Sang it like it was written for her. she has such a pretty voice!!!

WYCLEF JEAN/ALWAYS AND FOREVER: WHY?????WHY???WHY????
WHY.IN.DA.HELL.WOULD.CLIVE.DAVIS.LET.HIM.MESS.THIS.CLASSIC.UP?

BABYFACE/IF ONLY FOR ONE NIGHT: He did a great job. He is "babyface" but I think he could have did a better job on another song.......

PATTI LABELLE/HERE & NOW: after all she is "PATTI" the DIVA she put her own spin on it and did the dam thing!!!!

JOHN LEGEND/LOVE WON'T LET ME WAIT: He also did a good job. someone else could have probably did better but hey.......you can get through the song!!!

ANGIE STONE/SINCE I LOST MY BABY: Angie did a great job. she will have you moving to the beat for sure!!!!! Go Angie!!!

JAMIE FOXX/CREEPIN: He put it DOWN!!!! He put his own spin on it and saaannngg!!! He was the right person to do this song!!!! LUVED IT!!!

All and all I liked this cd. I am not usually fond of remakes. This really is a tribute to one of the greatest singers ever!!!! It was worth every penny.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE VH1 HIP HOP HONORS TONIGHT ON VH1!!!!

YEAH I LUV ME SOME HIP-HOP!!!! ONLY THE REAL SHIT....NOT THE "HOTT.GARBAGE.THEY.TRY.AND.PASS.AS.HIP-HOP."

sometimes you need a male point of view.........

2005-09-21T08:59:00.000-07:00

Big shot out to "organized noise" for his advice on THE LIAR!!!!!

I have thought about his comment for a few days and he makes soooo much sense!!!!

Thanks though to my 'blog gurls" for their advice also. It sorta makes you feel a lil better when y'all threaten to help me "whoop" on him and tell me what an ass hole he is etc...etc....

I was at a "stand- still" so to speak. Not moving foward. I guess still hurting. Now that I bumped into him and got his fucked up wannabe apology, I realize.....i'm OVER HIM!!!!!

TIME TO MOVE ON..........................

THANKS TO ALL OF YOU FOR THE GREAT ADVICE!!!!!

Is "i'm sorry ever enough?

2005-09-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

I bumped into "the LIAR" saturday nite!!! Me and the girls were out> I was all "dolled" up and feeling really good!!!! We had "SPONSORSHIP" (free drinks all nite) We were having a ball...........then out of no where here he comes!!!!!

Now for thoose of you who don't know...........lemme take you back!!!! The LIAR is my ex......I broke up with him in March. I would take y'all back to the posts about him but you all know I don't know how to link SHIT!!!! Go back to the posts titled "LET'S TALK ABOUT THE LIAR" Any who.........we broke up cause after being an item for 2 years.....he forgot to tell me he has a wife back home in Dallas!!!!!! The nite I found out......he wouldn't "man up" and confess......I confronted him, he stood there with a dumb ass look on his face, I called him a few "choice names" and that was it!!!!!

I avoided the places we both frequented.....then he left for deployment( that's where the ship leaves for 6 months)....well he was not due back until October according to my calculations..........

Well back to Saturday nite!!!! He walks up to me and I drop my head!!!! Dam now i'm ready to go!!!! He walks his NON.TRUTH.WIFE.HIDING.ASS. up to me and wispers in my ear..............I'M SORRY!!!

what the fuck!!!!!! SORRY????? Then he walks out the door leading to the patio.........................SORRY!!!! 1st I thought that was enough but then I got mad.....................hell blame it on the martinis....

He broke my heart, in lil tiny pieces.....He is not the man of character I thought he was!!!!! He lied to me for 2 whole year. I LOVED HIS BLACK ASS!!!

ALL I GET IS I'M SORRY!!!!!

THAT HURTS!!!!!

HAPPY MONDAY TO YOU ALL!!!!!!

The "liar posts are July 12th and 13th